Be Careful 2


Well-known member
Jan 18, 2007
be careful kavonretep is false .. a space would make it too easy


power per pound

a new standardized measurement to caluclulate a persons power.

it consists of three tests: strength, flexibility and endurance.

an athlete is given the tests.

then the results are calculated and the athlete is given his power per pound rating.

this will eliminate the need for scouts and will greatly increase the effectiveness of any

coach, team, and any sport in general.



when a person can do something better than you, aknowledge that fact, then emulate them.

continue to emulate them until you understand why they do what they do.

once you understand, you can elevate your own abilities beyond the average.

once you emulate, try to think of ways to better it, then try it.

once you understand this, you will understand that nothing, not even fighting is physical.

it is all mental.

once you realize it is all mental, you can elevate your mind, body, and spirit far beyond

human levels.

you can understand the entire universe with this method.

you can understand anything using this method.

stay true to your morals no matter what.

regardless if you have good morals or bad, if you stay true to your beliefs, you will

never feel doubt, and the lord will favor you.

empathy is a good emotion because it promotes understanding.

understanding is the key.

once you understand something, you can see it.

what you see before you understand is an illusion.

what you see once you understand is the truth.

pride should not be confused with ego.

ego is believing you are better, pride is knowing you are.

the man with wisdom also knows that great pride comes from great humbleness.

you may ask, "how so?" you learn nothing without humbling yourself.

you attain pride through this action because you remember what you were taught, you

remember learning your lesson well, and you remember wanting to make your teacher proud

that they taught you.

once you perfect the technique you were taught, you are proud, and your teacher is proud.

later in life when someone below your level tries to defy you, you will remember what you

were taught and you will feel compelled to teach the person a lesson you were taught.

if they do not listen, then you show them why they should.

prove your pride.

show people how it feels to be on the top, and on the bottom.

make sure they understand what they are giving up if they choose not to accept.

edwin starr once said, "war, what is it good for? absolutely nothing."

the truth is, when the spirit and the mind goes to war against each other, it is good.

the reason is that it builds character, it ends any conflicts between spirit and mind.

you must ask yourself, "are we godless beings created by total randomness?

or were we created for a divine purpose?"

the bible says people were created in gods image.

we have all the feelings the world owns. hate, love, rage,compassion.

so does god.

people think he is perfect, yet we were made in his image.

one of peoples favorite phrases are, "people arent perfect."

to that i say perfection can be achieved for both humans and our lord.

to do things with honor, pride, and dignity are the first steps.

even the most wicked of souls are taught this before anything.

when you die, you have no choice but to be honorable.

laws in the afterlife are bound to your soul and there is no escaping that fact.

that is why spirits attempt to harm alive people, but they cannot.

the wicked cannot defy, and the divine cannot defy.

the reason satan was granted the power to temporarily avoid this is because of an emotion

he once had.

it was the emotion of imbalance.

he felt things were done wrongly, and god allows this kind of defiance.

he looks at it as a debate.

for if you can defeat the lord, surely you are right.

sadly, satan did not fully understand the lord.

he did not heed my advice of emulation.

he did not understand that emulation is the only way to the next level.

instead he tried to force.

the reason he does not understand is that it is not important to him at this time.

he only lives in the present with no care for the future.

for if he did, he would realize that things get old.

you get tired of repetitive things.

eventually even satan will turn from his ways.

people will always want to try new things once they have made the decision that they are

tired of things.

that is why the lord is everyones lord.

that is why the lord is called I am.

he is everything.

he is you, he is me, he is satan, he is the holy priest.

he understands us all.

he chose to give us all seperate names, but together, we are, "I am."

do not let the illusion fog your mind.

rebuke temporary happiness.

realize there is something far greater.

now, open your eyes and look at the world with new eyes.

ones that can see through the fog.

ones that sees the amazing world that engulfs you.

realize you are a part of it always and one day you will go back to it.

understand the lord and he will suredly be happy.


The Tracks

a wise young man and an ignorant young man walk down the train tracks.

to the left of them, beauty.

to the right of them, horror.

the ignorant man goes to the left and the wise man yells out, "never go to the left!"

the ignorant man says, "why?"

the wise man says, "you will find out."

the ignorant man mutters, "ok."

he continues into the happiness.

the wise man keeps walking.

after some time the wise man becomes hungry, so he sits on the tracks and eats.

the ignorant man crawls out of the happiness.

he says, "happiness has destroyed me."

the wise man mumbles with his mouth full,

"so now do you know why i said to never go to the left?"

the ignorant man says, "i am not the same, i am wise now as well."

then he speaks the words that make the angels themselves cry.

he says, "i filled myself with bliss."

"i had no cares."

"i did not care to eat beacuse i did not want."

"i did not care to do anything."

"i did not care to even beat my heart."

then the wise man said to him, "suredly thats not true, for you would have died."

then the ignorant man said, "the ignorant man did die."

"for what you see now is what is left."

the wise men stood up and continued to walk down the tracks.



people tell me my forefathers left me nothing.

they left me no land, no riches, no glory.

these people do not realize that they are blind.

what i mean by this is that they cannot see a thing.

they are looking right at me, telling me this, and they do not realize that

my ancestors gave me everything i am.

they gave me my body.

they gave me my mind.

they gave me my soul.

to me, they are greater than if you were given the universe itself.

to the other, it is less than an acre of land.

it is funny to me.

i wonder how much they think their mind, body, and soul would cost.

i wonder if i could buy them for an acre of land.

i wonder if they will ever realize that that acre

is only



of sand.


Memory Dump

awareness is the key.

avoid complacency at all cost.

what killed the cat?


it was curiosity that made the cat want to look into the hole.

it was stupidity that made the cat stick its head into the hole.


Random Access

dreams are a trip.

nightmares suck.

but even so, there is alot to be learned from nightmares.

most people dont realize this, but if you see something, you have the ability to emulate it.


ZEN 0101111

never quit, never give up, defend, dont attack.

only then will you know the truth.

generosity before greed.

only then will you feel the truth.


only then will you accept the truth.

wisdom and understanding are two of the most important "things" a person can have.

another is determination.

another is harmony.

i will let you decide the rest.


Circle Of Iron

i watched a movie today, it was called circle of iron.

the movie was written by bruce lee.

it was made after he died.


the movie was great.

it was a movie every living man and woman should watch.

i will not spoil it, yet i wish i could.


My Son

my son is great.

my son is strong and proud.

my son has the intensity of a thousand men.

how is this possible?


My Daughter

my daughter is great.

she has the fire of a volcano.

she has the rage of a thousand men.

how is this possible?


End Song

where do i belong?

i must move on.

to where



too bad that i dont fit in anywhere in this cruel world.

ive read books and seen movies of characters like me, yet none are real.

i guess i have to come to the conclusion that i am also not real.

my faith in myself, never yields.

i have come to the conclusion that i am always was.'

complexity is far too simple.

a yawning symbol, well, thats a different story.



the man who deiphered the code looked in the mirror and realized

that he is not the same man he used to be.

he curses the code.

he hates the code.

life was so much easier when bathed in stupidity.

he begs for the blindness again.

he then realizes ____________ .

then he realizes i am is his brother.

baby dont cry.


i hope that my dedication of three days will go noticed.

i do not wish to attain fame, money, or women.

i wish you the best of luck my brothers. may the lord favor you.

the key to the next seven levels are included.

it is time for ruthless to rest.

this sentence is for you.




Urgent "Addition"

which would the lord choose?

the open book?

or the vault?

the answer is easy.

the lord does not take chances.

that is the reason satan is in hell.

this is also proof that the lord is not perfect.

think about it. then again...






HEH... order out of chaos? HA!... understanding the chaos is the way. then you will understand

it is already in order... GAME KNOWS GAME

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that is the end of my message. i do want you to know that there are those with power and they think they know what i am doing. to them i say, "the boy scouts motto." i hope you are as i. i am here to free for a sense of power. you are here to enslave for a sense of power. ying and yang. mass zen is on its way and there is nothing you can do about it. to the blind... i wish you could see my words. be careful.

no hope? HA!


this is for darby. it was an honor to meet you sir. i remember everything.

god i make it too easy... i bet the lords gonna be pissed.

yet i must...

sorry lord, but i had to.

you fixed it the last time, so let me have another crack at it.

if i fail this time, i will stop. i promise.

i know your tired of cleaning up my mess.

...but i must try. i must have a purpose.

this is perfect. there is no higher form of art or expression.



New member
Mar 11, 2007
look five lines up
the mirror

hi mr.ruthless hope you like this one.

Rewrite this poem using metaphors and specific elements in nature….

Male version

the mirror

in the mirror i see a man,

a man that wants to be a man this man has never seen,

a man he wish he could be,

if that man could really see he was really me.

Female version

the mirror

in the mirror i see a woman,

a woman that wants to be a woman this woman has never seen,

a woman she wish she could be,

if that woman could really see she was really me.

Once you have rewriting the poem ask a friend to rewrite the poem as well and compare your true selves. Remember your unconscious does not lie and hopefully you use this poem to shape your life to live the best life of your ability.


New member
Mar 8, 2001

My friend, your post greatly disturbed me. I tried calling you at home and was told that you've moved to Alabama.

Please PM or email me at ASAP. I couldn't find a number for you in Alabama and I want to talk to you.

My friend, it's important that we talk.



New member
Mar 11, 2007
look five lines up
he is you, he is me, he is satan, he is the holy priest.

he understands us all.

he chose to give us all seperate names, but together, we are, "I am."

remember mr. ruthless that yes you are correct but what makes evil "evil" is the disenchantment for god, they have the freewill to choose so. they sometimes try to make others to think in this fashion and that is truly destructive to the being they convince.
Apr 1, 2008

Well I missed your post by a few days but that is ok. I sent you a couple of emails. Gave someone heck about you. But I see you posted so I guess your ok.



Stop worrying about "You know who". Just post as normal and be yourself again and if you see "You know who's" post to you or someone else don,t read it. Just skip it and go to the next post. If "You know who" makes a habit of bothering you report it to mop. Also, watch the TOS that is how "You know who" gets you. Don't let a bully run you off. Other than that come on back to the group. Be yourself again. Don,t worry about it. Reactor out.


70,000 Tachyons
Dec 23, 2003
Stop worrying about "You know who". Just post as normal and be yourself again and if you see "You know who's" post to you or someone else don,t read it. Just skip it and go to the next post. If "You know who" makes a habit of bothering you report it to mop. Also, watch the TOS that is how "You know who" gets you. Don't let a bully run you off. Other than that come on back to the group. Be yourself again.
And guess what?

"Ewe gno hu" feels exactly the same way.

Apr 1, 2008
Skiping post


See, I skiped the persons post above this one without reading it to avoid getting drawn into anything and to stay on topic per this thread. It works good. Anyway I will leave you. Welcome back.


Well-known member
Jan 18, 2007
there was alot more to it, but i had to shorten it considerably because when i posted all of it, the page didnt work.

i might post the rest one day depending on a few things.


New member
Dec 25, 2006
Ottawa, Canada

Sound like you are channeling something

deep inside you I think. So be careful OK.

I read some similar stuff about the lord

in the Apocrypha.

Interesting stuff in there(Apocrypha) which

I read Ecclesiasticus.

When you are ready I'll read the rest of your




Well-known member
Jan 18, 2007



1/20/2008 8:03:03 PM carey heather are you there?

1/20/2008 8:03:19 PM carey heather are you there?

1/20/2008 8:03:22 PM carey heather are you there?

1/20/2008 8:03:24 PM carey heather are you there?

1/20/2008 8:03:26 PM carey heather are you there?

1/20/2008 8:03:29 PM carey heather are you there?

1/20/2008 8:03:31 PM carey heather are you there?

1/20/2008 8:03:34 PM carey heather are you there?

1/21/2008 4:36:05 PM carey heather

1/21/2008 4:36:22 PM carey heather why would he say that to me?

1/21/2008 4:37:16 PM heather carey you want to know really why he would say that?

1/21/2008 4:37:20 PM heather carey and why are you asking me?

1/21/2008 4:37:34 PM heather carey as if you know i know what he is talking about

1/21/2008 4:37:39 PM carey heather it bothered me

1/21/2008 4:37:52 PM heather carey ok, so you asking me because i am some one you trust?

1/21/2008 4:38:18 PM heather carey i have a reason for asking you and making this statements please respond

1/21/2008 4:38:22 PM heather carey it is very important

1/21/2008 4:38:42 PM carey heather no, i dont trust you, i was asking your opinion.

1/21/2008 4:38:54 PM heather carey you will find out then

1/21/2008 4:39:02 PM carey heather ok

1/21/2008 4:39:33 PM heather carey it should bother you

1/21/2008 4:39:44 PM heather carey it should

1/21/2008 4:40:43 PM heather carey Is it selfish or a defect in creation?

1/21/2008 4:41:12 PM carey heather that was the words of a scam artist.

1/21/2008 4:41:20 PM heather carey no

1/21/2008 4:41:24 PM carey heather he has been proven a con and a liar

1/21/2008 4:42:00 PM carey heather dont believe me? want to talk to him? he's online and on my friends list right now

1/21/2008 4:42:08 PM heather carey you know what immanual means? we have all been proven a con, a liar, we have also been proven to be children of the earth, humans who make mistakes.

1/21/2008 4:42:54 PM carey heather you hold that dearly until your day of judgement maam. i wont, ill believe another thing, and we shall see who gets what.

1/21/2008 4:43:17 PM heather carey beware of the weeping angels

1/21/2008 4:43:22 PM heather carey what do u think that means

1/21/2008 4:43:37 PM carey heather add him to your friends list and talk to him

1/21/2008 4:43:44 PM heather carey no

1/21/2008 4:44:06 PM carey heather he was telling people to beware of me...

1/21/2008 4:44:21 PM carey heather i dont like it, and you dont know what your talking about

1/21/2008 4:44:31 PM heather carey i do know what i am talking about

1/21/2008 4:44:43 PM heather carey you cant stand that i may know what i am talking about

1/21/2008 4:44:50 PM heather carey because you have no respect for me

1/21/2008 4:44:58 PM carey heather absolutely none

1/21/2008 4:45:03 PM heather carey and that is where our relationship is in trouble

1/21/2008 4:45:10 PM heather carey do not ask me if you do not want my answer

1/21/2008 4:45:28 PM carey heather i didnt want your answer, i wanted your opinion

1/21/2008 4:45:38 PM carey heather your emotionless opinion

1/21/2008 4:46:08 PM heather carey if i see a sign on a door that says beware of dog, chances are i wont walk through that door. maybe u should take the advice of that sign

1/21/2008 4:46:28 PM carey heather im not afraid of dogs...

1/21/2008 4:46:41 PM heather carey maybe you life is not a nightmare, and maybe whoever posted that phrase of they want their life back is setting a trap for little ole you

1/21/2008 4:46:55 PM heather carey maybe you would lose the life that you think is a nightmare

1/21/2008 4:46:59 PM heather carey and wake into reality

1/21/2008 4:47:06 PM carey heather that would be nice

1/21/2008 4:47:17 PM heather carey reality being this is not a nightmare but what opened up is something much greater

1/21/2008 4:47:25 PM heather carey i will tell you think

1/21/2008 4:47:42 PM heather carey without emotional opinion that you hold

1/21/2008 4:47:45 PM heather carey so dearly

1/21/2008 4:48:04 PM heather carey maybe the best advice i could give you

1/21/2008 4:48:07 PM heather carey is be happy

1/21/2008 4:48:11 PM heather carey try to be happy

1/21/2008 4:48:14 PM heather carey no matter

1/21/2008 4:48:33 PM heather carey but the reason i know what the person was talking about

1/21/2008 4:48:42 PM heather carey is because i am a human that makes mistakes

1/21/2008 4:48:48 PM heather carey and i learn

1/21/2008 4:48:58 PM heather carey u dont have to believe me, time will show you

1/21/2008 4:49:15 PM heather carey and i guessed for a long time why i haven't told you the truth

1/21/2008 4:49:16 PM carey heather that person is looked at by the rest of the community as stupid and foolish.

1/21/2008 4:49:18 PM heather carey now i know why

1/21/2008 4:49:31 PM heather carey yeah and would you follow the rest of the community

1/21/2008 4:49:33 PM heather carey no

1/21/2008 4:49:37 PM carey heather yes

1/21/2008 4:49:44 PM heather carey no u would not now you are lying

1/21/2008 4:49:57 PM carey heather they usually make the same decision i would, they are smart, successful people

1/21/2008 4:50:33 PM heather carey the rest of the community goes out every day telling lies, living in a grey area which you say does not exsist-

1/21/2008 4:50:50 PM heather carey you say it is not good to work, they say it is

1/21/2008 4:50:58 PM heather carey you say it is not good to follow they say it is

1/21/2008 4:51:06 PM heather carey you say it is not good to respect your wife

1/21/2008 4:51:09 PM heather carey they say it is

1/21/2008 4:51:14 PM heather carey you say you live in a nightmare

1/21/2008 4:51:17 PM heather carey they say you dont

1/21/2008 4:51:24 PM heather carey who is lying who is telling the truth

1/21/2008 4:51:32 PM carey heather you

1/21/2008 4:59:03 PM heather carey i want u to read some thing

1/21/2008 4:59:25 PM heather carey and then we need to make a decision if we are going to end our relationship or stay together

1/21/2008 4:59:27 PM heather carey ok

1/21/2008 4:59:58 PM carey heather i dont need to read anything to decide that. that has already been decided for me by someone else

1/21/2008 5:00:10 PM heather carey i would like you to empty yourself of anger and read some thing

1/21/2008 5:00:17 PM heather carey please ia m asking

1/21/2008 5:01:11 PM heather carey are you a Christain?

1/21/2008 5:01:15 PM carey heather i'd like a cheeseburger and a coke. and please im asking aint gonna make it pop up. yeah ill read whatever you want me to, but i doubt itll make any difference to anything.

1/21/2008 5:01:36 PM carey heather im christ like

1/21/2008 5:01:56 PM heather carey are you a christian? do you believe Jesus died to save you?

1/21/2008 5:02:08 PM heather carey do you believe the word of the bible?

1/21/2008 5:03:12 PM carey heather i believe thats what he wanted, yes. yes i believe in the word of the bible, but you do not know what i mean when i say that. i do not believe the word of man. the bible was written by man. you do not understand what i mean.

1/21/2008 5:03:25 PM heather carey we get in arguements all the time and one thing i notice for sure is how you use the bible to weigh my role in our relationship. you say i have sinned against you and i am the cause of all the grief, so i am asking for you to empty your heart of anger and read some thing

1/21/2008 5:03:30 PM heather carey ready?

1/21/2008 5:03:40 PM carey heather sure

1/21/2008 5:03:49 PM heather carey

1/21/2008 5:03:57 PM heather carey i will go make you some thing to eat while you read

1/21/2008 5:08:18 PM carey heather I Timothy 3:3-5, and he speaks of ruling your own house. Now this discipline should be with love. Many times discipline is administered without love.

1/21/2008 5:11:31 PM carey heather i read it, i wish i had the control over situations that a "christian" has. to me, its not so simple. i try to be that way, but i cannot. i admit to the lord and you that i am not strong enough to take it all in stride.

1/21/2008 5:13:35 PM carey heather everything i do, everytime i have "disciplined" i was doing what i thought was best. it was not a rash decision. it involved alot more thought than what people think. i have stressed and struggled with it within my own head before it was brought to fruition.

1/21/2008 5:15:26 PM carey heather i feel like, in my life, everyone looks at me and my way of life as wrong, and they hate me for it. but i truly believe i am a good person, and that god is proud of me and how far i have come. i know i have things about myself that arent great, but i have full faith that i will fix my problems. my mental problems.

1/21/2008 5:17:24 PM carey heather i truly feel in my soul that i am not bad. i also feel that people wrongly judge me without thinking about everything. yes, i belive hitting a person for no reason is wrong. yes, i belive hitting a person for a stupid reason is wrong. yes, i believe hitting a person to make them see the seriousness is right.

1/21/2008 5:19:09 PM carey heather there is only one thing i truly want in this world, and that is this: for my wife to be my wife, for my children to be my children, for me to know that that can never be taken away from me, and that we love each other and know that we are good.

1/21/2008 5:23:04 PM carey heather if you stop and listen to who i tell you i am, and you believe in me, then i can accomplish all i ever dreamed. but if you do not, we can never flourish. i am honorable, and i will do what i say. all i ask is for there to be what that article states. you should reread it and see you are not doing what it states. you do not get off the hook just because you are a woman. a woman has to abide by the

1/21/2008 5:23:10 PM carey heather same rules.

1/21/2008 5:54:28 PM carey heather;

1/21/2008 7:28:40 PM heather carey i did not say you are a bad person, i do not think or say you are bad. i do not think i get of the hook, in fact, if you would have read it and applied it then you would have seen where we both made a mistake. that is if you want to go by a christian doctrine. now, you are the one who got angry as hell at me when you thought i wasnt a christian. now why would you get angry if you can not be one

1/21/2008 7:29:26 PM carey heather did you even read what i wrote?

1/21/2008 7:29:26 PM heather carey i do not think you are bad, i think that we make choices and dont always see the full outcome short or long term

1/21/2008 7:29:45 PM heather carey yeah so we have no communication now cuz you do not want to hear me

1/21/2008 7:29:53 PM heather carey you have to hear me too

1/21/2008 7:30:13 PM carey heather then were [censored], cause i wont let an idiot taint my thoughts.

1/21/2008 7:30:38 PM heather carey you just called me an idiot

1/21/2008 7:30:55 PM heather carey an idiot

1/21/2008 7:31:17 PM heather carey idiot?

1/21/2008 7:32:07 PM carey heather heather, that is the way i feel. your ideas are never thought out, and they are all around bad ideas. what makes you an idiot is not listening when i tell you this.

1/21/2008 7:32:41 PM heather carey so, i am an idiot- trying to taint your thoughts. so, now all my thoughts are bad ideas because i do not think? because i am an idiot

1/21/2008 7:32:44 PM carey heather did you read the link i sent you?

1/21/2008 7:32:47 PM heather carey what do you love about an idiot

1/21/2008 7:33:08 PM heather carey if u r not a christian how are you going to throw any law from the bible at me

1/21/2008 7:33:15 PM carey heather;

1/21/2008 7:33:17 PM heather carey no

1/21/2008 7:33:34 PM heather carey if you are not a christian how are you going to throw any law from the bible at me

1/21/2008 7:33:39 PM carey heather;

1/21/2008 7:33:46 PM heather carey i am not reading the bible

1/21/2008 7:33:50 PM heather carey you answer me

1/21/2008 7:33:51 PM carey heather;

1/21/2008 7:34:09 PM carey heather click that. theres ur answer

1/21/2008 7:35:40 PM carey heather do unto others as you would have them do unto you. if i were acting like you, i would want this treatment, so i am doing what the word says.

1/21/2008 7:35:57 PM carey heather read of the life that shouldve been yours.

1/21/2008 7:36:59 PM heather carey i told u i was a whore, and that is black and white. if i am not an honorable wife then i am a whore. so i am dirty to you and to God because that is what you want

1/21/2008 7:37:07 PM heather carey you see no good in me because you do not want to see good in me

1/21/2008 7:37:28 PM heather carey i never intentional set out to bring harm to you

1/21/2008 7:37:36 PM heather carey God knows that because he knows my heart

1/21/2008 7:37:37 PM carey heather when you mislead a child, you have overwhelming guilt. that is a guilt that i have. after such guilt, you never want to feel like that again, so you change.

1/21/2008 7:38:25 PM heather carey yes i may not have been thinking of no one but myself, but i didnt realize and that is what i have begun to realize. you dont want me, you have not wanted me, you need to realize and truly think about it- why do you punish me?

1/21/2008 7:39:19 PM carey heather this is why i cant stand you. fight bitch! fight until your last breath. and then enjoy that last breath, because it is your last.

1/21/2008 7:41:53 PM carey heather how great the good wife is. praise be to her. torment to the devious wife, for all she shall ever know is decline.

1/21/2008 7:42:11 PM heather carey i am not a bitch. i am not a wife

1/21/2008 7:42:19 PM heather carey i have been a slave

1/21/2008 7:42:23 PM carey heather great comeback...

1/21/2008 7:42:27 PM heather carey and i am going for my freedom

1/21/2008 7:42:43 PM carey heather yeah? freedom lies in the black.

1/21/2008 7:42:58 PM carey heather true freedom exsists in the white.

1/21/2008 7:43:28 PM heather carey you had someone once that was a real hard working wife

1/21/2008 7:43:38 PM carey heather the question is, what is freedom? and what is the correct definition?

1/21/2008 7:43:41 PM heather carey she was honorable

1/21/2008 7:43:45 PM carey heather she was not

1/21/2008 7:43:51 PM heather carey then you lie

1/21/2008 7:43:56 PM carey heather then you lie.

1/21/2008 7:44:36 PM carey heather she was never honorable, fo honor can never be lost without honor taking with it its life.

1/21/2008 7:45:06 PM carey heather people give up their lives before honor.

1/21/2008 7:45:18 PM heather carey i will not give you my life

1/21/2008 7:45:28 PM carey heather i dont want your shitty life.

1/21/2008 7:45:33 PM heather carey you are unfair

1/21/2008 7:45:45 PM carey heather neither does anyone else. what a torturous life to live.

1/21/2008 7:46:05 PM heather carey you want to take every thing from me

1/21/2008 7:46:14 PM carey heather name one thing

1/21/2008 7:46:23 PM carey heather just one

1/21/2008 7:46:25 PM heather carey ?

1/21/2008 7:46:36 PM carey heather name one thing i want to take from you.

1/21/2008 7:46:39 PM carey heather just one

1/21/2008 7:46:50 PM carey heather idiot...

1/21/2008 7:47:01 PM carey heather see how stupid you act?

1/21/2008 7:47:08 PM carey heather see the idiocy you fall upon?

1/21/2008 7:47:49 PM carey heather that is why you were disciplined, to not be able to fall back upon this idiocy.

1/21/2008 7:48:12 PM carey heather it was for your own good, but you decided to turn it. for evil devious reasons

1/21/2008 7:49:11 PM carey heather i fight you so that you may have peace before you die. i know the path to peace and understanding, but you wanted to fight and turn my teachings into dishonorable garbage.

1/21/2008 7:49:54 PM carey heather so now, that is what i am. i feel like garbage and you make me feel like my teachings are worthless. thank you for this burden.

1/21/2008 7:50:15 PM carey heather if that was not what you were trying to do, then why do it? you can see right?

1/21/2008 7:51:19 PM carey heather it says in the bible that I am the leader. not you, me. and if you loo, that is for a dfammed good reason. because we have seen what happens when you lead.

1/21/2008 7:51:55 PM carey heather you lead into blindness. i lead knowingly into awakeness.

1/21/2008 7:53:22 PM carey heather i try to help people see more clearly, i try to dust the cobwebs out of peoples brains, i try to make them think harder and further than they ever have. to see a bigger truth. one that needs you and me. honor. for it will die without me. and it will turn and wither from us.

1/21/2008 7:54:29 PM carey heather i do not have as much honor in my life as i would like, do you realize this? i dream of a day that i can practice bushido fully and wholly.

1/21/2008 7:55:03 PM carey heather i dream of a day that i do not have to fight for my beliefs. my god given beliefs.

1/21/2008 7:56:02 PM carey heather i fight for good. if you see me fight, it is for good. i never fight for bad. period. i am good. i am good. i am good.

1/21/2008 7:57:30 PM carey heather no matter how many times someone tells me i am wrong, i will not listen. when a person says something that i do not agree with, but know is true, i will not deny.

1/21/2008 7:58:21 PM carey heather what you say is not the truth. it is a made up lie, in your head and out through your mouth.

1/21/2008 7:58:44 PM carey heather and that is the only thing that is unfair about anything.

1/21/2008 8:10:58 PM carey heather will there ever be peace? or are we headed for doom still consumed by the beast? -tupac shakur

1/21/2008 8:13:26 PM heather carey if it were not for me you would have no clue what you are up against that is love

1/21/2008 8:13:50 PM carey heather love has no chance against peace.

1/21/2008 8:13:56 PM carey heather peace is wanted more.

1/21/2008 8:14:17 PM heather carey have ur peace

1/21/2008 8:14:32 PM heather carey (^)

1/21/2008 8:14:36 PM carey heather you have what you call love, yet i call hate.

1/21/2008 8:14:49 PM heather carey (U)

1/21/2008 8:15:06 PM carey heather how about your magical b vitamin?

1/21/2008 8:15:16 PM carey heather works wonders i tell ya...

1/21/2008 8:15:38 PM heather carey it is no valum the prince of valums kill you

1/21/2008 8:15:45 PM heather carey it is a mineral

1/21/2008 8:15:49 PM heather carey a vitamin

1/21/2008 8:15:53 PM heather carey it helps

1/21/2008 8:16:00 PM carey heather yeah, and it didnt do as adverised did it?

1/21/2008 8:16:17 PM carey heather helps what? to start fights? ill have to agree

1/21/2008 8:16:34 PM heather carey not a great ole big difference but taken enough over a course of a week and you would see a big ole difference, esp if you stopped taking the thing and stopped eating right

1/21/2008 8:16:47 PM heather carey yes it does the trick for me

1/21/2008 8:17:05 PM heather carey i dont need too much what i do needi do need

1/21/2008 8:17:07 PM carey heather stop eating right? you must be smokin that wicked [censored].

1/21/2008 8:17:17 PM heather carey no not stop eating

1/21/2008 8:17:21 PM heather carey eat right

1/21/2008 8:17:30 PM heather carey are you a christian

1/21/2008 8:17:38 PM carey heather no

1/21/2008 8:17:43 PM heather carey there

1/21/2008 8:17:46 PM carey heather i am a liar

1/21/2008 8:17:55 PM heather carey r u a christian

1/21/2008 8:18:02 PM heather carey r u a christian

1/21/2008 8:18:06 PM heather carey r u a christian

1/21/2008 8:18:11 PM heather carey r u a christian

1/21/2008 8:18:15 PM heather carey r u a christian

1/21/2008 8:18:17 PM heather carey ru

1/21/2008 8:18:18 PM heather carey ru

1/21/2008 8:18:19 PM heather carey ru

1/21/2008 8:18:20 PM heather carey ru

1/21/2008 8:18:21 PM heather carey ru

1/21/2008 8:18:22 PM heather carey ru

1/21/2008 8:18:22 PM heather carey ru

1/21/2008 8:18:23 PM heather carey ru

1/21/2008 8:18:24 PM heather carey ru

1/21/2008 8:18:24 PM heather carey ru

1/21/2008 8:18:25 PM heather carey ru

1/21/2008 8:18:25 PM heather carey ru

1/21/2008 8:18:26 PM heather carey ru

1/21/2008 8:18:26 PM heather carey ru

1/21/2008 8:18:27 PM heather carey ru

1/21/2008 8:18:27 PM carey heather my words are worthless, do not waste time trying to talk to me. i am a fool who will die believing in himself

1/21/2008 8:18:40 PM heather carey are you a christian

1/21/2008 8:18:42 PM heather carey yes or no

1/21/2008 8:18:48 PM heather carey are you a christian

1/21/2008 8:18:52 PM heather carey yes or no

1/21/2008 8:18:58 PM heather carey are yo a christian yes or no

1/21/2008 8:19:07 PM heather carey r u a christian yes or no

1/21/2008 8:19:13 PM heather carey yes or no are you a christian

1/21/2008 8:19:17 PM carey heather no

1/21/2008 8:19:40 PM carey heather i have no faith in anything anymore.

1/21/2008 8:20:18 PM carey heather after all, my faith is what got me into this predicament.

1/21/2008 8:20:39 PM heather carey oh blow the horn, the ship has come in

1/21/2008 8:20:44 PM heather carey i tell u the truth

1/21/2008 8:20:51 PM heather carey we are all in static states

1/21/2008 8:20:53 PM heather carey but

1/21/2008 8:20:59 PM heather carey there is reason and cause

1/21/2008 8:21:15 PM heather carey and the just with truth will rise

1/21/2008 8:21:25 PM heather carey and they will carry bullets made of silver and rose

1/21/2008 8:21:39 PM heather carey that slash through the great titans that stand on pillars of lies

1/21/2008 8:21:51 PM heather carey like bombs exploding into fire

1/21/2008 8:21:57 PM heather carey they will know no more to rule

1/21/2008 8:22:01 PM heather carey in the hour

1/21/2008 8:22:51 PM carey heather wonderful...

1/21/2008 8:23:19 PM heather carey A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth

1/21/2008 8:23:34 PM heather carey it is all in the eye of the beholder freak nasty

1/21/2008 8:23:37 PM carey heather when it is my turn to rule, i will make thos who mock me pay dearly.

1/21/2008 8:23:49 PM heather carey they say the devil does not like mockery

1/21/2008 8:24:03 PM carey heather then i am lucifer full and full

1/21/2008 8:24:11 PM heather carey in my studies i ran across some thing of the sort

1/21/2008 8:24:22 PM heather carey i thought you was just a human being

1/21/2008 8:24:32 PM carey heather beware.

1/21/2008 8:24:41 PM heather carey everytime you bring up mocking i think of three things

1/21/2008 8:24:56 PM heather carey children playing, mocking birds, and what it said about satan

1/21/2008 8:25:06 PM carey heather what a combo

1/21/2008 8:25:19 PM heather carey yes and you do not see the beauty in that

1/21/2008 8:25:22 PM heather carey ones of diversity

1/21/2008 8:25:24 PM carey heather nope

1/21/2008 8:25:28 PM heather carey excuse me

1/21/2008 8:25:31 PM heather carey lude

1/21/2008 8:25:40 PM carey heather i dont like diversity. i am racist towards diverity

1/21/2008 8:26:02 PM heather carey there is diversity, multifacet stones but they all belong in a one

1/21/2008 8:26:05 PM carey heather god does not like diversity either.

1/21/2008 8:26:06 PM heather carey silly

1/21/2008 8:26:18 PM heather carey oh but i thought u were not christian

1/21/2008 8:26:27 PM heather carey so you are not religious

1/21/2008 8:26:47 PM carey heather im not, im a satanic devil worshipper and an anarchist rounded up into one.

1/21/2008 8:26:50 PM heather carey you are a believer in God but not Jesus, so you are spiritual- studies of the old ways

1/21/2008 8:27:05 PM heather carey r u kiddin

1/21/2008 8:28:04 PM carey heather i am full of hate, driven to destroy that wich is made. that fits my character right? thats what you say at least and your just 'o so awesome. so i should believe in you and have faith that you are what you say you are.

1/21/2008 8:29:52 PM heather carey i didnt say i was anything except a whore, and there are reasons i say i am. so, i should just drop this coversation. i was just wondering if you were christian because i was just trying to see what the foundation of ur claims r. bcuz if u aint a christian i wonder constantly why you would use the king james version- when there is hebrew

1/21/2008 8:29:58 PM heather carey ok i will talk to you later

1/21/2008 8:30:02 PM heather carey bye 4 now

1/21/2008 8:30:17 PM heather carey (8)u should listen to some tunes

1/21/2008 8:30:20 PM heather carey something fun

1/21/2008 8:30:39 PM heather carey want another b12 you can take up to 3 before it upsets ur tummy

1/21/2008 8:31:46 PM carey heather i dont believew jesus did everything right. i dont believe in everything in the bible. the bible tells stories of mens lives. you can see what they wrote in spite and you can see what was written from the mind of honor. i pick and choose, and that may be wrong, but i go by my own judgement, and the bible says to do so.

1/21/2008 8:32:20 PM heather carey oh and by the way, all that bitch wife [censored]- i could have had it down pat if you could have listen to some of my instructions. sleep, food, health and [censored] like that but no. you can help me take care of you- it is okay though- blame me, burn me, i will always try hard to see ur side but i will not always fight so hard here. there are things i do have to do

1/21/2008 8:32:24 PM carey heather p told me something out of the blue last night.

1/21/2008 8:32:53 PM heather carey i understand about picking and choosing

1/21/2008 8:32:59 PM heather carey i think that is a good thing

1/21/2008 8:33:07 PM heather carey because i believe God lives within

1/21/2008 8:33:20 PM heather carey so u do okay with that and you will be alright

1/21/2008 8:33:32 PM heather carey i have faith in you i just dont like how youtreat me

1/21/2008 8:33:36 PM heather carey i know you will make it

1/21/2008 8:33:41 PM heather carey whether you are here or far

1/21/2008 8:33:41 PM carey heather he said self truth is one of the hardest things you can do. do you notice the change in p from 5 years ago? that is what your path always leads to. so go your way, you will return to me.

1/21/2008 8:33:44 PM heather carey you will be fine

1/21/2008 8:34:10 PM heather carey self truth is the hardest thing i have ever done in my life

1/21/2008 8:34:22 PM heather carey and do you think it is easy for me to see me

1/21/2008 8:34:33 PM heather carey but i have my own opinions about this

1/21/2008 8:34:39 PM heather carey and i do not trust p

1/21/2008 8:34:57 PM heather carey and i have my reasons

1/21/2008 8:35:06 PM heather carey but i am not honorable so you can not listen to me

1/21/2008 8:35:11 PM heather carey so i didnt say anything

1/21/2008 8:35:17 PM heather carey anyway i said i am done with this

1/21/2008 8:35:31 PM carey heather my mother being murdered was hardest to me. after that, my grandfather. after that, my uncle, after that, my wife and kids, after that, my own self. self truth is about number 1088 on my to 2000 list.

1/21/2008 8:36:09 PM carey heather but we are all different

1/21/2008 8:36:37 PM heather carey we all grow at different stages, and that is what i mean by diversity

1/21/2008 8:36:44 PM heather carey we are not all born the same time of day

1/21/2008 8:36:46 PM heather carey we are a whole

1/21/2008 8:36:52 PM carey heather why waste my life telling someone how hard it is only for them to say "let me see"

1/21/2008 8:36:58 PM heather carey but we are diverse creatures capable of many ideas

1/21/2008 8:37:52 PM carey heather diversity does not create, want creates. diversity just complicates.

1/21/2008 8:38:00 PM carey heather diversity=complex

1/21/2008 8:38:12 PM heather carey i had already begun the walk before we had ever discussed self truth before i had met u rusty i just didnt realize until now but that is some thing i had to do so i could understand before i speak

1/21/2008 8:38:41 PM heather carey i said diverse creatures, creatures capable of many ideas

1/21/2008 8:38:50 PM heather carey creatures capable of multipule ideas

1/21/2008 8:38:54 PM heather carey that can create

1/21/2008 8:38:57 PM heather carey or destroy

1/21/2008 8:39:03 PM heather carey in a positive or negative way

1/21/2008 8:39:08 PM heather carey do not twist my words

1/21/2008 8:39:38 PM heather carey we r the same but make different chooses

1/21/2008 8:39:41 PM carey heather i did this [censored] with my motherr when i was 10. i was such an idiot, and i wasdoing nothing but wasting time. i regret those days.

1/21/2008 8:39:58 PM heather carey how we dress, what time we rest, how we rest, where we go what we say what we do when

1/21/2008 8:40:08 PM carey heather but i guess i had to go through it to get to where i am.

1/21/2008 8:40:51 PM heather carey of course

1/21/2008 8:41:06 PM heather carey again i am [censored], bowing to a king

1/21/2008 8:41:19 PM carey heather you make me numb

1/21/2008 8:41:26 PM heather carey what do u make me

1/21/2008 8:41:55 PM carey heather i know what i try to make you, and i know what you would be if you did listen instead of challenge

1/21/2008 8:42:17 PM heather carey so far - i am dishonrable, idiot, bitch, who makes u numb.

1/21/2008 8:42:20 PM heather carey yeah i would be at ur heel

1/21/2008 8:42:25 PM heather carey where u say i belon

1/21/2008 8:42:26 PM heather carey g

1/21/2008 8:42:35 PM carey heather you would be what is prophesized.

1/21/2008 8:42:48 PM heather carey the great whore

1/21/2008 8:43:20 PM carey heather the great and honorable wife that is told about from generation to generation. never to be seen.

1/21/2008 8:43:33 PM heather carey or heard

1/21/2008 8:43:40 PM heather carey a slave

1/21/2008 8:44:00 PM carey heather yes, a slave. what do you think you are now?

1/21/2008 8:44:01 PM heather carey that gets only scraps

1/21/2008 8:44:12 PM heather carey a slave on the verge of death

1/21/2008 8:44:17 PM heather carey [censored]

1/21/2008 8:44:21 PM heather carey what the [censored] do you think

1/21/2008 8:44:25 PM carey heather you get what you deserve, and so do i for the mistakes i made in the past.

1/21/2008 8:44:35 PM heather carey blah blah blah blah

1/21/2008 8:44:42 PM heather carey [censored] all of it

1/21/2008 8:44:44 PM heather carey it is all [censored]

1/21/2008 8:44:51 PM carey heather great, cause it will [censored] you

1/21/2008 8:44:53 PM heather carey this whole text thing is [censored] [censored] [censored] [censored] [censored]

1/21/2008 8:45:06 PM heather carey the whole thing you cant count any of it

1/21/2008 8:45:09 PM heather carey you know why

1/21/2008 8:45:16 PM heather carey because

1/21/2008 8:45:19 PM heather carey because

1/21/2008 8:45:20 PM carey heather yeah, cause you cant get across something. its something that will never be.

1/21/2008 8:45:30 PM heather carey whatever

1/21/2008 8:45:34 PM heather carey u dont know what i am

1/21/2008 8:45:38 PM heather carey nope

1/21/2008 8:45:42 PM heather carey i am me

1/21/2008 8:45:45 PM heather carey and u dont like me

1/21/2008 8:45:50 PM heather carey therefore u dont know me

1/21/2008 8:45:52 PM carey heather child, you will be forgiven, for you are a child. i am not.

1/21/2008 8:46:07 PM heather carey cuz you cant stop for a second to stop calling me names, labeling or any of that

1/21/2008 8:46:14 PM heather carey blah

1/21/2008 8:46:39 PM carey heather i label you, get over it. i judge, thats what i do. if youi do not like my judgement, hate me.

1/21/2008 8:46:57 PM heather carey uuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh- then u aint readin ur bible

1/21/2008 8:47:07 PM heather carey one of the ten commandments

1/21/2008 8:47:18 PM heather carey oh wait i forgot peace took that right

1/21/2008 8:48:42 PM carey heather i hope you and god hears this: [censored] the bible. i believe in things that are right and i dont give a [censored] who likes it. i will defend myself in the face of the lord, and if he defeats me, then i will have no choice, but until then, i will fight and prepare for it, and i intend to change things and his mind on some things. i wouldnt be the first human to do it.

1/21/2008 8:49:10 PM heather carey i believe u

1/21/2008 8:49:16 PM heather carey and i believe in u

1/21/2008 8:49:30 PM carey heather your actions speak louder than your words.

1/21/2008 8:49:33 PM heather carey but i dont know where i am at with all this just yet

1/21/2008 8:49:46 PM heather carey so u will have to wait for a clear response for me and that is the truth

1/21/2008 8:49:51 PM heather carey ok

1/21/2008 8:50:08 PM carey heather you need to go where there is none, and the lord will come to you.

1/21/2008 8:50:46 PM heather carey i know that you will make change i know that there are people, people you dont know about that are behind you 110% but

1/21/2008 8:50:51 PM carey heather when you can hear your own soul speak to you without clutter, without hearing thousands at once, then you will see.

1/21/2008 8:50:53 PM heather carey i dont know where i am at with this

1/21/2008 8:51:24 PM heather carey so you will have to wait for a clear response from me for a minute because i am unsure of this inside of me so just leave me be about it all for minutes

1/21/2008 8:51:39 PM heather carey last call

1/21/2008 8:52:45 PM carey heather i am trying to pull the horse out of mud, but i cannot, for i am to weak and too frail. i try to summon up all that i have to pull, but the mud pulls hgarder. i cannot defeat the earth. for he will not let me. for if i do, he shall be proven. he cannot have that. you must decide. one cannot decide for you. tis his word.

1/21/2008 8:53:09 PM heather carey of course

1/21/2008 8:53:22 PM carey heather so i hide, and wait.

1/21/2008 8:53:26 PM heather carey now shhh mother earth needs to rest

1/21/2008 8:53:41 PM carey heather you are the horse.

1/21/2008 9:20:16 PM heather carey ok, do u have another search engine besides google, some thing more i guess maybe underground but that aint really what the word i am looking for. some thing where i can narrow my search

1/21/2008 9:20:47 PM carey heather

1/21/2008 9:20:57 PM carey heather about as underground as i can give ya

1/21/2008 9:21:18 PM carey heather no it isnt

1/21/2008 9:21:28 PM carey heather altavista is

1/21/2008 9:22:10 PM carey heather that all you wanted?

1/21/2008 9:22:24 PM heather carey yeah thank u

1/22/2008 8:29:36 PM carey heather "To believe and to understand are not diverse things, but the same things in different periods of growth." Samuel Taylor Coleridge

1/22/2008 8:30:10 PM carey heather guess who just im'ed me

1/22/2008 8:30:18 PM heather carey who?

1/22/2008 8:30:28 PM carey heather ...

1/22/2008 8:30:58 PM heather carey is that the person you said was trying to tell everyone that u r no good

1/22/2008 8:31:20 PM carey heather no, thats the one you quoted yesterday

1/22/2008 8:31:28 PM carey heather the con

1/22/2008 8:31:43 PM heather carey oh the one who said beware of crying angels?

1/22/2008 8:31:47 PM carey heather no

1/22/2008 8:31:56 PM carey heather the one something about a defect

1/22/2008 8:32:44 PM heather carey oh i didnt remember quoting him, i must have been trying to say some thing else i dunno. look there is some thing i want u to watch, and i am going to put brandon to bed. and what does that guy want

1/22/2008 8:32:57 PM carey heather dunno

1/22/2008 8:33:23 PM heather carey this is what i am thinking seriously about because of how bad i hurt, unless you are going to take me walking every day from now until i lose 100 ounds

1/22/2008 8:33:26 PM heather carey

1/22/2008 8:33:33 PM carey heather is it selfish or a defect in creation?

1/22/2008 8:33:36 PM carey heather that

1/22/2008 8:35:02 PM carey heather yeah, the reason you dont have diabetes anymore is because you starve yourself to death. i would never want to shrink the size of my stomach.

1/22/2008 9:00:19 PM heather carey if some one says it is a flaw in creation, a defect wouldn't that be what the bible say lucifer's point was. that there is a defeat in creation and he can fix it. and wouldn't it be that we look inside ourselves to see if it would be that we are selfish? let's just say in general without what the subject was in the beginning of the conversation that was at hand. let's take it all the way to the

1/22/2008 9:01:10 PM heather carey very beginning and tell me what you think. we will call it together, light and darkness. so what do you think, is it that there was a defect in creation, or us being selfish?

1/22/2008 9:03:50 PM heather carey yeah i don't really want to shrink the size of anything, surgically because i worry about if some thing happens and i gotta get that thing out of me. i worry if some thing were to break out, like war or a natural something. like tornado, hurricane, quake, what would i do. as i am, i can lose weight it will just take a while and a lot of work, with that thing in me i would lose the weight faster

1/22/2008 9:05:56 PM heather carey but if something happened and i needed to get it out. i dunno. i believe that if people need medical they should have it, but some thing tells me not to do it. i guess i just panic because sometimes the pain of the weight really takes a toll on my mental. u know. but then again, if i have it maybe we could all i dunno. help me. why can't u walk with me every day, i would like it, you need excersiz

1/22/2008 9:05:57 PM heather carey too

1/22/2008 9:07:04 PM heather carey u like ur body, and u like feeling it, i just thought that if i ask u enough maybe u would walk with me. but i have been asking forever now it seems and you wont so, i guess i just gotta do it on my own. i just dont like walking alone but some times we gotta walk alone i guess. i will be alright.

1/22/2008 9:28:15 PM carey heather i love you beautiful. things will get better.

1/22/2008 9:28:48 PM heather carey :D ;)

1/22/2008 9:29:06 PM heather carey thank you (K)

1/22/2008 9:30:10 PM carey heather purdee boodee :$

1/22/2008 9:30:41 PM heather carey u and that guy talking?

1/22/2008 9:31:20 PM carey heather yeah, im just [censored] talking

1/22/2008 9:32:12 PM carey heather i wanna see yo duke momma!!!!

1/22/2008 9:32:41 PM heather carey is he being nice

1/22/2008 9:33:14 PM heather carey ( | )

1/22/2008 9:33:17 PM carey heather yeah, he's a cool guy, just a paranoid liar

1/22/2008 9:33:41 PM heather carey y u say he is paranoid? what is he sayin?

1/22/2008 9:34:34 PM carey heather ive known him for a while, i just know him, he was paranoid once that the american govt. was going to kill him. but it was a hoax and he admitted it.

1/22/2008 9:36:10 PM heather carey sounds fishy

1/22/2008 9:36:41 PM carey heather aye

1/22/2008 9:37:04 PM heather carey did u ask him about the government lie thing

1/22/2008 9:37:23 PM carey heather ill finger him eventually. he is extremely smart and never answers a question without thinking for at least 5 mins

1/22/2008 9:37:48 PM carey heather its kinda like playing chess with jb if you know what i mean

1/22/2008 9:37:56 PM heather carey i say leave him alone - we dont need any more worms

1/22/2008 9:38:04 PM heather carey yeah i know

1/22/2008 9:38:08 PM carey heather worms?

1/22/2008 9:38:46 PM heather carey old saying: open a can full of worms. some thing we dont need right now. we got enough [censored] going on.

1/22/2008 9:39:14 PM carey heather ahh, this is no big deal. i think he's just a roleplayer or something.

1/22/2008 9:39:42 PM carey heather he's facsinated by this stuff, therefore he lives it

1/22/2008 9:40:38 PM heather carey y dont u just ask him why he wants to talk to you, what he wants to talk to you about, get it done. and tell him so long. ? pass me a ciggie please

1/22/2008 9:40:57 PM carey heather thats why you know nothing goober :p

1/22/2008 9:41:05 PM carey heather in the "rush

1/22/2008 9:41:28 PM carey heather it all comes out in the wash toots

1/22/2008 9:41:52 PM carey heather i take my time getting a nut.know what ima sayin homes?

1/22/2008 9:42:10 PM heather carey it is really stressing me out

1/22/2008 9:42:35 PM heather carey we have so much more we are looking at, can we just not get involved with this

1/22/2008 9:43:01 PM carey heather why? dont get involved. it is a hobby to me. who's taking what away from who now?

1/22/2008 9:43:10 PM carey heather i dont get freaked by stupidity

1/22/2008 9:44:13 PM heather carey he is compelled by what

1/22/2008 9:44:22 PM carey heather does it matter?

1/22/2008 9:44:45 PM carey heather you look for the wrong things. let the investigation take its course, then you have answers

1/22/2008 9:45:07 PM carey heather quit being in such a rush. you never learn anything by rushing

1/22/2008 9:45:07 PM heather carey save the chat i wanna see what he has to say

1/22/2008 9:45:14 PM carey heather ok

1/22/2008 9:45:23 PM heather carey thanks :)

1/22/2008 9:47:29 PM carey heather nothing, i just like messing with him lol

1/22/2008 9:54:28 PM carey heather say hi to him

1/22/2008 9:54:52 PM carey heather he said its ok, just tell him who you are. tell him you are ruthless' wife

1/22/2008 10:07:00 PM heather carey babe, what do u think me and this man can share together?

1/22/2008 10:07:09 PM heather carey i dont get what u think i will learn

1/22/2008 10:07:17 PM carey heather do you trust me?

1/22/2008 10:07:24 PM heather carey :D

1/22/2008 10:07:36 PM carey heather do you have faith in my judgements?

1/22/2008 10:07:54 PM carey heather if so, you shall see.

1/22/2008 10:08:38 PM heather carey i understand

1/22/2008 10:09:12 PM carey heather take your time. take time to learn. you will never learn the secrets of the universe in a blink. it is overwhelming and confusing. confusion comes from speed. take it slow. when you go to fast around a corner, you confuse the car, and it wrecks.

1/22/2008 10:10:45 PM carey heather always have a skeptical eye, and a friendly attitude. then judge once all evidence has been collected

1/22/2008 10:12:57 PM heather carey dont forget to save the chat i would really like to read what he has to say

1/22/2008 10:13:10 PM carey heather i always do ;)

1/22/2008 10:13:26 PM heather carey ( . ) ( . )

1/22/2008 10:13:39 PM carey heather tataholics anonymous :D

1/22/2008 10:14:09 PM carey heather lets go to TA cause i aint gay! hooray!!!

1/22/2008 10:14:12 PM heather carey :$ :-O:D

1/22/2008 10:14:42 PM carey heather gotta run back down to p's in one sec

1/22/2008 10:14:54 PM heather carey ok let him know u r leaving

1/22/2008 10:15:03 PM carey heather will do sir.

1/22/2008 10:15:54 PM carey heather

1/22/2008 10:16:00 PM carey heather read that. thats him

1/22/2008 10:16:57 PM heather carey can i have one more ciggie

1/23/2008 12:37:59 AM carey heather ya ol 2 legged ectoplasmatic bombarder!!! make me some ever lovin food now before i have to call tarzan on yo' jungle lovin ass!!!

1/23/2008 12:38:32 AM heather carey (^)

1/23/2008 7:03:26 PM heather carey

1/23/2008 7:22:28 PM carey heather you a trip ladee

1/23/2008 7:22:39 PM heather carey sometimes

1/23/2008 7:22:51 PM heather carey i guess we better enjoy these puters while we gottem

1/23/2008 7:23:05 PM heather carey or i guess i should say the innernet

1/23/2008 7:23:22 PM heather carey or maybe we should unplug or cut a hole in the net and swim out

1/23/2008 7:24:25 PM carey heather nah, the nets our friend ;)

1/23/2008 7:25:19 PM carey heather use their own [censored] against em when the time comes. have no fear toots, theres aplenty of smart mofos out there, and even though we are outnumbered 5 to 1, we have the odds of winning :)

1/23/2008 7:26:00 PM heather carey :D

1/23/2008 10:17:05 PM carey heather thinking of starting to invest my money on my credit card. tell me what you think about this

1/23/2008 10:18:22 PM heather carey read all the stuff and if u want too i think it sounds like some thing u would be good at. dont forget about reading up on the tax stuff.

1/23/2008 10:19:05 PM carey heather yeah, ill have to learn about it and stuff, but i think i may be able to make some money off of it. at the least i wont lose much.

1/23/2008 10:19:16 PM carey heather and i can say i own something :)

1/23/2008 10:19:34 PM carey heather owner of a buisness sounds pretty cool :)

1/23/2008 10:19:42 PM heather carey :) yeah that would be cool. i say i own some thing now, a suitcase:)

1/23/2008 10:19:51 PM carey heather :p

1/23/2008 10:20:11 PM heather carey hey!! 2008 heather won and owns a suitcase :)

1/23/2008 10:20:24 PM carey heather show me it, i wanna see it.

1/23/2008 10:20:40 PM heather carey ok

1/25/2008 10:51:23 PM carey heather

1/29/2008 5:08:58 PM carey heather hey

1/29/2008 7:53:14 PM heather carey did u really mean ur proud?

1/29/2008 7:53:23 PM carey heather yes

1/29/2008 7:55:33 PM heather carey do u want to write there?

1/29/2008 7:55:49 PM carey heather no, thats your spot.

1/29/2008 7:56:07 PM carey heather i am glad that those people are there for you though

1/29/2008 7:56:31 PM heather carey are you okay?

1/29/2008 7:56:57 PM carey heather yup, you know i know what you did today right?

1/29/2008 7:57:29 PM heather carey yup why?

1/29/2008 7:57:39 PM carey heather no reason.

1/29/2008 7:58:24 PM heather carey what do u mean? why would u ask that if there were no reason? u r upset?

1/29/2008 7:58:33 PM carey heather nah

1/29/2008 7:58:50 PM carey heather just wanted to make a statement.

1/29/2008 7:59:25 PM heather carey i love you

1/29/2008 7:59:28 PM heather carey thank you

1/29/2008 8:00:22 PM carey heather im fixing to go out for a bit

1/29/2008 8:00:48 PM heather carey so u dont love me and u r upset with me

1/29/2008 8:01:09 PM heather carey ur going out where? what r u doing?

1/29/2008 8:01:13 PM carey heather i didnt say that, i was just telling you something

1/29/2008 8:01:18 PM carey heather to the barn

1/29/2008 8:01:32 PM heather carey that is all u mean?

1/29/2008 8:01:40 PM carey heather yup

1/29/2008 8:01:58 PM heather carey u win, i said thank you

1/29/2008 8:02:33 PM carey heather i have no idea what you are talking about, and i have no idea why you are telling me thank you.

1/29/2008 8:02:58 PM carey heather You may be asked to swallow your pride and give into someone else's will today, dear Leo. This will be difficult for you to do. Try to concentrate on your good reasons for obedience, and take out your frustration by taking a brisk walk. Expect to receive some welcome news from another source, which will also help to calm you down. Relax with a group of supportive friends tonight.

1/29/2008 8:04:12 PM heather carey because u deserve to be thanked, for being who u r and be strong through the things you saw and experienced, and being willing and able to hold on to your heart so that you could love other people instead of hurting them. thank you for teaching me things i might have not ever known with out you making it through ur trials.

1/29/2008 8:04:47 PM heather carey do mine :)

1/29/2008 8:04:52 PM carey heather no need to thank me. its what i do, all i can do.

1/29/2008 8:04:53 PM carey heather ok

1/29/2008 8:05:07 PM carey heather The planetary energy makes this a good day for thoughtful contemplation, rather than action, dear Virgo. If you feel the urge to impulse buy, don't. Sleep on any purchasing decisions, and if you still feel the same way tomorrow, then go for it. Also, if you find yourself in the middle of a conflict at work, try not to take sides. Tell anyone who's asking for your opinion that you need time to thin

1/29/2008 8:05:13 PM heather carey yeah but i didn't think helping was like that

1/29/2008 8:05:43 PM carey heather think about it. Consider scheduling an hour of meditation for yourself. The key word for today is Zen!

1/29/2008 8:06:21 PM carey heather you have corel draw?

1/29/2008 8:06:25 PM heather carey i didn't know that u had to be so inside to go outside. and i know that people are wirey sometimes and make their own mistakes including you, but you try to do ur best when u set ur mind to it... although there are still universal, celestial, heavenly laws we have to follow... u too yes? lol

1/29/2008 8:07:46 PM heather carey yes i have a trial version, i would like to buy it i think... it is cool

1/29/2008 8:08:08 PM carey heather cool, just wanted to make sure you had it

1/29/2008 8:08:25 PM heather carey why?

1/29/2008 8:08:38 PM carey heather just saw it, figured youd like it

1/29/2008 8:08:59 PM heather carey yeah did u see my picture i painted with it?

1/29/2008 8:09:05 PM carey heather yes

1/29/2008 8:09:12 PM heather carey what did u think?

1/29/2008 8:09:18 PM heather carey do u like it?

1/29/2008 8:09:20 PM carey heather cool

1/29/2008 8:09:31 PM carey heather its cool

1/29/2008 8:09:42 PM heather carey it kind of loooks gross to me

1/29/2008 8:09:51 PM carey heather oh

1/29/2008 8:10:41 PM heather carey some times. i think it is my mind frame at times. i want to be so beautiful but i have to look at what is real first, and i have to realize the gross to bring out the beautiful in me right?

1/29/2008 8:11:29 PM carey heather if its so important, make it important. if its not, do what you do.

1/29/2008 8:11:52 PM heather carey why did u just say that

1/29/2008 8:11:55 PM heather carey do what you do

1/29/2008 8:12:05 PM carey heather do what you do to it

1/29/2008 8:12:22 PM carey heather just my opinion

1/29/2008 8:17:11 PM carey heather got 4 cigs left

1/29/2008 8:17:40 PM carey heather 2 now

1/29/2008 8:18:46 PM heather carey i dont have any, i dunno how momma is going to get to the tax place maybe.. i will ask her if she goes, if she wants me to walk with her.

1/29/2008 8:19:00 PM carey heather k

1/29/2008 8:23:36 PM heather carey Love bears all things, believes all things, endures all things. Love never ends...1 Corinthians 13:7, 8

1/29/2008 8:23:54 PM carey heather yup

1/29/2008 8:24:06 PM carey heather remember that.

1/29/2008 8:25:22 PM heather carey so when i saw clay and his family and the fumes- i am suppose to understand what is happening, what lead to it, cause, how it effected the entire family, and place what i know and my scripture and apply for a bit understanding then dig deep inside myself for love and compassion but this doesn't mean to come up close? just do all this at a distance?

1/29/2008 8:25:59 PM carey heather do what you want to do. your life is your life.

1/29/2008 8:28:47 PM carey heather im going to go out for a bit, later.

1/29/2008 11:36:33 PM heather carey i like this babe,

1/30/2008 6:51:28 PM carey heather gonna smash you if you dont bring me a cig [censored] now

2/1/2008 1:11:48 AM carey heather wutup

2/1/2008 1:12:32 AM heather carey can u please tell me do u care about my health, because i am having some real problems. i am hurting severly, do you care? it is making me crazy? do you care? will you [censored] help me?

2/1/2008 1:12:58 AM carey heather yeah i care, what do you want me to do?

2/1/2008 1:13:47 AM heather carey the pain in my spine, hip, upper thigh is killing me, every day it is killing me, it is making me go crazy in the head, i can't think straight. i can't do nothing right now

2/1/2008 1:14:12 AM carey heather so its that bad?

2/1/2008 1:14:48 AM heather carey i can't sit, when i lay it hurts, i wake up in the night because it hurts, i can barely walk because it hurts, yes it hurts bad. that bad. so bad it scares the hell out of me, i dont know who or where to go.

2/1/2008 1:15:18 AM heather carey it has been like this since before chassity has come, i can not take it much longer.

2/1/2008 1:15:29 AM carey heather i dont know what to do either, if theres something i can do, i will do it though

2/1/2008 1:15:44 AM heather carey that is what u always say

2/1/2008 1:16:38 AM heather carey i am no worht to you? all i have done and tried to accomplish with us is no worht to you do you not care for my health either?

2/1/2008 1:17:21 AM heather carey sometimes making a change for the world starts at home. at least i thought that was most of the time.

2/1/2008 1:22:20 AM heather carey helllo?

2/1/2008 1:22:33 AM carey heather hello

2/1/2008 1:23:38 AM carey heather love you. sorry you hate me

2/1/2008 7:48:26 PM carey heather get home now. im sick

2/1/2008 8:07:52 PM carey heather get home now i am sick

2/1/2008 8:32:53 PM carey heather get home now. im sick

2/1/2008 8:54:49 PM carey heather get home now. im sick


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2/4/2008 1:50:31 AM heather carey hmmmmmmmmmm chocolate.... booooinnnnnnnnnnnngggg blasssterrrrrrrrrr

2/4/2008 1:50:43 AM carey heather word

2/4/2008 1:50:52 AM heather carey sword

2/4/2008 1:52:00 AM heather carey light me a cigarette darth vader and after we smoke it lets go outside

2/4/2008 1:52:33 AM carey heather outta cigs pimp. need sum

2/4/2008 1:52:50 AM heather carey screwu meggie

2/12/2008 4:51:13 PM heather carey

2/12/2008 4:55:40 PM carey heather gimme some smokes broad...

2/12/2008 4:55:50 PM heather carey bite me

2/12/2008 4:55:58 PM heather carey can i ask u one question?

2/12/2008 4:56:03 PM carey heather sho

2/12/2008 4:56:25 PM heather carey if i cant talk to you about it then what?

2/12/2008 4:56:38 PM carey heather lol

2/12/2008 4:56:41 PM heather carey ok nm

13/02/2008 9:36:34 AM carey heather "Beauty is momentary in the mind--The fitful tracing of a portal; But in the flesh it is immortal. The body dies; the body's beauty lives." Wallace Stevens

15/02/2008 2:25:16 AM carey heather do you think i failed my mother? i want no voices.

15/02/2008 2:25:25 AM heather carey no

15/02/2008 2:25:38 AM carey heather why? help me to understand

15/02/2008 2:25:47 AM carey heather i am only a little tipsy

15/02/2008 2:26:43 AM heather carey i know you did not fail your mother. i do not feel we should be discussing this while spirits are within your blood

15/02/2008 2:27:43 AM heather carey it is okay for you to drink, morn, and think. i do not want to hinder though, emotions are strong, and mind is disoriented when tipsy

15/02/2008 2:28:16 AM heather carey you could not protect her then, and she is where she can help you more now than ever before

15/02/2008 2:28:25 AM carey heather my mind is pure and my heart pure. i love my children and you,but i cannot understand fully everything

15/02/2008 2:29:02 AM carey heather tonight i cleanse

15/02/2008 2:29:39 AM heather carey i dont know fully what your mom was involved in but i know that she loves you. i do know this, you are loved.

15/02/2008 2:30:09 AM carey heather i want to be, but more than that, i want something else

15/02/2008 2:30:17 AM heather carey what do you want

15/02/2008 2:30:33 AM carey heather for there to be no evil

15/02/2008 2:30:46 AM carey heather muat i fight it alone?

15/02/2008 2:30:52 AM carey heather must*

15/02/2008 2:30:56 AM heather carey no

15/02/2008 2:31:00 AM heather carey you are not alone

15/02/2008 2:31:08 AM carey heather i feel alone

15/02/2008 2:31:12 AM heather carey i just dont know what to speak of or what not too

15/02/2008 2:31:32 AM heather carey part of me tells me to tell you every thing i know, and another part of me tells me to hush.

15/02/2008 2:32:01 AM carey heather i know you are a good woman. i am sorry for thinking otherwise

15/02/2008 2:32:04 AM heather carey some times doing nothing is greater than doing something

15/02/2008 2:32:10 AM carey heather i hope the calvary comes soon

15/02/2008 2:32:27 AM heather carey and where i have gone wrong, has caused harm

15/02/2008 2:32:53 AM heather carey i do not fear the evil, i fear making wrong move

15/02/2008 2:33:06 AM heather carey like chess

15/02/2008 2:33:19 AM heather carey this is why i have not told you my truth

15/02/2008 2:33:28 AM heather carey because cause and effect

15/02/2008 2:33:43 AM carey heather i want you to know i never meant to hurt you. i was only following my heart. i hope you know this

15/02/2008 2:33:59 AM heather carey it may be a greater thing for me to remain silent because i feel there is a wager on whether i tell you

15/02/2008 2:34:07 AM heather carey there is great confusion

15/02/2008 2:34:16 AM carey heather on both parts

15/02/2008 2:34:25 AM heather carey no, only on my part

15/02/2008 2:34:33 AM heather carey you are not confused the way i am

15/02/2008 2:34:39 AM carey heather i am and i am not as strong as i act

15/02/2008 2:34:49 AM heather carey you are stronger than you realize

15/02/2008 2:35:08 AM carey heather and i am weaker than you realize

15/02/2008 2:35:22 AM heather carey you just can't allow emotion to make you blind

15/02/2008 2:35:39 AM carey heather never let there be a firmament betwen us. please.

15/02/2008 2:35:48 AM heather carey i know what is inside of you, and no one can tell me one way or the other because i see before i know

15/02/2008 2:35:56 AM heather carey you can not take that from me

15/02/2008 2:35:58 AM heather carey it is mine

15/02/2008 2:36:01 AM heather carey you listen

15/02/2008 2:36:06 AM carey heather i hurt.

15/02/2008 2:36:09 AM heather carey i know

15/02/2008 2:36:12 AM heather carey i am told

15/02/2008 2:36:18 AM heather carey i am sorry i hurt you more

15/02/2008 2:36:27 AM heather carey i did not realize my own hand

15/02/2008 2:36:39 AM carey heather my pain controls me. but i fight

15/02/2008 2:36:50 AM carey heather i will resist forever.

15/02/2008 2:37:17 AM heather carey some times rusty things happen and all though they seem off course they are what is

15/02/2008 2:37:29 AM heather carey there is a time and place for every thing

15/02/2008 2:37:37 AM carey heather they are right on course. it is me that is not

15/02/2008 2:37:44 AM heather carey lighter

15/02/2008 2:38:21 AM carey heather i have fought my whole life with only one want

15/02/2008 2:39:01 AM carey heather i belong in japan. i feel it within me. it calls me

15/02/2008 2:39:32 AM heather carey i can not make you pull up from this grief, from wanting to die. you have to want to live, and want it with a passion.

15/02/2008 2:39:38 AM heather carey you should go to japan then

15/02/2008 2:40:50 AM carey heather i cannot deny my spirit. i am a warrior. it is what i embody. i must fulfill my soul.

15/02/2008 2:41:25 AM heather carey what is stopping you?

15/02/2008 2:41:50 AM carey heather i must fight. and if i die in battle, i will die with a smile on my face. for i know that the world has just evolved from me.

15/02/2008 2:42:00 AM heather carey there is more than fighting, blood shed, and sword to a warrior

15/02/2008 2:42:15 AM heather carey you must give up your vices

15/02/2008 2:42:26 AM carey heather i agree.

15/02/2008 2:42:46 AM carey heather i must put my heart into it before it is.

15/02/2008 2:42:53 AM heather carey do you honor your creator?

15/02/2008 2:43:06 AM carey heather noo

15/02/2008 2:43:26 AM heather carey i do not feel that i can speak with you properly on these matters.

15/02/2008 2:43:27 AM carey heather my creator has tormented me

15/02/2008 2:43:42 AM carey heather out of fear.

15/02/2008 2:43:55 AM heather carey you torment yours to make them stronger

15/02/2008 2:43:57 AM carey heather yet he has nothing to fear

15/02/2008 2:44:11 AM heather carey maybe it is not fear

15/02/2008 2:44:35 AM carey heather i am in a sea of confusion after that movie.

15/02/2008 2:44:43 AM heather carey i have a note to self, a gift, a hidden treasure i tuked away want me to share

15/02/2008 2:44:57 AM carey heather no. it is for you.

15/02/2008 2:45:09 AM heather carey no

15/02/2008 2:45:14 AM heather carey it is for sharing

15/02/2008 2:45:16 AM carey heather never forget that

15/02/2008 2:45:47 AM carey heather i am a good man. i am not like him. i would never feed you poison

15/02/2008 2:46:05 AM carey heather yet he was smart. i do not understand

15/02/2008 2:46:46 AM carey heather must i choose between sense and morales?

15/02/2008 2:46:49 AM heather carey rusty the duty of a woman, is to bring balance in course.

15/02/2008 2:47:10 AM heather carey there is a time for every thing

15/02/2008 2:47:32 AM heather carey you will not have gone through this in vain

15/02/2008 2:47:39 AM carey heather who should i follow?

15/02/2008 2:47:44 AM heather carey no one

15/02/2008 2:48:03 AM heather carey only yourself and there will be those that come out of love and light to help you

15/02/2008 2:48:15 AM heather carey to allow you rest, message, love, care healing

15/02/2008 2:48:21 AM heather carey i am one of those

15/02/2008 2:48:41 AM carey heather why does the calvary come at the last moment? it is no fair for that

15/02/2008 2:48:58 AM heather carey when they come it will not be the last moment

15/02/2008 2:49:05 AM heather carey it will be the beginning of the new

15/02/2008 2:49:40 AM carey heather i am done for tonight. we will talk tomorrow. i love you with my all.

15/02/2008 2:49:52 AM heather carey no one can take what you to not allow them- and what does not belong to you, you have no power over

15/02/2008 2:49:55 AM heather carey i love you

15/02/2008 2:50:31 AM heather carey prepare yourself and allow your heart love

15/02/2008 2:51:49 AM heather carey release them, they are of no concern to you. you have greater within, beside, behind, and through out.

15/02/2008 2:52:22 AM carey heather am i the signaler?

15/02/2008 2:52:26 AM heather carey you do not forget, you have the greatest army in the universe loving you. you belong.

15/02/2008 2:52:41 AM heather carey you are a son

15/02/2008 2:53:00 AM carey heather god must be a woman...

15/02/2008 2:53:12 AM carey heather "it" tells me tthe same

15/02/2008 2:53:18 AM heather carey God is greater than woman

15/02/2008 2:53:38 AM heather carey God is every thing - within, beside, before, behind, through out

15/02/2008 2:53:55 AM heather carey God loves you

15/02/2008 2:54:06 AM heather carey love is not always what we think

15/02/2008 2:54:17 AM carey heather it is time for me to become stronger.

15/02/2008 2:54:29 AM heather carey it is not easy to love or allow ourselves to be loved

15/02/2008 2:54:46 AM heather carey it is time

15/02/2008 2:54:48 AM carey heather must one emotion rule above all?

15/02/2008 2:54:56 AM heather carey no

15/02/2008 2:55:09 AM carey heather then allow

15/02/2008 2:56:13 AM heather carey there is a time for everything, you walk in truth, these things will be easy to you, but you have to let go of what holds you back if you put your full effort to it, you will not have such a difficult time but if you do not and you do as you please it will be difficult

15/02/2008 2:56:18 AM heather carey just the same as you tell me

15/02/2008 2:56:48 AM carey heather i am done talking about these things for tonight. i wish to keep myself calm, so we will talk about these things some other time. i llove you and we will talk again some other time.

15/02/2008 2:57:07 AM heather carey this world we live in is dark, we are the light and we must shine

15/02/2008 2:57:32 AM heather carey we shine we shed light we can see not to stumble in the dark

15/02/2008 2:57:57 AM carey heather goodbye. i love you. you make me happier than you will ever know. even though i do not show it. your smile bleeds into me, and i ffel likeeee i should.

15/02/2008 2:58:20 AM carey heather no more talking. goodnight.

15/02/2008 2:58:30 AM heather carey we really have no problems, what is causing friction in the house is not because of the surface fighting, it is because time draws and we are ignoring

15/02/2008 2:59:20 AM carey heather it is because of mistakes. no more. i do not intend on losing my temper tonight. i love you, goodnight. we will talk again.

15/02/2008 3:11:48 AM carey heather i just soloed the hardest person in guild wars, and it wasnt even half a challenge

15/02/2008 3:12:08 AM heather carey :D

15/02/2008 3:12:29 AM carey heather

15/02/2008 3:12:44 AM carey heather i didnt use any build on that list either

15/02/2008 3:13:31 AM heather carey cool looks like a tough one

15/02/2008 3:13:48 AM carey heather he has 1400hp. i have 450hp

15/02/2008 3:13:49 AM heather carey will u please do me a real big favor

15/02/2008 3:13:56 AM carey heather what

15/02/2008 3:13:57 AM heather carey it is a big one

15/02/2008 3:14:16 AM heather carey u probably already know what i am asking for

15/02/2008 3:14:16 AM carey heather The largest diamond ever found weighed 3,106 carats (1.37 lbs) before cutting. Keep learning on MSN Encarta.

15/02/2008 3:14:44 AM heather carey will u please get rid of that vodka now

15/02/2008 3:14:56 AM carey heather yup

15/02/2008 3:15:20 AM heather carey :D ;) :-O:p(L)(F)(K)thank you so much

15/02/2008 3:16:05 AM carey heather its not made right anyways

15/02/2008 3:18:22 AM carey heather time to sober up.

15/02/2008 3:18:35 AM heather carey :Dbig squishy hugs

15/02/2008 3:19:15 AM carey heather alcahol probably isnt too good for me. ive been through too much.

15/02/2008 3:19:32 AM heather carey yup, and still going strong

15/02/2008 3:19:54 AM carey heather when i drink, it seems to bring my past into the present

15/02/2008 3:20:59 AM heather carey u need to slow down n e way, u dont want to be like the rest of them folks who say they are on a rightous path but are constantly poisoning their bodies and minds.

15/02/2008 3:21:04 AM carey heather now i know alot about my grandfather that i did not tknow.

15/02/2008 3:21:17 AM heather carey :)

20/02/2008 12:00:58 AM carey heather

24/02/2008 5:43:30 PM heather carey for someone to say, the Jesus was lucifer trying to decieve the people. that has a lot of mind play in it. you could say the person saying it is lucifer trying to decieve the people. but this is not one persons belief, this is a congregation of folks that are tired of being hurt, opressed- they feel they have been wronged by the governement and they feel that the governement is killing us, and

24/02/2008 5:43:31 PM heather carey others

24/02/2008 5:43:42 PM heather carey like the brothers, mothers, fathers, sisters

24/02/2008 5:44:15 PM carey heather go look up the battle jesus had with lucifer so you will know the difference

28/02/2008 5:22:44 PM heather carey wanna hear the joke of the day, it aint really a joke but i think i should laugh rather than cry but i still want to cry about it

28/02/2008 5:22:50 PM heather carey guess what momma just told me

28/02/2008 5:22:57 PM carey heather what

28/02/2008 5:23:17 PM heather carey she says, i dont have to respect you. and you don't have to respect me. [censored] YOU heather.

28/02/2008 5:23:20 PM heather carey :)

28/02/2008 5:24:26 PM heather carey oh sorry, i was under the impression you wrot em another email

28/02/2008 5:25:22 PM carey heather nope, nothing else to say. you completely ignored my cry for help, thats fine. so be it.

28/02/2008 5:26:12 PM heather carey i really did not think you would not get any thing out of what i said

28/02/2008 5:26:28 PM heather carey i put alot of love inside me in carefully writing my thoughts to you

28/02/2008 5:26:29 PM carey heather i didnt

28/02/2008 5:27:01 PM carey heather i asked for help, to make me better. i dont need any help making myself worse.

28/02/2008 5:27:11 PM heather carey i put alot of myself in writing the love i feel

28/02/2008 5:27:14 PM carey heather i am tired of the way i am treated.

28/02/2008 5:27:15 PM heather carey then i can't help you

28/02/2008 5:27:22 PM heather carey i treat you good

28/02/2008 5:27:37 PM carey heather you treat me like your [censored] your aboutto flush.

28/02/2008 5:27:50 PM heather carey but what may be my good my not be what you think is good

28/02/2008 5:28:03 PM heather carey no i am about to leave the house

28/02/2008 5:28:15 PM carey heather i am about to leave the world.

28/02/2008 5:28:32 PM heather carey neither one of you are considering what every one of us has done. or not done

28/02/2008 5:28:56 PM carey heather if you cannot honor me while i am alive, do not honor me when i am dead. remember these words.

28/02/2008 5:30:23 PM carey heather i consider it all, i wrote that in my email. im sure you didnt even read it though. doesent matter, i expected you to say what you said. you see, i know this does this to you, but its a little to late, cause that does this to me.

28/02/2008 5:31:00 PM carey heather i have no reason to live anymore.

28/02/2008 5:31:11 PM carey heather i have no reason to wake.

28/02/2008 5:32:48 PM carey heather i started to turn into a bitch last night and put 600 virii i have on your pc, i almost torched your car, i almost did alot of things. but, i decided i will kill myself before i become a bitch and lose what little honor i have.

28/02/2008 5:33:46 PM heather carey there is nothing i want to say

28/02/2008 5:35:15 PM heather carey i love you, i hope all the best for you. i can not give to you what you do not want, and i can not allow you to put my light out.

28/02/2008 5:35:35 PM carey heather keep it to yourself

29/02/2008 10:36:29 PM carey heather hello?

01/03/2008 3:29:03 AM carey heather hey

01/03/2008 4:21:12 PM carey heather hey

01/03/2008 7:01:41 PM carey heather hello

11/03/2008 1:58:59 AM heather carey

11/03/2008 6:53:46 PM carey sends C:\Documents and Settings\rusty\Desktop\New Text Document (2).txt

11/03/2008 6:54:17 PM Transfer of "New Text Document (2).txt" is complete.

11/03/2008 6:57:19 PM heather carey wooo hoo dad, i like the way that tasted against the tongue of my mind. :) quiet the writer you are, careful now the pen is the sword:)

21/03/2008 10:33:18 PM heather carey i was reading and it said if we eat a high protien with carbs- and any sugar in the breakfast the carbs with slow the sugar down and give us stready flow of energy instead of fast rush of energy and then crashing and the protein in the morning helps more than later in the day. so i thought if i could talk you into eating breakfast then maybe it will help you more since you are starting to work out

21/03/2008 10:33:39 PM carey heather k

21/03/2008 10:33:58 PM heather carey here is the men's health site that i've been reading and stuff

21/03/2008 10:34:00 PM heather carey

21/03/2008 10:34:33 PM carey heather ok, ill check it out later. my arm is starting to hurt again

21/03/2008 10:36:02 PM heather carey i know you didn't ask me, i was just trying to take your mind off things and talk alittle about other things you are interested in. i apologize for the inconvience i have caused you, i am sincere in my apologies, i am truly sorry for being stupid. at the least, i know and realize things and i am asking you to forgive me and write me a pardon.

21/03/2008 10:36:13 PM heather carey i am going to go the pain medicine before she locks her door.

21/03/2008 10:37:14 PM carey heather im not mad at you, i just wish you could make things easier for me. you have the ability to make my life heaven or hell

21/03/2008 10:39:54 PM heather carey ok, i thought today i made it like heaven, or half way as much as i could. so i got the medicine and got cussed out. lol

21/03/2008 10:40:04 PM heather carey i am grateful for my life and i believe my life is brilliant

21/03/2008 10:40:06 PM carey heather sorry

21/03/2008 10:40:07 PM heather carey i love you

21/03/2008 10:40:08 PM heather carey huggs

21/03/2008 10:40:44 PM carey heather i love you too. we have alot of work to do to get things back to the way they were, i hope you can stay determined

21/03/2008 10:41:32 PM heather carey now i am going to leave you alone and i am going to read and then i guess me and bran will sleep in mary's room if you want you can come too but you may not want too. if you need me you know where i am. if you are up early you can get us up early because the kids do better the earlier they get up. i don't want things back anywhere i want things better closer tighter unbreakable bond. that means i

21/03/2008 10:41:52 PM heather carey want to be stronger, wiser, more intune with myself and my family. smarter and able.

21/03/2008 10:42:09 PM carey heather ok, goodnight, i love you.

21/03/2008 10:42:10 PM heather carey i want to be good, whole, virtuous

21/03/2008 10:42:12 PM heather carey huggs

21/03/2008 10:42:18 PM heather carey (K)

21/03/2008 10:42:20 PM carey heather i want you to be too.

21/03/2008 10:42:29 PM heather carey i am that you will see

21/03/2008 10:42:36 PM heather carey ok, i love you night night

21/03/2008 10:42:45 PM carey heather night. have a good dream

31/03/2008 3:24:17 PM carey heather =

31/03/2008 10:28:37 PM carey heather

31/03/2008 10:30:31 PM carey heather who are you talking to?

31/03/2008 10:31:11 PM heather carey i am not talking to anyone, i am writing. why?

31/03/2008 10:31:30 PM carey heather was just wondering.

31/03/2008 10:31:45 PM heather carey i am not into reading at God like productions right now

31/03/2008 10:32:26 PM carey heather yeah, i know. your into being an idiot thats too into their own self to bother with anything. but whatever.

31/03/2008 10:34:12 PM heather carey actually, i am a wonderful person with a magnificent life. and i am into alot of different beautiful things. and i am learning all kind of things. i am not into conspiracy right now for my own reasons, and yes that is self and i belong there for now. you are into urself and what you like,a nd it is not right that you cuss anyone or call anyone names because they dont want to hear or read about it

31/03/2008 10:36:07 PM carey heather it is not a conspiracy. it is a link to the warning of the new virus. you know, i really cant believe you. i KNOW you understand how serious this is and what would happen to the world. why no. how can you just ignore this?

31/03/2008 10:37:00 PM heather carey how can u just panic like you dont have a brain?

31/03/2008 10:37:10 PM carey heather panic?

31/03/2008 10:38:22 PM heather carey i said i dont want to talk about the [censored], and i dont. i dont know why you dont listen. you expect me to listen all the time. back off about it, you need to think because it is a subject you choose to get all worked up about. what is that going to do? exactly what they want it to do. so you fall into the hole and i say rusty watch out and you are like shut up bitch i knoooooooooooww plop

31/03/2008 10:38:48 PM carey heather yeah?

31/03/2008 10:40:20 PM carey heather for your information, i, and i alone have already found the creator of the virus, and his methods.that is why i am so worried. i know who it is. it is a spanish man with the screen name darkalex. he is serious trouble.

31/03/2008 10:40:57 PM heather carey ok

31/03/2008 10:41:31 PM carey heather he is the only person in the world that can fix a corrupted bios

31/03/2008 10:42:30 PM carey heather he runs a team called create and destroy.

31/03/2008 10:43:04 PM heather carey i think it would be too hard to grow lettuce in the back yard, probably some type of onion, maybe a pepper, peas, tomatoe, i am not sure what else.

31/03/2008 10:44:03 PM heather carey oh yeah and i found a spade ho that i can use

31/03/2008 10:44:24 PM heather carey would u like a cigarette

31/03/2008 10:44:49 PM heather carey catch

31/03/2008 10:45:38 PM carey heather ok, ill just wait for everything to go pooof. ill say no more to you about it. and when all you fuckers come running trying to hide behind me, i will move. there are folks who care and folks who do not. lookie at wich one you are.

31/03/2008 10:45:53 PM carey heather have a great night. opposit o me.

31/03/2008 10:46:15 PM heather carey i know i am, when i do not use EGO

31/03/2008 10:46:39 PM carey heather all you have is ego. without it you would be motionless.

31/03/2008 10:46:56 PM heather carey no without it i would just be

31/03/2008 10:47:21 PM carey heather without it, you would not be. you will find out soon enough

31/03/2008 10:49:00 PM heather carey but it is not important about all that ego stuff, what is important is what i choose to want to look at right now. and i don't wanna hear nothing about all this mess you want to panic and run around and be all furious and violent against me about because i have already been talking to you. and you didnt want to hear me nor did you want to start preparing. and now i am doing the momma student

31/03/2008 10:49:37 PM heather carey if you want to continue to be angry about it then that is some thing you will have to deal with before it deals with you

31/03/2008 10:49:51 PM carey heather you are really, really slow heather. but thats not my problem. its yours.

31/03/2008 10:50:17 PM heather carey slow. who won the race, the rabbit or the turtle bro

31/03/2008 10:51:56 PM carey heather the slow one didnt win dumbass. the point of the story was the rabbit was slow in the mind and easily distracted. from that statement i figure youve never even read the story of the turtoise and the hare. either that, or you are really, really slow

31/03/2008 10:53:30 PM heather carey i see, so get this- maybe i was making my point- but the rabbit doesn't have time to pay attention to the voice of the turtle because the rabbit is too busy. the turtle knows a lot because the turtle is slow for a reason and has time to focus on detail

31/03/2008 10:53:39 PM heather carey i am not the turtle or the rabbit

31/03/2008 10:54:04 PM carey heather i know, your one of these...

31/03/2008 10:55:24 PM heather carey is that all?

31/03/2008 10:56:13 PM carey heather yes, that is all. it is a trait common in women you see. that is, if you actually read something else besides your own writings.

31/03/2008 10:57:02 PM heather carey :) that is good. have a good night

31/03/2008 10:57:55 PM carey heather doesent bother me. just makes things harder for me. no big deal though. im more than you will ever know.

31/03/2008 10:58:31 PM heather carey that is great, i am happy for you. warm smiles. huggs

31/03/2008 10:59:05 PM carey heather whatever. have a good life in your own little bubble.

31/03/2008 10:59:08 PM heather carey

31/03/2008 10:59:23 PM carey heather

31/03/2008 10:59:48 PM heather carey i'm a vegetarian, thanks tho

31/03/2008 11:00:09 PM carey heather

31/03/2008 11:00:17 PM carey heather there ya go then

31/03/2008 11:00:55 PM heather carey i only like to eat celery, i dont do the veggie or fruit up the ass or vagina since i have released the need for pleasing other people

31/03/2008 11:01:26 PM carey heather lol

31/03/2008 11:03:24 PM carey heather you will find out how unpleased you are making your own self. you see, in order to get, youve gotta give. no, that doesent mean getting celery shoved up your ass, but it does involve caring. i know this guy that would be perfect for you. when someone dies, it matters not to him. when something serious is happening, he ignores. i think ill give him your email so you and him can hook up.

31/03/2008 11:03:36 PM carey heather oh, youll be doubly happy too, he is an old man...

31/03/2008 11:03:58 PM heather carey

31/03/2008 11:04:25 PM heather carey i am not into relationships, my plate is full

31/03/2008 11:05:05 PM heather carey thank you for caring ewnough to think of hooking me up with an old man though, maybe he will do fine on his own.

31/03/2008 11:06:11 PM carey heather every part of the body is useable. that link was about as retarded as this dumbass person i know...

31/03/2008 11:06:21 PM carey heather name starts with a h...

31/03/2008 11:07:41 PM heather carey that is ur opinion and everyone has one. you are not the only person in the world and some people would rather read things that are light once in a while rather than [censored] they dont know what is what - but you have a right to your opinion. you should find someone else you enjoy talking too.

31/03/2008 11:08:23 PM carey heather when it boils down to it, you aint got it cause you dont want it. so no reason for me to get upset. only thing i get upset about is your blatant disrespect, and not giving a [censored] about anything good.

31/03/2008 11:09:34 PM carey heather in the end you will get lost in the shuffle. and the worst thing is, you know that.

31/03/2008 11:09:53 PM heather carey good is in the eye of the beholder and not based on one man's or woman's opinion. and it is not being disrespectful on anything i said, i was being respectful.

31/03/2008 11:10:00 PM heather carey ok

31/03/2008 11:10:02 PM carey heather but girl power FTW right!

31/03/2008 11:10:21 PM heather carey i dont know what u r talkin about

31/03/2008 11:10:23 PM heather carey but ok

31/03/2008 11:10:56 PM carey heather what im saying is with ass and titties, well, you know...

31/03/2008 11:11:17 PM heather carey ok

31/03/2008 11:11:23 PM carey heather people take you seriously, but just imagine if you didnt have em...

31/03/2008 11:12:17 PM carey heather your ass and tits get you in the door. your slow mind gets you out.

31/03/2008 11:12:51 PM heather carey uh... ok- go find someone with a fast one that you want to talk too then. maybe they will outsmart you and you will be happy. :) huggs

31/03/2008 11:13:03 PM heather carey

31/03/2008 11:13:46 PM carey heather

31/03/2008 11:14:23 PM carey heather

31/03/2008 11:14:31 PM heather carey that all?

31/03/2008 11:14:53 PM carey heather

31/03/2008 11:15:15 PM carey heather

31/03/2008 11:15:38 PM carey heather

31/03/2008 11:18:27 PM carey heather you got any cigs?

11/04/2008 9:40:24 PM carey heather know what evils motto is under his screen name in msn is?

11/04/2008 9:40:51 PM carey heather Sometimes "[censored] IT" is the only solution.

11/04/2008 9:41:06 PM carey heather thought it was funny

11/04/2008 9:41:26 PM carey heather mine is bob dole loves bob dole

11/04/2008 9:42:31 PM heather carey that makes me think of pineapples, and i know you think i am stupid for being me and thinking like me, although i only know half the story. but some times being silly is better for me, maybe not for you. maybe that is some thing you need to consider.

11/04/2008 9:43:05 PM heather carey i am not trying to put you any where, i am trying to be me. cuz pineapples can be funny associated the way i do.

11/04/2008 9:43:34 PM carey heather i dont understand your point of view, but thats just me.

11/04/2008 9:44:21 PM carey heather i also do not have enough information to understand your point of view eiither

11/04/2008 9:45:56 PM heather carey i believe in life, and tending and nurturing. i believe in laughing, and crying, and holding and releasing. allowing to breath, and unbreath. you can not constrict and confine, it takes away instead of adding. i was born into this world, my father, my God created me. he loves and forgives me. i say he because that is the language i know, and it limits so it is hard to give you information.

11/04/2008 9:46:52 PM carey heather i believe in knowledge, honor, and the way of righteousness. we elieve differently. our importances differ.

11/04/2008 9:47:29 PM heather carey maybe, i don't know. what do you want to talk about.

11/04/2008 9:48:17 PM carey heather dont matter. weve been talking about it for years and neither of us have ever backed down from our opinions. except once on a riverbank...

11/04/2008 9:49:18 PM heather carey i don't want to go off stretch. i said i wanted to come in here, and you talk and ask what you want.

11/04/2008 9:51:03 PM carey heather i want you to understand alot of things. none i can make you understand

11/04/2008 9:52:03 PM heather carey you started on me about bogan, you said that you wanted to talk to me to understand. so let us do this so we can do other things

11/04/2008 9:52:59 PM carey heather doesent matter. you wont understand. itll just be another "im defending myself because im right, but i know deep down its sorry [censored]" type things

11/04/2008 9:53:30 PM heather carey you are defending you because you say your right what is the difference

11/04/2008 9:56:19 PM carey heather the difference is this: in your mind, our relationship was great. then one day out of the blue, i just decided to hit you. in my mind, i said never cheat on me, you said ok and you said never hit me. i said ok. you cheated 1st, lied to me, met guys behind my back, then and only then did i break my promise, but i held alot back before i did, and when i did i showed a ton of restraint.

11/04/2008 9:57:16 PM carey heather you make me sound like im just a horrible person. you say things about me that are totally untue. and it is wrong

11/04/2008 9:57:32 PM carey heather i defend myself because i am right

11/04/2008 9:58:46 PM heather carey ok so you are white and i am black. fine, i am wrong, i am the liar, the cheater, the stealer and all i have done is nothing for you. you were the won who worked so hard and deligently to make sure every thing went well. i hope and pray you will find happiness one day. peace

11/04/2008 9:59:15 PM heather carey gimmie a cig please

11/04/2008 9:59:39 PM carey heather that is correct, expect you did things for me. you helped me out in times of need. but only material wise. you did not ever help me mentally.

11/04/2008 9:59:59 PM heather carey i did not?

11/04/2008 10:00:05 PM carey heather you make it out like i am jack the ripper

11/04/2008 10:00:16 PM heather carey oh...

11/04/2008 10:00:20 PM heather carey fine

11/04/2008 10:01:02 PM heather carey i do not appreciate you telling lies on me, even to my face, so i know you tell lies behind my back.

11/04/2008 10:01:20 PM carey heather thats excactly what i am talking about

11/04/2008 10:02:27 PM carey heather it has been established already that you are the liar. and i tell lies once in a blue moon to keep the peace. i am an honest man. i try every day not to lie, and when i do, the guilt eats at me until i tell the truth

11/04/2008 10:02:51 PM heather carey if you say i did not help you mentally, well... i can not say i did or did not, you say i did not. that may or may not be true. i did not cheat first. but you say i did, so maybe in your mind and others i did, but in my mind i did not. i think what it is- you are telling me to bow, and admit to things that i do not feel is right for me to admit to, for two major reasons and then a few other reason

11/04/2008 10:03:20 PM heather carey you tell lies once in a blue moon to keep the peace and that is being honest?

11/04/2008 10:03:27 PM carey heather admitting to them will not change a thing heather

11/04/2008 10:03:55 PM carey heather you dont read so well do you?

11/04/2008 10:04:01 PM heather carey the way i look at it, is this- you believe what you want to about me, i know what i need to about me.

11/04/2008 10:04:22 PM carey heather i know what i need to know about you too.

11/04/2008 10:05:25 PM heather carey so what else do you need to talk to me about? what questions do you have for me? because i have told you, and this is false; the difference is this: in your mind, our relationship was great. then one day out of the blue, i just decided to hit you. in my mind, i said never cheat on me, you said ok and you said never hit me. i said ok. you cheated 1st, lied to me, met guys behind my back, then and o

11/04/2008 10:05:28 PM heather carey the difference is this: in your mind, our relationship was great. then one day out of the blue, i just decided to hit you. in my mind, i said never cheat on me, you said ok and you said never hit me. i said ok. you cheated 1st, lied to me, met guys behind my back, then and only then did i break my promise, but i held alot back before i did, and when i did i showed a ton of restraint.

11/04/2008 10:06:33 PM carey heather one day long long ago, i met this girl that wanted to holler at me, and i was, until i met c.j. i decided to holler at her instead. you know what the girl did when she found out i [censored] cj? she went and [censored] my best friend. sound farmiliar? funny thing is, i wasnt with that dumbass bitch, but since she saw my dick, she thought she owned it.

11/04/2008 10:07:05 PM heather carey i think you are immature

11/04/2008 10:07:22 PM carey heather wowe

11/04/2008 10:07:24 PM heather carey i don't like how you talk to me

11/04/2008 10:07:31 PM heather carey i have never liked it

11/04/2008 10:07:39 PM heather carey i don't like how you don't listen to advice

11/04/2008 10:07:50 PM heather carey when i say things now and back then

11/04/2008 10:08:00 PM heather carey so yes, i do think you are immature

11/04/2008 10:08:11 PM heather carey you knew better then, and you still talk [censored] about people

11/04/2008 10:08:13 PM carey heather your advice is usually crap. in my humble opinion

11/04/2008 10:08:37 PM heather carey your opinion is not humble towards me, only towards others until you find that they are not perfect

11/04/2008 10:08:54 PM heather carey perfect meaning meeting up to your standards

11/04/2008 10:08:57 PM carey heather i talk [censored] about people because its my opinion. i also tell them my opinion to their face, and i could care less what they think. they need to hear it

11/04/2008 10:09:05 PM heather carey and if they dont meet your standards you want to burn them

11/04/2008 10:09:32 PM carey heather if they dont meet my standards, i stay the hell away from them after i learn.

11/04/2008 10:09:35 PM heather carey my truth of in the beginning are you ready

11/04/2008 10:09:43 PM carey heather sure

11/04/2008 10:11:22 PM heather carey in the beginning, you were too young, i didn't realize because i wanted to help you, i was taking away by you, and i also had a great desire to be a wife and have children. i didn't realize that you had so much to do, and grow into. when you came here, i asked you not to do drugs and i explained why. i also asked that your minor friends not come to the house, and i explained why. this caused

11/04/2008 10:11:51 PM heather carey alot of nervous tension in the house and lead to many outburst and fights because i was trying to give you room when my family was telling me to make you do the life thing

11/04/2008 10:12:41 PM carey heather your right, i was too young, too immature. well now i am alot different and you dont like that either.

11/04/2008 10:13:39 PM heather carey i did not cheat on you, until much later yearrrrrrrrrrrsssssss down the road. but there were many things in the between. this is the point, you made mistakes, and i made mistakes you are trying to blame me for everything and make me feel like i am the biggest piece of [censored]. the only person who is going to defend me is me. and i am telling you, we were both wrong. BOTH,

11/04/2008 10:14:58 PM carey heather we were both wrong in the beggining, then i started to see what i was doing. i withdrew from my friends, i withdrew from society. i changed for the better and you kept going downhill. thats the reality of it

11/04/2008 10:16:34 PM heather carey i did not ask you to withdraw from society I ASKED YOU to get rid of the [censored] that was going to take our family away but nooooooooo it means so much to you that you got to cuss me, hit me, and make me feel like a worthless piece of [censored] because you can't come out of the jungle. meaning you want some thing else, not us. if you wanted us, you would hold us, love us, play with us. you dont want too

11/04/2008 10:16:58 PM carey heather we disagree

11/04/2008 10:17:03 PM carey heather forever

11/04/2008 10:17:33 PM carey heather 2 different stories. wonder which story is correct. or does it fall in the middle?

11/04/2008 10:17:37 PM heather carey what the hell do you want, rusty?

11/04/2008 10:17:53 PM heather carey what the hell do you want

11/04/2008 10:18:01 PM carey heather i find it hilarious that you are telling me that my points are not valid.

11/04/2008 10:18:12 PM heather carey stop putting words in my mouth

11/04/2008 10:18:19 PM carey heather i dont have to

11/04/2008 10:18:23 PM heather carey get to the point

11/04/2008 10:18:31 PM heather carey ok

11/04/2008 10:18:35 PM heather carey if you dont have to

11/04/2008 10:18:39 PM heather carey that tells me alot

11/04/2008 10:19:06 PM heather carey you said to me today, we were never married.

11/04/2008 10:19:12 PM heather carey you said to me today i am a liar

11/04/2008 10:19:20 PM heather carey you said to me today i am a cheater

11/04/2008 10:19:26 PM carey heather my point is this, you are a weak frail bitch. you cannot stand up for what you believe in. i challenge you to a fight under the eyes of the lord, and i pray that he gives strength to the one who is right

11/04/2008 10:19:31 PM heather carey these todays were yesterdays

11/04/2008 10:19:49 PM heather carey you think i deserve to be punished? you think i have done no good works in my life

11/04/2008 10:20:15 PM carey heather i think the scale is tipped a little in the other direction for you

11/04/2008 10:20:16 PM heather carey in front of the Lord?

11/04/2008 10:20:22 PM carey heather yup

11/04/2008 10:20:31 PM heather carey challenge, i am a frail bitch

11/04/2008 10:20:35 PM heather carey [censored] you

11/04/2008 10:20:45 PM heather carey lets fight bitch

11/04/2008 10:20:50 PM carey heather lets go

11/04/2008 10:21:02 PM heather carey i am done withthis

11/04/2008 10:21:31 PM heather carey there is your fight and i am right because i have two kids that need me, and a mother that needs her own life

11/04/2008 10:21:42 PM heather carey you dont care for me, and you barely want to be around the kids

11/04/2008 10:22:14 PM heather carey i asked several things of you and each time i did not get heard and i forgave you, until i just couldn't take any more

11/04/2008 10:22:26 PM carey heather i dont want to be around any of you right now and when i find another place to go, or you kick me out on the streets with nothing, i will be gone.

11/04/2008 10:22:55 PM heather carey i think it is funny how you call me a cold heartless bitch

11/04/2008 10:23:01 PM carey heather i cannot believe i wasted 8 [censored] years of my life doing this same argument

11/04/2008 10:23:03 PM heather carey i think it is funny as hell how you mock me

11/04/2008 10:23:09 PM heather carey i think you are [censored] halarious

11/04/2008 10:23:14 PM heather carey you dont like that either

11/04/2008 10:23:36 PM heather carey i can because u can not forgive

11/04/2008 10:24:14 PM carey heather i hate you and i love you. i look at you the same way i looked at my mother. if she needed me, i would be there, but im done trying to have a relationship with you.

11/04/2008 10:24:33 PM heather carey i also think it is funny how you manipulate people to feel sorry for you because you are too tired to get up off your ass and work for some thing that is in your face and it aint even that hard.

11/04/2008 10:24:44 PM heather carey so

11/04/2008 10:24:49 PM carey heather i dont want you

11/04/2008 10:24:59 PM carey heather i dont want this

11/04/2008 10:25:06 PM carey heather this is not what i wanted

11/04/2008 10:25:19 PM carey heather this is a nightmare to me.

11/04/2008 10:25:40 PM heather carey i know you don't want me, i know you dont want this, i know you don't think i am beautiful or have provided anything good for you. so you are free.

11/04/2008 10:26:30 PM carey heather i wonder how you felt all those times i proclaimed so loud that i hate this, and this, and you just sat there quietly knowing that was you

11/04/2008 10:27:21 PM heather carey you should be happy, i thought making things like a home, i thought being a homemaker and all this wifey [censored] would make you happy but you would rather be somewhere else doing some thing else, i thought that if i could provide you a place and give you things that would inspire you to go to school and give you time to work. well my plan was no good, and i am willing to admit so, it aint you.

11/04/2008 10:27:49 PM carey heather i found out i am stupid when i do not know things

11/04/2008 10:27:52 PM carey heather now i know

11/04/2008 10:28:41 PM carey heather i remember being able to sleep on my stomach, that was so nice

11/04/2008 10:28:45 PM heather carey i tried to tell you, be there and all kinds of things. i even tried to tell you the truth about everything and you couldn't wouldn't hear me. you fall into the new world order and wont listen to nothing i say, so i cant make you. my hands are tied, i've prayed. i dont know what else to do besides make it over

11/04/2008 10:29:06 PM carey heather i think you fall into the new world order

11/04/2008 10:29:48 PM carey heather newsflash: everything after the point of [censored] bogan was fake. it was a lie

11/04/2008 10:29:52 PM heather carey so goodnight, and remember when you do find out the TRUTH- and i mean the real TRUTH- because you will, that i honestly did love you, and i tried to tell you. maybe i do, but maybe i tried to tell you and you just couldnt hear me.

11/04/2008 10:29:58 PM heather carey so, goodnight

13/04/2008 9:59:45 PM heather carey can i have a few moments to talk with you? on here?

13/04/2008 10:00:00 PM carey heather why?

13/04/2008 10:00:28 PM heather carey because you are my friend, i love you, and you mean a lot to me.

13/04/2008 10:01:39 PM carey heather i dont care about your opinion of me, so theres really nothing to talk about. i am not your friend. you do not love me, and i do not mean alot to you. you need to quit lying. if those things were true, you would be a different person than what you are.

13/04/2008 10:05:06 PM heather carey i do love you, we have problems and i can not fix everything by myself.

13/04/2008 10:05:35 PM carey heather no, you have problems. my problems will be gone when i leave from here.

13/04/2008 10:05:48 PM heather carey ok

13/04/2008 10:06:24 PM heather carey well if u want something to eat, lemme know before it gets too late please.

13/04/2008 10:06:42 PM carey heather ill make my own. if i want food thats spit in, ill call you

13/04/2008 10:07:30 PM heather carey i do not spit in your food, and i have not ever spit in your food. i do not do things behind your back like that to hurt you or to be mean spirited.

13/04/2008 10:07:51 PM carey heather yes you do. you are so fake. and you are a con, not me.

13/04/2008 10:08:28 PM carey heather you do things behind my back because thats all you can do. and your a sorry motherfucker for that.

13/04/2008 10:08:48 PM carey heather you know how i feel. ill kiss your ass for this week, after that, im gone.

13/04/2008 10:09:01 PM heather carey that is not true, goodnight

13/04/2008 10:09:56 PM carey heather how about you leave me alone? if you did, id have a nice peaceful life instead of this torture you like to give me. I AM NOT YOU. I NEVER WILL BE.

13/04/2008 10:10:46 PM heather carey ok. i would like it if you would consider leaving a gift for brandon before you go, but i figured that would be too much to ask too

13/04/2008 10:10:47 PM carey heather you are hateful and you call it love. you are a sorry motherfucker. my life wasnt much before i met you, but i was [censored] happy

13/04/2008 10:11:06 PM heather carey well i thought you said i made you happy

13/04/2008 10:11:15 PM carey heather i lied to have peace.

13/04/2008 10:11:23 PM heather carey ok

13/04/2008 10:11:54 PM heather carey what day is JB suppose to come?

13/04/2008 10:11:57 PM carey heather everything nice i do, it is to have peace. if i dont lie and be fake, i get hell, i get kicked out, i get told lies on, i get [censored] because i dont like you

13/04/2008 10:12:09 PM carey heather this weekend

13/04/2008 10:12:17 PM heather carey friday or saturday

13/04/2008 10:12:25 PM heather carey for 8 years you have not liked me

13/04/2008 10:12:27 PM heather carey ?


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13/04/2008 10:13:07 PM carey heather for 8 [censored] years i have wasted every single day telling you if you did not quit, i was going to leave. for 8 years i told you you were [censored] up.

13/04/2008 10:14:27 PM carey heather you did, and do not care. i am a man. i do not have to take this. theres plenty of women that are trash and i didnt want to see you go that route. you didnt listen, so its noones fault but your own. i did things for reasons, you did things for greed. now you pay the price for greed

13/04/2008 10:17:55 PM carey heather i dont care if you think i am hateful, i dont care what you think about me. i love myself. i am a good person. this is your house and you create all this [censored] because you want to. you like fighting and arguing. i do not. you have wronged me too many times to even count. i did things to you in the beggining of our reltaionship and i atoned for them. you could care less though. go look at my first

13/04/2008 10:18:52 PM carey heather poem, and then go look at my last, look at how much i chaned for the better, now look at yourself in the mirror and look at the monster you turned into. your beauty was replaced with destruction

13/04/2008 10:19:35 PM carey heather you embrace the evil. you love it. eva is your hero. you are so much like her it makes me sick.

13/04/2008 10:20:38 PM carey heather you need to take a long hard look at yourself. and the cold hateful things you do.

13/04/2008 10:21:11 PM carey heather the president says hes a good guy too, but i dont believe the sorry motherfucker

13/04/2008 10:21:38 PM carey heather your no different. you put a front up, just like him. but i know the truth.

13/04/2008 10:23:05 PM heather carey well, i am going to speand some time with brandon, is there anything else u want to say

13/04/2008 10:23:21 PM carey heather yeah, have fun with your son.

13/04/2008 10:23:37 PM carey heather and im glad he wont miss me. takes a load off my mind

13/04/2008 10:24:31 PM heather carey he will miss u, he asked when u r coming back, i told him to ask u. he should not have to ask, you should tell him when you will see him again, or round about when you plan on it

13/04/2008 10:24:46 PM carey heather i dont plan on it

13/04/2008 10:25:08 PM carey heather they will have a new father soon enough.

13/04/2008 10:25:52 PM heather carey i asked him if he would be ok if you left because you had plans on leaving, and i didn't know when you would be back. he said he would be ok, but he wanted to know when you would come back to see him. he loves you and so does mary, mary says you are her husband. so, dont say mean hurtful things about our children, and dont say mean hurtful things to them.

13/04/2008 10:26:25 PM carey heather i dont. you do. you manipulate them, wich is worse

13/04/2008 10:26:59 PM heather carey no, i am including them, because they will want to know. and i want them to see both sides

13/04/2008 10:27:29 PM heather carey brandon and i are going up front we might cook a pizza want some?

13/04/2008 10:27:30 PM carey heather they will only see yours. thats ok though. i dont need them to see mine. they will hate me like i hated my father.

13/04/2008 10:27:42 PM heather carey no they will not dislike you

13/04/2008 10:27:56 PM heather carey they will always love you, and they will know the whole truth

13/04/2008 10:28:31 PM heather carey they both are intelligent and forgiving. they will forgive us both. do you want some pizza or macncheese if we make some?

13/04/2008 10:28:33 PM carey heather yeah? you gonna tell them how sorry you were? or are you gonna tell them how sorry I thought you were?

13/04/2008 10:28:49 PM heather carey i am going to tell them the truth

13/04/2008 10:28:54 PM carey heather yeah?

13/04/2008 10:28:56 PM heather carey yes

13/04/2008 10:29:16 PM carey heather your going to manipulate them into accepting things. that is all.

13/04/2008 10:29:37 PM heather carey write me an email if you want to say any more. no they will accept it because that is apart of life. that doesnt mean they will like it.

13/04/2008 10:29:49 PM carey heather you are going to use material things to get them to do what you want them to.

13/04/2008 10:29:53 PM heather carey do you want some thing to eat if we make it?

13/04/2008 10:29:58 PM heather carey no i am not

13/04/2008 10:30:06 PM carey heather too bad bogan was afraid of me eh? didnt count on that did ya?

13/04/2008 10:31:01 PM heather carey i dont know what u mean by that fully, but i didnt ever intend nor did i ask him to do anything to you. infact i told him it would be extremely wise of him to stay away from you.

13/04/2008 10:31:08 PM carey heather and you really thought it would hurt me like it did when corey did that? if bogan wouldve done it, i wouldve loved it.

13/04/2008 10:31:44 PM heather carey that is all in your dramatic scheme, that is not what i was thinking at all. and God knows that. so i do not have to worry about that.

13/04/2008 10:31:50 PM heather carey goodnight rusty.

13/04/2008 10:32:19 PM carey heather you dont know me like you think you do. you are so simple. you are easy to figure out. know why? evil is evil. it goes about things simple mindedly

13/04/2008 10:32:48 PM carey heather goodnight "hethen"

13/04/2008 10:32:51 PM heather carey goodnight, goodnight, goodnight. GOD knows my heart and my mind. i do not have to worry because he knows my intent.

13/04/2008 10:33:06 PM carey heather yes he does. you should be scared

13/04/2008 10:33:43 PM heather carey no i should not be, because i know he knows. that assures me. more than you can know at this point. huggs

13/04/2008 10:33:48 PM heather carey goodnight

13/04/2008 10:34:29 PM carey heather my intent was to help you. after i was done elping you, i was going to leave. i had other people in this world to help to make it change. you knew i was going to leave, so you were greedy.

13/04/2008 10:34:33 PM carey heather i know it all

13/04/2008 10:35:20 PM heather carey there is no more point in trying to beat me down, you are wrong about me, and it is ok that you have your opinion. i was just trying to tell you, i love you, and i want you to be happy. and i know you will be okay now you are really more strong than you even realize. goodnight. i will take good care of the kids, and when you get ready for us to come, we will be ready to be there. i am counting on

13/04/2008 10:35:40 PM carey heather like i was wrong about you [censored] around on me huh?

13/04/2008 10:36:02 PM heather carey goodnight, brandon is waiting and he is important.

13/04/2008 10:36:08 PM carey heather lie more. i dont care. i know you better than you know urself

13/04/2008 10:36:11 PM heather carey i love you and i want you to be happy

13/04/2008 10:36:15 PM heather carey goodnight.

13/04/2008 10:36:15 PM carey heather lies

17/04/2008 10:58:52 AM heather carey

17/04/2008 11:15:04 AM carey heather this is a cool comic...

17/04/2008 11:15:41 AM carey heather and here, heres the actual comics that you can read online.

17/04/2008 11:15:52 AM carey heather quit lookin at jank [censored]...

17/04/2008 11:21:02 AM heather sends saveTheWhale.jpg

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17/04/2008 1:23:30 PM heather carey gimmie a cigarette please

17/04/2008 1:23:49 PM heather carey please pro, pay attention to what i am asking.

17/04/2008 1:23:58 PM heather carey please pay attention to what i am saying

17/04/2008 1:24:12 PM heather carey please pay attention to how i feel with and about these things

17/04/2008 1:26:48 PM heather carey you there?

17/04/2008 1:27:04 PM carey heather yup

17/04/2008 1:27:05 PM heather carey u there?

17/04/2008 1:27:36 PM heather carey u have always told me that to the world i am fat and ugly. but to you i am beautiful. so why are you upset about that picture?

17/04/2008 1:28:00 PM carey heather you wouldnt understand

17/04/2008 1:28:08 PM heather carey because when i saw it, the second thing i thought was how comfortable and how much pain relief i would have if i could swim like that in water right now.

17/04/2008 1:29:11 PM heather carey i would understand, because when people make fun of skinny people it upsets me, when people make fun of fat people it upsets me, but that is people doing it, and that is the difference. i dont have to make fun of anyone. doesnt mean i always like what i see, but i dont have to make someone else feel a lesser of a person.

17/04/2008 1:57:25 PM carey heather

17/04/2008 2:48:09 PM carey heather i hope that you read it. when the samurai died, bushido died as well. who shall uphold honor and tradition in this world once it is gone?

17/04/2008 2:49:16 PM carey heather Born of two main influences, the violent existence of the Samurai was tempered by the wisdom and serenity of Confucianism and Buddhism

17/04/2008 2:51:48 PM carey heather it means that they were born into a violent world, in which they had to defend themselves with the same verocity. but, it was not the way they decided to live. the believed as i do, honor until death. wisdom is power. knowledge is honorable. knowledge brings honor. the path of the learning man falls onto the road of honor.

17/04/2008 2:52:23 PM carey heather Bushido, then, is the code of moral principles which the samurai were required or instructed to observe

17/04/2008 2:52:34 PM heather carey so if i continue to learn i will be following eventually an honorable path

17/04/2008 2:52:40 PM carey heather More frequently it is a code unuttered and unwritten

17/04/2008 2:53:25 PM carey heather you must want to learn first. you do not want that at this time. you want what you want. you do not see what i see.

17/04/2008 2:53:32 PM carey heather i see what you see.

17/04/2008 2:54:04 PM heather carey i want people to feel for me and pamper me and tell me everything will be okay,a nd it be true

17/04/2008 2:54:57 PM carey heather then you will never follow the path of wisdom. that is stupidity. do you expect pampering when you are nothing but a rotting corpse?

17/04/2008 2:55:22 PM heather carey no

17/04/2008 2:55:59 PM heather carey i gotta go take care of the kids, you want some thing to eat?

17/04/2008 2:56:07 PM carey heather when i muster the strength to save a woman from being raped by the world, am i favored? do i have something noone else does?

17/04/2008 2:56:17 PM heather carey yes

17/04/2008 2:56:24 PM carey heather In the world of the warrior, seppuku was a deed of bravery that was admirable in a samurai who knew he was defeated, disgraced, or mortally wounded. It meant that he could end his days with his transgressions wiped away and with his reputation not merely intact but actually enhanced. The cutting of the abdomen released the samurai's spirit in the most dramatic fashion, but it was an extremely pain

17/04/2008 2:56:57 PM carey heather painful and unpleasant way to die, and sometimes the samurai who was performing the act asked a loyal comrade to cut off his head at the moment of agony.

17/04/2008 2:57:26 PM carey heather The Bushido code is typified by seven virtues: Rectitude (?, gi?) Courage (?, yu?) Benevolence (?, jin?) Respect (?, rei?) Honesty (?, makoto or ? shin?) Honour, Glory (??, meiyo?) Loyalty (??, chugi?)

17/04/2008 9:28:45 PM heather carey

17/04/2008 10:03:19 PM heather carey

17/04/2008 10:45:00 PM heather carey

20/04/2008 9:53:38 PM carey heather hey

20/04/2008 9:59:46 PM heather carey :D

20/04/2008 10:00:12 PM heather carey u got ur computer hooked up?

20/04/2008 10:00:43 PM heather carey i was in the kitchen watching a show that was on. mary is in the bed, and brandon is listening to sonic music.

20/04/2008 10:00:46 PM heather carey what you doing?

20/04/2008 10:01:25 PM carey heather hey, just got my pc hooked up

20/04/2008 10:01:48 PM heather carey how is ur connection running? ya'll gonna be able to play WOW

20/04/2008 10:01:53 PM carey heather hows everything at home?

20/04/2008 10:02:01 PM carey heather its ok now

20/04/2008 10:02:13 PM carey heather we need another ethernet cable tho

20/04/2008 10:02:34 PM heather carey it's okay the kids are ok, mary heard momma dragging trash out to the street and we were in the back yard and she went screaming that's my daddy he comes home now.

20/04/2008 10:02:44 PM carey heather lol

20/04/2008 10:03:01 PM heather carey she's a cute button

20/04/2008 10:03:06 PM carey heather yup

20/04/2008 10:03:57 PM carey heather the net wont always be hooked up to my pc till i get an ethernet cable, but when mines hooked up ill leave msn on

20/04/2008 10:03:58 PM heather carey ya'll having an alright time?

20/04/2008 10:04:03 PM carey heather yeah

20/04/2008 10:04:15 PM carey heather gonna look for a job in the morning

20/04/2008 10:04:17 PM heather carey do i have an xtra ethernet cable?

20/04/2008 10:04:28 PM carey heather nah, ill get one sent

20/04/2008 10:04:30 PM heather carey JB taking ya or you driving his red truck?

20/04/2008 10:04:38 PM carey heather jb takin me

20/04/2008 10:04:51 PM heather carey cool, he don't have to work?

20/04/2008 10:05:02 PM carey heather yeah, he's got to work

20/04/2008 10:05:26 PM heather carey let me know how every thing is going when you get where you can settle down tomorrow

20/04/2008 10:05:33 PM carey heather k

20/04/2008 10:06:02 PM heather carey tell JB i appreciate all his help.

20/04/2008 10:06:12 PM carey heather k

20/04/2008 10:06:16 PM heather carey you better take care of yourself

20/04/2008 10:06:31 PM heather carey :)

20/04/2008 10:06:34 PM carey heather i will

20/04/2008 10:06:46 PM carey heather you too

20/04/2008 10:06:57 PM heather carey i am :)

20/04/2008 10:07:15 PM heather carey i smoked too many ciggies today

20/04/2008 10:07:23 PM carey heather lol

20/04/2008 10:07:58 PM heather carey usually i only have about 6 i guess, i didnt finish my pack yet but i feel like i smoked too many cuz i smoked a few when i didnt really want one

20/04/2008 10:08:01 PM heather carey lol

20/04/2008 10:08:11 PM carey heather lol

20/04/2008 10:08:58 PM heather carey momma made my bed for me, it was nice of her. that felt like pampering to me. kind of, i don't have to worry about making it up now and i can just go to sleep.

20/04/2008 10:09:11 PM carey heather thats cool

20/04/2008 10:09:18 PM heather carey i dont know what she did with that book shelf that was on the bed though.

20/04/2008 10:09:20 PM carey heather i ate chinese food today

20/04/2008 10:09:33 PM heather carey you ate chinese? wow

20/04/2008 10:09:38 PM heather carey wow

20/04/2008 10:09:43 PM heather carey did you like it

20/04/2008 10:09:47 PM heather carey what did you eat?

20/04/2008 10:09:52 PM carey heather ya, it was good

20/04/2008 10:10:18 PM carey heather ur mom say anything about my pc?

20/04/2008 10:10:54 PM heather carey you are the funniest person i have met in my life- i think of all those times i tried to get u to eat chinese. lol nah, she didn't say nothing except for did i still have a modem to get on the net. i was like yeah, don't worry mom. :)

20/04/2008 10:11:06 PM heather carey she wanted to make sure i could play too. lol

20/04/2008 10:11:11 PM carey heather cool

20/04/2008 10:11:14 PM heather carey she wasnt mad at all

20/04/2008 10:11:21 PM heather carey i think she just worries

20/04/2008 10:11:25 PM carey heather thats good, figured shed be happy

20/04/2008 10:11:34 PM heather carey nah, i wouldn't say she is happy

20/04/2008 10:11:38 PM heather carey she is worried

20/04/2008 10:11:46 PM carey heather oh

20/04/2008 10:12:32 PM heather carey she didnt say nothing about the computer, she just wants to make sure i am not going to pull a stunt for being emotional or sad.

20/04/2008 10:12:42 PM carey heather cool

20/04/2008 10:12:53 PM carey heather wanna play guild wars?

20/04/2008 10:13:06 PM heather carey sure lemme pee, and get some thing to drink. brb

20/04/2008 10:13:22 PM carey heather k, meet me in lions arch, last dis

20/04/2008 10:13:35 PM heather carey ok

20/04/2008 11:58:52 PM carey heather im back

20/04/2008 11:59:20 PM carey heather you there?

21/04/2008 12:17:03 AM heather carey u there?

21/04/2008 12:18:09 AM heather carey call me i'm on guild wars and i got the phone, i was waiting for you to come back and play on guild wars. so call me tell me goodnight.

21/04/2008 12:18:12 AM heather carey huggs

21/04/2008 12:27:54 AM heather carey i tried to call ya. what does it mean when it says my virtual memory is too low and how do i make it not too low?

21/04/2008 12:28:34 AM heather carey well if you can call me to say goodnight, if your already asleep i hope you rest well. huggs, i love you. be good.

21/04/2008 9:13:22 AM carey heather hey, you there?

21/04/2008 11:05:51 AM carey heather k, back. gonna put in the #s

21/04/2008 11:06:01 AM heather carey ok

21/04/2008 11:08:25 AM carey heather number on the back of the card: 1244764-05 1109734 on recipt: account:devil: 7347 activation#: 96504557770894 1800 greendot

21/04/2008 11:08:55 AM carey heather reference# is 8095052644949

21/04/2008 11:09:38 AM heather carey ok gimmie a bit and i will see if i can get them to do something on it and i will let you know when i get it done. you can call me when you get back if you want. :)

21/04/2008 11:09:53 AM heather carey i hope you have a good day, huggs

21/04/2008 11:10:15 AM carey heather ok, i will. jb is going to sleep another hour. he said he would just let me use his truck in a lil bit.

21/04/2008 11:10:26 AM heather carey lol

21/04/2008 11:10:34 AM heather carey be careful, huggs

21/04/2008 11:10:50 AM carey heather ive got a lil bit, so ill be online for a lil longer

21/04/2008 11:11:01 AM carey heather i shaved today :-O

21/04/2008 11:11:21 AM heather carey ok i will work on it now, gimmie a few minutes :) woo i thought i noticed something different about you

21/04/2008 11:11:22 AM carey heather put on deoderant n all...

21/04/2008 11:11:35 AM heather carey oh man i was wondering what that stank was :)

21/04/2008 11:11:39 AM carey heather :p

21/04/2008 11:11:50 AM heather carey that is funny, i had to give momma my deodrant today

21/04/2008 11:11:57 AM carey heather lol

21/04/2008 11:12:46 AM heather carey hey, look on that thing and tell me if it is a money pak or what

21/04/2008 11:12:58 AM carey heather moneypak

21/04/2008 11:13:10 AM heather carey ok gimmie a sec

21/04/2008 11:13:13 AM carey heather k

21/04/2008 11:16:30 AM heather carey so on the card thing is it a reload thing or what does it say. sorry, i just need to make sure before i call them

21/04/2008 11:17:16 AM carey heather says moneypak.: reload prepaid cards, make payments and pay bills, add cash to accounts

21/04/2008 11:17:38 AM heather carey ok let me go see if i still have a green card, brb

21/04/2008 11:17:43 AM carey heather k

21/04/2008 11:17:58 AM carey heather try to see if you have one in my name still

21/04/2008 11:21:34 AM heather carey looks like i have thrown all of them away, i am going to have to call right now and explain to them what idiocy i have commited... gimmie a bit on the phone, ok?

21/04/2008 11:21:56 AM carey heather lol k

21/04/2008 11:22:12 AM carey heather its no problem, i just could use the money.

21/04/2008 11:22:28 AM heather carey yeah i know, i am calling them now to see if they can help me

21/04/2008 11:22:33 AM carey heather k

21/04/2008 11:29:19 AM heather carey bar code a number

21/04/2008 11:29:32 AM carey heather on the card?

21/04/2008 11:29:35 AM heather carey yes

21/04/2008 11:29:58 AM carey heather 1244764-05 1109734

21/04/2008 11:30:24 AM carey heather theres a barcode at the top too, it says 3032400141

21/04/2008 11:30:28 AM heather carey any other number

21/04/2008 11:30:52 AM carey heather only numbers on the card

21/04/2008 11:31:31 AM heather carey on phone hold 1 sec

21/04/2008 11:31:33 AM carey heather k

21/04/2008 11:32:36 AM heather carey is there a number that starts with digit number 9

21/04/2008 11:33:01 AM carey heather activation# does

21/04/2008 11:33:05 AM heather carey ok hold 1 sec

21/04/2008 11:33:18 AM carey heather 96504557770894

21/04/2008 11:33:26 AM heather carey ty 1sec

21/04/2008 11:33:37 AM carey heather k

21/04/2008 11:36:13 AM carey heather is it possible to see if they can put it on my mississippi credit card?

21/04/2008 11:38:31 AM heather carey 1 sec ty

21/04/2008 11:41:26 AM heather carey ok, here is the deal

21/04/2008 11:41:49 AM heather carey the only thing they can do without causing a whole lot of mess is to mail a check first class.

21/04/2008 11:41:58 AM carey heather ok

21/04/2008 11:42:07 AM heather carey you want me to have it sent here and then me purchase another card and send you the numbers?

21/04/2008 11:42:11 AM heather carey want me to call you?

21/04/2008 11:42:21 AM carey heather nah, get it sent here if you can

21/04/2008 11:42:31 AM heather carey what is ur home addy?

21/04/2008 11:42:36 AM carey heather gimme one sec

21/04/2008 11:42:39 AM heather carey ok

21/04/2008 11:44:10 AM carey heather 14115 szymanski rd. north little rock AR 72118

21/04/2008 11:44:20 AM heather carey ok 1 sec

21/04/2008 11:45:51 AM heather carey ok, will do.

21/04/2008 11:46:06 AM heather carey jb has a bank he can cash the check at for you right?

21/04/2008 11:46:21 AM carey heather yeah

21/04/2008 11:46:56 AM heather carey ok, i am sorry about the mix up rusty, i didn't do it on purpose. they said they will mail it first class early tomorrow morning.

21/04/2008 11:47:05 AM carey heather ok, thanks

21/04/2008 11:47:15 AM carey heather hope it comes

21/04/2008 11:47:50 AM heather carey he said to give it proper 7-10 days but that it probably will be there before then because first class is fast but he has to tell you 7-10 buisness days for legal purposes

21/04/2008 11:47:53 AM heather carey it will come

21/04/2008 11:47:57 AM heather carey what you going to buy?

21/04/2008 11:48:04 AM carey heather cigs

21/04/2008 11:48:09 AM carey heather and food

21/04/2008 11:48:24 AM heather carey did jaba let ya borrow some money?

21/04/2008 11:48:37 AM carey heather no, gonna ask him tho, 1 sec

21/04/2008 11:49:32 AM heather carey brb gotta check on mary

21/04/2008 11:50:55 AM carey heather ill try to pawn my stereo or something till it comes. jb's going to let me use his truck to look for a job in a bit.

21/04/2008 11:53:18 AM heather carey how come you are going to pawn your stereo? cuz i thought he was gonna let you borrow a little money?

21/04/2008 11:54:33 AM heather carey can u call me please??

21/04/2008 12:14:17 PM carey heather im gonna hook the net back up to his pc, love you. ill talk to you in a little bit. be good. love ya.

21/04/2008 12:14:26 PM heather carey love you

21/04/2008 7:07:06 PM carey heather hey

21/04/2008 7:07:14 PM heather carey hey

21/04/2008 7:07:22 PM heather carey i really miss you

21/04/2008 7:07:24 PM carey heather im back

21/04/2008 7:07:34 PM carey heather you too

21/04/2008 7:07:36 PM heather carey how did everything go?

21/04/2008 7:07:44 PM carey heather went good.

21/04/2008 7:08:02 PM heather carey so you had a good time being out and seeing people? you were ok?

21/04/2008 7:08:09 PM carey heather ill prolly get a job at ftd for 11$/hour

21/04/2008 7:08:20 PM heather carey that would be incredible

21/04/2008 7:08:27 PM carey heather yeah

21/04/2008 7:08:33 PM heather carey they interview you and everything?

21/04/2008 7:08:42 PM carey heather ive gotta go back tomorrow

21/04/2008 7:08:48 PM heather carey how come?

21/04/2008 7:08:55 PM carey heather finish a test

21/04/2008 7:09:01 PM carey heather didnt finish it.

21/04/2008 7:09:10 PM heather carey they didnt want you to finish it?

21/04/2008 7:10:02 PM heather carey did you get any money from the pawn shop?

21/04/2008 7:10:54 PM carey heather i did it 3 times, but the keyboard was messing up or something, 1st time i didnt capitalize things, and i fixed errors, then they told me not to fix the errors, just capitalize. then i did that, but the shift key was messed up, so ive gotta go back tomorrow. they stop at 5

21/04/2008 7:11:32 PM heather carey oh but they know that it wasn't you messing up that it was the computer?

21/04/2008 7:11:52 PM carey heather yeah, second times i capitalized, but it wasnt working right

21/04/2008 7:12:19 PM carey heather and i didnt look at the monitor much. it was timed

21/04/2008 7:12:42 PM heather carey can u call me or i call u the kids are in the tub and i wann talk to ya

21/04/2008 7:13:02 PM carey heather phones charging right now, ill call later though

21/04/2008 7:13:11 PM heather carey oh

21/04/2008 7:13:30 PM heather carey brb

21/04/2008 7:13:35 PM carey heather k

21/04/2008 7:15:09 PM heather carey ok

21/04/2008 7:15:29 PM heather carey were you able to get money from the pawn shop?

21/04/2008 7:18:09 PM heather carey ok, i guess ur busy. hope you had a good day today.

21/04/2008 7:23:57 PM heather carey i gotta go get the kids dressed, and i hope you can call later tonight or when you get a chance. i hope you had some fun, and you remember to be safe, and that we love you.

21/04/2008 7:29:09 PM carey heather IM BACK

21/04/2008 7:29:23 PM carey heather srry, caps lock was on

21/04/2008 7:29:48 PM carey heather pawn shop was closed, but i got a pack of cigs

21/04/2008 7:30:28 PM carey heather ima go find something to eat, ill call when this phone charges

21/04/2008 7:40:07 PM carey heather im back, you there?

21/04/2008 8:50:05 PM heather carey u there?

21/04/2008 8:55:56 PM heather carey how do i atone? make an atonement?

21/04/2008 8:56:50 PM heather carey Jesus died for my sins so i have atonement, because here is the definition

21/04/2008 8:57:14 PM heather carey a·tone·ment Audio Help /?'to?nm?nt/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[uh-tohn-muhnt] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –noun 1. satisfaction or reparation for a wrong or injury; amends. 2. (sometimes initial capital letter) Theology. the doctrine concerning the reconciliation of God and humankind, esp. as accomplished through the life, suffering, and death of Christ.

21/04/2008 9:32:54 PM heather carey brb gotta tuck mary in

21/04/2008 9:52:39 PM heather carey back, do u think i can watch tv on my computer like u do?

21/04/2008 10:15:10 PM heather carey where are you...

21/04/2008 10:21:35 PM heather carey look what i found -

21/04/2008 10:42:28 PM heather carey hello??

21/04/2008 10:42:43 PM heather carey .......?.??

21/04/2008 10:54:44 PM heather carey brb

21/04/2008 11:00:39 PM heather carey hello

22/04/2008 11:22:36 AM heather carey u there?

22/04/2008 11:45:43 AM heather carey are u eating okay, i will be glad when you get here so i know you are alright and that your comfortable. just take care of yourself, relax, drink water- sleep alot so you can play play play play with the kids when you get here because they wanna play with you :)

22/04/2008 12:06:35 PM heather carey ok i am going to go and play with the kids, if you want you can call me?

22/04/2008 12:06:41 PM heather carey huggs

22/04/2008 2:07:04 PM heather carey u there?

22/04/2008 2:16:37 PM heather carey hey, i'm cooking. send me a message even if i dont answer so i know u r ok. the kids and i like when we know how u r.

23/04/2008 10:48:14 AM heather carey jdrirojdoisoirtduselkfdjvcxosiruie753

23/04/2008 10:48:22 AM heather carey ftgsudutsrey

23/04/2008 10:48:29 AM heather carey fjgoirtuyr

23/04/2008 10:48:37 AM heather carey gfkdgriuteuuyhtjhfdghfdurt

23/04/2008 10:48:49 AM heather carey fuiguruydjfhfcjnvgfdjhurytiuyrfhfdjghvy56ufdhjhdfheuy4uy5rdh

23/04/2008 10:49:08 AM heather carey jfrpopoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

23/04/2008 10:49:18 AM heather carey yo

23/04/2008 10:49:40 AM heather carey irdkdjiesturesotiuerudfkjcvnkxdjdf irjurut4y5jrjhfkjdoidsuiyoiu458730920482948597340957350937475307590-282375390573075

23/04/2008 10:50:03 AM heather carey trodktoyi65u54ljfgjfoiu6

23/04/2008 10:51:21 AM heather carey :)jjkrtjeiruseswiksjfsiuiuweyskjhf

23/04/2008 10:52:02 AM heather carey :)ewury4iuyerhdsfsjkldfhsjhrriuw6439873853798478esuhsdufhuiwyeurhsiuayeuybxmbvbxmnzbvj,jfdgheuyewetrywuweyityieuyfdsiysdoyruyiey

23/04/2008 10:52:23 AM heather carey teter

23/04/2008 10:52:28 AM heather carey trttreyryf

23/04/2008 10:52:55 AM heather carey :)rt

23/04/2008 10:57:39 AM heather carey love you too, ya'll be good. later tater

23/04/2008 1:23:27 PM heather carey i love you

23/04/2008 1:23:54 PM heather carey i'm taking the kids outside to play for a bit, if you need to call i go the phone.

23/04/2008 1:24:13 PM heather carey when we come back in i am going to get them to rest, and i will have a little bit i can be online.

23/04/2008 1:24:15 PM heather carey huggs

23/04/2008 10:03:08 PM heather carey you there dad?

23/04/2008 10:08:20 PM carey heather hey, just woke up

23/04/2008 10:08:34 PM carey heather lemme go get my chair. brb

23/04/2008 10:08:35 PM heather carey :) how long you been sleeping dad?

23/04/2008 10:08:39 PM heather carey ok

23/04/2008 10:10:27 PM carey heather back, been sleeping all day lol

23/04/2008 10:10:52 PM heather carey u actually sleep that long? you feeling alright?

23/04/2008 10:11:04 PM heather carey i guess it helps time go by

23/04/2008 10:11:12 PM carey heather yeah

23/04/2008 10:11:32 PM heather carey you okay

23/04/2008 10:11:43 PM carey heather im ok

23/04/2008 10:11:46 PM heather carey :)

23/04/2008 10:12:00 PM heather carey you going to eat when jabba gets home?

23/04/2008 10:12:20 PM carey heather jb is here, he jut woke me up lol

23/04/2008 10:12:25 PM heather carey lol

23/04/2008 10:12:31 PM heather carey yall going to eat now?

23/04/2008 10:12:37 PM carey heather nah

23/04/2008 10:12:57 PM heather carey dont get me worried, you know you get a little crazy when your sugar gets low

23/04/2008 10:13:11 PM carey heather im fine lol

23/04/2008 10:14:01 PM heather carey yeah well you will be better if you eat too, i know they got bread, and something you can smear on it. maybe peanut butter or something make sure you eat. hold on mary has to ppoo poo dont go any where ok

23/04/2008 10:14:19 PM carey heather im fine...

23/04/2008 10:14:25 PM heather carey brb

23/04/2008 10:14:48 PM carey heather k, ima go play warcraft with jb for a bit. love you.

23/04/2008 10:18:05 PM heather carey i love you too

24/04/2008 3:43:15 AM carey heather hey, you there?

24/04/2008 7:28:20 AM carey heather morning. send me a message when you get up.

24/04/2008 8:56:03 AM carey heather hey, ya there?

24/04/2008 10:56:16 AM carey heather i love yall. yall have a good day. :)

24/04/2008 1:03:09 PM heather carey can you come home early friday please.

24/04/2008 1:38:50 PM carey heather i dont know, why?

24/04/2008 1:41:05 PM carey heather you there?

24/04/2008 1:48:02 PM carey heather i love you. i miss you guys.

24/04/2008 2:47:00 PM heather carey we must be gonna get some rain, lol

24/04/2008 2:48:19 PM heather carey i love you, we miss you too. you gotta just stay calm and use this to remember when we get on ur nerves. lol

24/04/2008 3:02:39 PM carey heather u there?

24/04/2008 3:02:49 PM heather carey :)

24/04/2008 3:02:56 PM carey heather howdy

24/04/2008 3:03:20 PM heather carey you want to come home and play with us and swing in the trees like monkeys? :)

24/04/2008 3:03:29 PM carey heather sure lol

24/04/2008 3:04:06 PM heather carey :) you and brandon are good at that, mary wanted to try today. she got the stool and climbed up there and she said mommy i scared, but i think i can

24/04/2008 3:04:07 PM carey heather wanna play some guild wars?

24/04/2008 3:04:18 PM carey heather lol

24/04/2008 3:04:36 PM heather carey sure and i said jump hold the rope and i will catch you she jumped let go of the rope and i caught her :)

24/04/2008 3:04:52 PM carey heather cool :)

24/04/2008 3:05:01 PM carey heather ima get on guild wars

24/04/2008 3:05:03 PM heather carey ok i am getting on guilded wars

24/04/2008 4:54:30 PM heather carey yeah the kids want to go outside, and i got to get out of this chair. sorry i didnt realize that king person was dying

24/04/2008 4:54:34 PM heather carey we were almost there weren't we

24/04/2008 4:54:42 PM carey heather yup

24/04/2008 4:54:59 PM heather carey ok you gonna rest for a while, i will be on later tonight.

24/04/2008 4:55:12 PM heather carey jb gone to work already?

24/04/2008 4:55:14 PM carey heather yeah, well play later

24/04/2008 4:55:22 PM carey heather ya, he went to work earlier

24/04/2008 4:55:33 PM heather carey if u need me u can call and if i dont pick up i will call u right back

24/04/2008 4:55:40 PM heather carey huggs

24/04/2008 4:55:46 PM heather carey you going to be on later?

24/04/2008 4:55:51 PM carey heather ok, love you. have fun with the kids

24/04/2008 4:55:56 PM carey heather ya

24/04/2008 4:55:58 PM heather carey i love you too, huggs

24/04/2008 5:30:31 PM heather carey u there?

24/04/2008 5:30:42 PM carey heather im here

24/04/2008 5:30:51 PM carey heather just sat down

24/04/2008 5:30:53 PM heather carey can u ask JB if he can bring you home tonight

24/04/2008 5:30:55 PM heather carey please

24/04/2008 5:31:06 PM carey heather its thursday

24/04/2008 5:31:11 PM heather carey ok

24/04/2008 5:31:18 PM carey heather he has to work tomorrow. sorry.

24/04/2008 5:31:34 PM heather carey ok

24/04/2008 5:31:45 PM heather carey it is ok

24/04/2008 5:31:47 PM carey heather im sorry. ill be home as soon as i can.

24/04/2008 5:31:55 PM heather carey i just want you to come home. i am ok

24/04/2008 5:32:09 PM heather carey it is ok

24/04/2008 5:32:27 PM heather carey when do you think yall will leave tomorrow? i just want to know a time i can look to

24/04/2008 5:32:49 PM carey heather ive got no idea, might be saturday

24/04/2008 5:33:07 PM heather carey ok, i am going to go play with the kids outside for couple of hours.

24/04/2008 5:33:21 PM carey heather ok, i love you. i miss you guys

24/04/2008 5:33:28 PM heather carey we love and miss you.

24/04/2008 5:34:06 PM heather carey see you later tonight if you are on, if you lay down please dont forget to leave me a message so i will know you are sleeping and i wont wait up or i will just know what is up. ok?

24/04/2008 5:34:27 PM carey heather ok, i will. have fun with the kids :)

24/04/2008 5:34:32 PM heather carey :)

24/04/2008 5:34:42 PM heather carey love you -gone outside

24/04/2008 5:34:48 PM carey heather k, bye

24/04/2008 7:10:46 PM heather carey u there?

24/04/2008 7:43:14 PM heather carey love you

24/04/2008 7:43:23 PM heather carey taking care of kids, will be on later

24/04/2008 10:29:07 PM heather carey you there?

24/04/2008 10:49:19 PM heather carey huggs

24/04/2008 11:33:25 PM heather carey getting on guild wars

24/04/2008 11:35:09 PM heather carey last dis

24/04/2008 11:35:45 PM heather carey nm about that dis

25/04/2008 12:10:12 AM heather carey i think i am going to bed soon

25/04/2008 12:14:11 AM heather carey i'm going to lay down, i dont feel well. i will send you a message if i get up.

25/04/2008 12:14:13 AM heather carey huggs

25/04/2008 12:14:15 AM heather carey i love you

25/04/2008 2:51:27 AM heather carey u there

25/04/2008 2:51:56 AM heather carey huggs i am going to lay down. mom is charging the phone. leave me a message. huggs

25/04/2008 3:49:02 AM carey heather hey, i love you

25/04/2008 3:49:12 AM carey heather i fell asleep earlier, sorry

25/04/2008 3:50:06 AM carey heather im gonna lay back down, i might be up in a little bit. get some rest :)

25/04/2008 9:22:26 AM heather carey u there?

25/04/2008 10:15:30 AM carey heather im awake, you there?

25/04/2008 10:33:57 AM heather carey u there

25/04/2008 10:42:40 AM heather carey brb

25/04/2008 11:02:56 AM heather carey u there?

25/04/2008 11:09:11 AM heather carey i'm going to take the kids outside, huggs

25/04/2008 11:09:22 AM heather carey u can call or write if u want huggs

25/04/2008 11:37:07 AM carey heather hey, you there?

25/04/2008 11:50:59 AM heather carey u there now?

25/04/2008 11:51:18 AM heather carey boogie is in time out

25/04/2008 11:51:54 AM heather is inviting you to start Tic Tac Toe. Do you want to Accept (Alt+C) or Decline (Alt+D) the invitation?

25/04/2008 11:52:02 AM heather has canceled the invitation to start Tic Tac Toe.

25/04/2008 12:07:12 PM heather carey i need to talk to you before any more time goes by

25/04/2008 12:09:21 PM heather carey brb

25/04/2008 12:11:48 PM carey heather you there?

25/04/2008 12:13:45 PM carey heather the phones dead, but its charging. im fixing to walk to the store to get a pack of cigs. ill message you when i get back. love you.

25/04/2008 1:03:25 PM carey heather im back, you there?


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Jan 18, 2007
25/04/2008 1:19:09 PM heather carey u there

25/04/2008 1:24:34 PM heather carey you coming home soon?

25/04/2008 1:26:29 PM heather carey where are you you there hello (echos in the hallway) is anyone there( nothing but silence) i love you (and then suddenly he appears, beautiful caption and illustrations weaving every angel and corner of their minds) :) what do ya think?

25/04/2008 1:35:08 PM heather carey be back in 15-20 minutes i gotta get mary settled down

25/04/2008 1:44:31 PM heather carey ok

25/04/2008 2:23:47 PM heather sent the wink "Knock"

25/04/2008 2:23:54 PM heather sent the wink "UFO"

25/04/2008 2:24:08 PM heather sent the wink "Water Balloon"

25/04/2008 2:24:22 PM heather sent the wink "Pig"

25/04/2008 2:36:11 PM heather carey what in the world ar eyou doing rusty ................................... hello hello hello we got work to do----- slaying menotaurs or something? hey hello knock knock where u at bonker bonker

25/04/2008 2:52:16 PM heather carey kisses

25/04/2008 2:53:21 PM heather carey i'm going to go be with our kids, maybe i will hear from you in a little while.

25/04/2008 3:18:07 PM carey heather im back, you there?

25/04/2008 3:22:07 PM heather carey u there

25/04/2008 3:22:31 PM heather carey ok i'm gone

25/04/2008 3:22:59 PM heather carey ok i'm here

25/04/2008 3:23:07 PM heather carey ok gone

25/04/2008 3:23:09 PM heather carey ok here

25/04/2008 3:23:11 PM heather carey ok gone

25/04/2008 3:23:13 PM heather carey ok here

25/04/2008 3:23:15 PM heather carey ok gone

25/04/2008 3:23:17 PM heather carey ok here

25/04/2008 3:23:19 PM heather carey ok gone

25/04/2008 3:23:21 PM heather carey ok here

25/04/2008 3:23:29 PM heather sent the wink "Knock"

25/04/2008 3:23:39 PM carey heather im back

25/04/2008 3:23:41 PM carey heather lol

25/04/2008 3:23:41 PM heather carey YAY

25/04/2008 3:23:48 PM carey heather finally lol

25/04/2008 3:23:50 PM heather carey what have you been up too?

25/04/2008 3:23:57 PM heather carey we need you to come home

25/04/2008 3:24:03 PM heather carey hurry asap

25/04/2008 3:24:05 PM heather carey for real

25/04/2008 3:24:06 PM carey heather why whats up?

25/04/2008 3:24:15 PM heather carey well we have a life to start living

25/04/2008 3:24:21 PM heather carey and corrections to be made

25/04/2008 3:24:24 PM carey heather ok

25/04/2008 3:24:25 PM heather carey and kids to raise

25/04/2008 3:24:27 PM heather carey :)

25/04/2008 3:24:28 PM heather carey hurry

25/04/2008 3:24:37 PM heather carey when you coming

25/04/2008 3:24:52 PM carey heather we will probably leave arounf noon saturday. just a guess

25/04/2008 3:25:01 PM heather carey run home, strap all your stuff on jb truck and put the petal to the medal

25/04/2008 3:25:07 PM carey heather lol

25/04/2008 3:25:07 PM heather carey oh

25/04/2008 3:25:16 PM heather carey what u been doing today?

25/04/2008 3:25:42 PM carey heather walked to the store to get a pack of cigs, beat guild wars for the hell of it

25/04/2008 3:25:58 PM carey heather bout it

25/04/2008 3:26:12 PM heather carey how come u walked to the store? why didnt you just get jb to take you before he went to work

25/04/2008 3:26:21 PM heather carey i thought he was going to let you use the red truck

25/04/2008 3:26:22 PM carey heather he had to go

25/04/2008 3:26:27 PM carey heather nah

25/04/2008 3:26:42 PM heather carey he changed his mind?

25/04/2008 3:27:16 PM carey heather yeah, it dont have a tag on it. i couldve taken jb to work and used his truck, but i didnt want to

25/04/2008 3:27:48 PM heather carey oh, he told u that u could use his truck, take him to work, but you said no?

25/04/2008 3:27:54 PM carey heather yeah

25/04/2008 3:28:18 PM heather carey oh

25/04/2008 3:28:25 PM carey heather ?

25/04/2008 3:28:45 PM heather carey i went searching for jobs through our newspaper online and other places here

25/04/2008 3:28:52 PM carey heather cool

25/04/2008 3:29:08 PM heather carey all kind of stuff open, how do you feel about working?

25/04/2008 3:29:19 PM carey heather sounds fine

25/04/2008 3:29:34 PM heather carey how do you feel about coming home and playing with us?

25/04/2008 3:29:47 PM carey heather i miss you guys

25/04/2008 3:29:54 PM heather carey :) we miss you too

25/04/2008 3:29:55 PM heather carey lots

25/04/2008 3:30:12 PM carey heather ill be home soon.

25/04/2008 3:30:22 PM heather carey you feeling good?

25/04/2008 3:30:35 PM carey heather im alright

25/04/2008 3:30:50 PM heather carey how have the people there been?

25/04/2008 3:30:58 PM carey heather ok

25/04/2008 3:31:14 PM heather carey any strange events or amusing things happening?

25/04/2008 3:31:33 PM carey heather yeah, lol. ill tell you about it when i get home

25/04/2008 3:31:40 PM heather carey :)

25/04/2008 3:31:44 PM heather carey good things?

25/04/2008 3:32:15 PM carey heather remember when i told you the militarys pc's crashed when i took that test in jackson?

25/04/2008 3:32:27 PM heather carey yeah

25/04/2008 3:32:38 PM carey heather happened at ftd too. several times

25/04/2008 3:32:54 PM heather carey yeah you told me

25/04/2008 3:33:07 PM heather carey what else

25/04/2008 3:33:10 PM carey heather strange eh?

25/04/2008 3:33:30 PM heather carey hmmm, u want to know what i think it could have been? :)

25/04/2008 3:33:35 PM carey heather ?

25/04/2008 3:33:44 PM heather carey electo- magnetic field

25/04/2008 3:33:49 PM carey heather lol

25/04/2008 3:33:49 PM heather carey electro

25/04/2008 3:33:56 PM heather carey no i am being very serious

25/04/2008 3:34:04 PM heather carey seriously i am being serious

25/04/2008 3:34:12 PM heather carey ok you can still laugh tho

25/04/2008 3:34:15 PM heather carey :)

25/04/2008 3:34:16 PM carey heather i think it was something else

25/04/2008 3:34:23 PM heather carey what do you think it was

25/04/2008 3:34:29 PM carey heather or who?

25/04/2008 3:34:37 PM heather carey ok who :)

25/04/2008 3:34:45 PM carey heather good question

25/04/2008 3:35:19 PM heather carey with that much power to shut down the military and FTD it could only be one of two beings

25/04/2008 3:35:23 PM carey heather someone keeping me on the road lol

25/04/2008 3:35:23 PM heather carey which one do you think

25/04/2008 3:35:28 PM heather carey lol

25/04/2008 3:35:36 PM heather carey sounds like God to me

25/04/2008 3:35:42 PM carey heather could be

25/04/2008 3:35:49 PM heather carey or who else would it be?

25/04/2008 3:36:01 PM heather carey the opposite of Jesus?

25/04/2008 3:36:19 PM carey heather ive got my ideas and assumptions about it

25/04/2008 3:36:54 PM heather carey me 2 and they run along with urs that is why i would like to get together and discuss these issues

25/04/2008 3:37:06 PM carey heather we will

25/04/2008 3:37:22 PM heather carey and i am being serious i am just trying to stay calm be happy

25/04/2008 3:37:29 PM carey heather me too

25/04/2008 3:37:50 PM heather carey you need to hurry up and come home

25/04/2008 3:37:54 PM heather carey i am being serious

25/04/2008 3:38:09 PM carey heather lol, i cant do anything about it atm. im sorry

25/04/2008 3:38:13 PM heather carey i am trying to be astrong tree for you and our family

25/04/2008 3:38:20 PM heather carey me and mom do not see eye to eye

25/04/2008 3:38:28 PM carey heather i know

25/04/2008 3:38:58 PM heather carey there are lots of things i dont know how to deal with because i get emotional and you can remain level headed and say this is what we have to do to survive and it will be ok

25/04/2008 3:39:19 PM carey heather not any easier for me.

25/04/2008 3:39:47 PM heather carey i am not sure what to think.

25/04/2008 3:39:53 PM carey heather maybe its tougher for me because i keep it all in. maybe its tougher because i have to be that way too.

25/04/2008 3:40:21 PM heather carey see i am seeing you in a different light these days

25/04/2008 3:40:45 PM heather carey i am not real sure what to think about anything i feel or see right now

25/04/2008 3:41:12 PM heather carey i dont think these things are tough for you because you know the answers to things that would take me a life time to figure out

25/04/2008 3:41:21 PM carey heather nah

25/04/2008 3:41:22 PM heather carey you know how to protect your heart and mind

25/04/2008 3:41:27 PM heather carey you are different than me

25/04/2008 3:41:53 PM carey heather we choose what we are. we cannot control other peoples opinions

25/04/2008 3:41:57 PM heather carey pa=paw was that for granny

25/04/2008 3:42:15 PM heather carey papaw knew when the others were coming

25/04/2008 3:42:22 PM heather carey he knew what to do

25/04/2008 3:42:25 PM heather carey just like u

25/04/2008 3:42:39 PM heather carey granny was tricked

25/04/2008 3:42:40 PM carey heather everything is ok

25/04/2008 3:42:50 PM heather carey and then people tell me granny wasnt tricked papaw was

25/04/2008 3:43:00 PM carey heather i understand

25/04/2008 3:43:07 PM heather carey people didnt tell me it is information i read and then i grab these differnt thoughts

25/04/2008 3:43:18 PM heather carey so i thouhgt about what you said to me

25/04/2008 3:43:20 PM carey heather just calm down

25/04/2008 3:43:30 PM heather carey i'm calm

25/04/2008 3:43:41 PM carey heather take your time, everything will be ok.

25/04/2008 3:43:59 PM heather carey i thought about when you said you would kill me, and i thought now why would i stay with someone who said they would kill me. is some thing wrong with me or is some thing right with me

25/04/2008 3:44:12 PM carey heather depends

25/04/2008 3:44:19 PM heather carey and when i open the doors to try to figure out what is right for us all and what is wrong

25/04/2008 3:44:28 PM heather carey that is when it gets all confusing for me

25/04/2008 3:44:35 PM heather carey just like it does for other people

25/04/2008 3:44:36 PM carey heather listen to your heart.

25/04/2008 3:44:52 PM heather carey but other people are not scared like i am and they are not so dependant on others

25/04/2008 3:45:13 PM heather carey so in my opinion you and the others i look up too have a strength that i want to have too

25/04/2008 3:45:52 PM heather carey but it might mean soemthing i dont understand and i may just want to stay me and not be what other people are because i might not be able to survive that

25/04/2008 3:46:02 PM heather carey i am smart

25/04/2008 3:46:07 PM carey heather you are

25/04/2008 3:46:08 PM heather carey i am rusty

25/04/2008 3:46:13 PM carey heather lol

25/04/2008 3:46:19 PM heather carey i am happy too but i get emotional

25/04/2008 3:46:32 PM carey heather everyone does, just to what extent

25/04/2008 3:46:40 PM heather carey because i dont want to be hurt like i was when i was little and i want my kids to be happy too

25/04/2008 3:46:55 PM carey heather i want the same.

25/04/2008 3:47:06 PM heather carey so hurry and come home

25/04/2008 3:47:14 PM heather carey you said dont let go of the rope

25/04/2008 3:47:29 PM heather carey you said i am strong enough not to get sucked up in the tornado

25/04/2008 3:47:48 PM heather carey i have weakness

25/04/2008 3:48:09 PM carey heather you are stronger than you realize. you are stronger than you can even comprehend right now. you just dont know.

25/04/2008 3:48:37 PM carey heather your just not very determined.

25/04/2008 3:48:59 PM heather carey you and jabaa could come home tonight

25/04/2008 3:49:07 PM carey heather weakness or determination, you decide.

25/04/2008 3:49:15 PM heather carey and he could stay over for a bit and all that

25/04/2008 3:49:18 PM carey heather you decide your emotion.

25/04/2008 3:49:27 PM heather carey i am happy and waiting for you to get home

25/04/2008 3:49:38 PM heather carey nervously

25/04/2008 3:50:14 PM carey heather i will leave saturday at noon. that is the best i can do, i apologize i cant come any sooner

25/04/2008 3:50:27 PM heather carey ok

25/04/2008 3:50:56 PM heather carey it is ok, saturday at noon that is tomorrow afternoon right

25/04/2008 3:51:04 PM carey heather yeah

25/04/2008 3:51:07 PM heather carey ok

25/04/2008 3:51:18 PM heather carey that is no t 10 years from now so we are ok

25/04/2008 3:51:23 PM carey heather lol

25/04/2008 3:51:39 PM carey heather "Great I call the elusive. The elusive I call the far. The far I call the returning." Laozi

25/04/2008 3:52:10 PM heather carey hold on mary has ur screw driver dont go

25/04/2008 3:52:16 PM carey heather k, lol

25/04/2008 3:52:21 PM carey heather ima go pee. brb

25/04/2008 3:53:41 PM heather carey u gotta come home and keep your temper down and we gotta get started on our family so we can keep what makes us happy

25/04/2008 3:54:17 PM heather carey i need your help with all this work, cuz i gotta get brandon to a reading level where he can start school unless we can work out homeschool options

25/04/2008 3:54:22 PM heather carey and we need to clean a bit

25/04/2008 3:54:27 PM carey heather im back

25/04/2008 3:54:29 PM heather carey because it is healthy for our family

25/04/2008 3:54:59 PM carey heather you need to calm down and get your stuff in order.

25/04/2008 3:55:09 PM heather carey i know

25/04/2008 3:55:36 PM carey heather i need to be happy, not hurt. i have no temper at all when i am treated well.

25/04/2008 3:55:40 PM carey heather fair even.

25/04/2008 3:56:04 PM heather carey i have needs too

25/04/2008 3:56:11 PM carey heather as do i.

25/04/2008 3:56:40 PM carey heather if you have needs i cannot fulfill, i do not know what to say.

25/04/2008 3:57:16 PM heather carey u said i need to get my stuff together, our children is what i was talking about

25/04/2008 3:58:25 PM carey heather yeah. im worried about keeping them happy mentally. it will make everything in their life much easier. it will be a better environment for them to understand things too.

25/04/2008 3:58:58 PM carey heather we have different priorities.

25/04/2008 3:59:11 PM carey heather and different ideas to get there

25/04/2008 3:59:17 PM heather carey so you are going to help by keeping them happier mentally?

25/04/2008 3:59:33 PM carey heather yes.

25/04/2008 3:59:36 PM heather carey how?

25/04/2008 4:00:09 PM carey heather easily.

25/04/2008 4:00:37 PM heather carey communication helps clear up misunderstandings so please tell me how you plan to keep them happy mentally, so i can see where we have differences and we can work on them

25/04/2008 4:01:01 PM carey heather you dont know me?

25/04/2008 4:01:12 PM heather carey carey russell felts

25/04/2008 4:01:31 PM heather carey i asked u a question that is important and i am asking u to answer :)

25/04/2008 4:02:00 PM carey heather by being their father...

25/04/2008 4:02:19 PM heather carey so you are going to help raise them?

25/04/2008 4:02:31 PM carey heather the better question is are you?

25/04/2008 4:03:21 PM carey heather the better question is are you going to go after your "needs" or your happiness?

25/04/2008 4:03:44 PM carey heather will your "needs" even matter once everyone is happy?

25/04/2008 4:04:11 PM carey heather does your happiness depend upon your "needs?"

25/04/2008 4:05:26 PM heather carey my needs are this: i need help in raising the children so they will be able to be strong individuals that love and respect themselves and others and be able to know the difference between prey, predator

25/04/2008 4:06:13 PM heather carey my needs are that i need to have education for my children so i can enjoy them being in my life - because it is the law for children to be in school

25/04/2008 4:06:25 PM heather carey i need food and shelter for my children

25/04/2008 4:06:40 PM heather carey and this is what it is about, the rest of me grows and heals as i go.

25/04/2008 4:06:58 PM heather carey what i am asking us is this- are you going to help me provide for our children

25/04/2008 4:07:12 PM carey heather that is where we differ. my priorities are different.

25/04/2008 4:07:36 PM heather carey i asked you what ur priorities were you didnt answer my question

25/04/2008 4:08:42 PM carey heather i want to teach my children to never give up, no matter how bad it is. i want them to never falter from their values, even in the darkest moment. i want my children to love life. i want my children and my wife strong and good first above anything else.

25/04/2008 4:09:03 PM carey heather even shelter and food.

25/04/2008 4:09:13 PM carey heather that comes at the next step

25/04/2008 4:09:32 PM carey heather once that problem is fixed, only then can we worry about the next.

25/04/2008 4:10:12 PM carey heather we CAN run ourselves into the ground trying to do it all at once though.

25/04/2008 4:11:19 PM carey heather its fine if you dont agree, we will just have to go our seperate ways eventually.

25/04/2008 4:12:27 PM carey heather if our lives are hell everyday, what does finances matter? why pay for a life of hell? makes no sense to em.

25/04/2008 4:12:31 PM carey heather me *

25/04/2008 4:13:05 PM heather carey i understand what u r saying but i want to keep my children in our lives

25/04/2008 4:13:22 PM carey heather me too. you think im saying something else i guess..

25/04/2008 4:13:40 PM heather carey and if we dont have a home because we are kicked out on the street we can get all kind of charges and if people want to do that they can make it where we would not get to see them

25/04/2008 4:14:07 PM carey heather if it happens it happens. we cann only do our best and try.

25/04/2008 4:14:16 PM heather carey ok

25/04/2008 4:14:36 PM carey heather if that is our destiny, nothing will change it, even worrying.

25/04/2008 4:15:09 PM carey heather determination, and strength will be the only thing to rule the day.

25/04/2008 4:15:16 PM carey heather if you ask me, that is.

25/04/2008 4:15:24 PM carey heather ;)

25/04/2008 4:16:05 PM carey heather read this carefully:

25/04/2008 4:16:09 PM carey heather "Great I call the elusive. The elusive I call the far. The far I call the returning." Laozi

25/04/2008 4:16:44 PM heather carey when you come back home are you going to go out and get work to help mom? there are reasons i am asking

25/04/2008 4:17:52 PM carey heather i will look for a job, yes. i plan on doing something. i am tired of having no money. its supposed to be more money more problems lol.

25/04/2008 4:18:43 PM heather carey i dont think you understand how serious this whole thing is

25/04/2008 4:18:55 PM carey heather lol

25/04/2008 4:19:01 PM heather carey let me give you an example of some thing ok

25/04/2008 4:19:06 PM heather carey yesterday

25/04/2008 4:19:11 PM heather carey ok you with me

25/04/2008 4:19:14 PM heather carey ?

25/04/2008 4:19:19 PM carey heather im here

25/04/2008 4:19:52 PM heather carey yesterday mary isn't listening, i'm hurting and ready to put her in time out

25/04/2008 4:20:42 PM heather carey she runs, throws herself to the floor, i thought mom was going to help me catch her, she just stands up and saying some thing to mary and i pick her chubby butt up

25/04/2008 4:21:05 PM heather carey hurting my pain is bad, understand for a minute. we will have good and bad days with pain.

25/04/2008 4:21:22 PM heather carey i carry her over to her high chair, i had asked mom for help she sat down doing her paper

25/04/2008 4:21:45 PM carey heather yesterday a gun was cleaned behind me, then fired several times...

25/04/2008 4:22:03 PM heather carey mary was screaming so loud as if i were killing her, i told her to sit she is screaming no no no ahhhhhrahhhhh kkkkkeeyhhhh

25/04/2008 4:22:17 PM heather carey so all of a sudden guess what happens

25/04/2008 4:22:28 PM carey heather hm

25/04/2008 4:23:15 PM heather carey i lose it for a moment and start screaming jsut this loud noise like psycho woman

25/04/2008 4:23:44 PM heather carey momma comes over then and she decides to tell me how aweful i am and how ashamed i should be

25/04/2008 4:24:05 PM heather carey no i am not the victim my children were upset because by this point it all got out of hand

25/04/2008 4:24:29 PM carey heather i see things aint changed a bit

25/04/2008 4:24:53 PM heather carey no, because why?

25/04/2008 4:25:02 PM heather carey you want to know why she is tripping

25/04/2008 4:25:09 PM carey heather because heather isnt babied.

25/04/2008 4:25:21 PM heather carey no because heather wants rusty to come home

25/04/2008 4:25:27 PM heather carey and she does not want you here

25/04/2008 4:25:33 PM heather carey with a passion

25/04/2008 4:25:48 PM heather carey now you can believe me or not

25/04/2008 4:25:54 PM carey heather whos fault is that?

25/04/2008 4:25:57 PM heather carey you can say it is because i aint or am being babied

25/04/2008 4:26:15 PM heather carey whos fault do you think it is?

25/04/2008 4:26:18 PM carey heather why does your mother hate me so much? what did i do to her?

25/04/2008 4:26:38 PM heather carey she said because you do not care to help take care of bills and responsibilities

25/04/2008 4:26:52 PM carey heather funny how things change.

25/04/2008 4:27:01 PM heather carey she said you dont care for working, your lazy, and if you wanted to care for the kids you would go out and find a job

25/04/2008 4:27:10 PM heather carey what do you mean now?

25/04/2008 4:27:20 PM carey heather funny.

25/04/2008 4:28:25 PM heather carey speak ur mind so i will know what u mean

25/04/2008 4:28:38 PM carey heather well, i dont know what to tell you. if thats what she thinks, fine. if thats what you think, fine.

25/04/2008 4:29:03 PM heather carey you asked me why she dislikes you- and that is not all she thinks

25/04/2008 4:29:17 PM heather carey i am asking you and saying some thing different but you dont listen

25/04/2008 4:29:28 PM carey heather ive heard the biggest positive about me from her, and i have heard the worst.

25/04/2008 4:30:33 PM heather carey it is not being babied, i am asking for help from the people who have a responsibility in helping. you are not hired helped and neither is my mother

25/04/2008 4:30:53 PM heather carey it is more your responsibility to help me care and love our children than it is my mothers

25/04/2008 4:31:17 PM heather carey and some times that means sacraficing and working so we can have a home so DHS doesn't come and take them away

25/04/2008 4:31:20 PM carey heather i find this conversation demeaning.

25/04/2008 4:31:25 PM heather carey you want that to happen?

25/04/2008 4:31:36 PM heather carey you find it demeaning because i told you what she thinks?

25/04/2008 4:32:36 PM carey heather no, i find it demeaning that i get looked at in a certain way for dealing with other peoples problems.

25/04/2008 4:32:45 PM heather carey i find it demeaning when you tell me i am a piece of [censored] because i wont go and get you a cigarette or some thing else as soon as i just sat down after caring for the children all day long. or how you call me a stupid ugly bitch because i dont want to do some thing or some thing or some thing i am not being demeaning to you, you asked me a question and i answered it

25/04/2008 4:32:54 PM heather carey these are not other peoples mother [censored] problems

25/04/2008 4:32:57 PM heather carey this is our home

25/04/2008 4:33:00 PM heather carey this is our life

25/04/2008 4:33:04 PM heather carey these are our children

25/04/2008 4:33:07 PM carey heather ive got to go.

25/04/2008 4:33:12 PM heather carey then go

25/04/2008 4:40:49 PM carey heather i think it might be best if i just leave.

25/04/2008 4:41:39 PM carey heather i am obviously burdening everyone unwantingly, so it looks best if i leave.

26/04/2008 12:12:47 AM carey heather hey

26/04/2008 12:49:47 AM heather carey u there?

26/04/2008 12:49:56 AM carey heather ya

26/04/2008 12:50:03 AM heather carey what u doin

26/04/2008 12:50:17 AM carey heather fixing to play warcraft with jb

26/04/2008 12:50:47 AM heather carey ok i'm going to bed.

26/04/2008 12:50:58 AM heather carey have fun

26/04/2008 12:51:03 AM heather carey huggs

26/04/2008 12:51:22 AM carey heather ok, goodnight. sweet dreams.

26/04/2008 12:51:36 AM heather carey hey

26/04/2008 12:51:45 AM carey heather yeah

26/04/2008 12:51:58 AM heather carey when u coming here?

26/04/2008 12:52:10 AM carey heather told you

26/04/2008 12:52:21 AM heather carey love you

26/04/2008 12:52:28 AM carey heather love you too

26/04/2008 12:52:41 AM heather carey night

26/04/2008 12:52:49 AM carey heather night

26/04/2008 9:53:41 AM heather carey u there

26/04/2008 10:13:36 AM carey heather hey, u there?

26/04/2008 11:36:35 AM heather carey u there? /

26/04/2008 11:38:17 AM heather carey u there u there u there?

26/04/2008 11:38:30 AM heather carey rusty bran bran calling u on phone he wanna talk to you

26/04/2008 11:38:38 AM heather sent the wink "Knock"

26/04/2008 11:39:06 AM heather carey u should of seen the look on his face when jabbas answering machine picked up

26/04/2008 11:39:23 AM heather sent the wink "Dancer"

26/04/2008 11:39:45 AM heather carey daddy

26/04/2008 11:39:47 AM heather carey daddy

26/04/2008 11:39:49 AM heather carey daddy

26/04/2008 11:39:50 AM heather carey daddy

26/04/2008 11:39:52 AM heather carey daddy

26/04/2008 11:39:56 AM heather carey where are you daddy

26/04/2008 11:40:00 AM heather carey what are you doing daddy

26/04/2008 11:41:57 AM heather carey well the kids want to go outside and i thought maybe if u want too you can call. if not just send me a message when you will be on so we can see ya. it is 11:40 and i will check back around i dunno 1230 and you can leave a message what time you will meet me online please sir

26/04/2008 11:42:05 AM heather carey we would like to talk to you if you would call

26/04/2008 11:42:49 AM heather carey ok well the kids say they love and miss ya, and i say lets play a game so i can win. :) i love ya be good, and don't forget about me, leave me a message. please.

26/04/2008 11:42:51 AM heather carey huggs

26/04/2008 11:46:12 AM heather carey this message is from brandon with mommies help:

26/04/2008 11:46:34 AM heather carey daddy call me at now time in 45 minutes

26/04/2008 11:46:47 AM heather carey and i am going to kick your butt if you doesnt

26/04/2008 11:47:11 AM heather carey ok, we are going outside until you answer again

26/04/2008 11:47:12 AM heather carey huggs

26/04/2008 11:47:17 AM heather carey kisses love

26/04/2008 11:47:25 AM heather carey 888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888

26/04/2008 11:56:23 AM heather carey i'm getting dressed now to take them outside if you want

26/04/2008 11:56:23 AM heather carey to send a message before we go outside

26/04/2008 11:56:23 AM heather carey i am getting dressed

26/04/2008 11:56:23 AM heather carey daddy

26/04/2008 11:56:23 AM heather carey daddy daddy daddy daddy we miss you

26/04/2008 11:56:43 AM heather carey we hope u r feeling better

26/04/2008 12:03:55 PM carey heather love you.

26/04/2008 12:22:26 PM heather carey we hope u will b home very soon, please just go wake jb up and come home. we r going outside now.

26/04/2008 12:22:32 PM heather carey i love you, huggs

26/04/2008 2:38:24 PM heather carey u there?

26/04/2008 3:48:12 PM heather carey u there?

26/04/2008 3:48:26 PM heather carey u there? hello i'm talkin to you

26/04/2008 3:55:59 PM heather carey rusty

26/04/2008 3:56:01 PM heather carey hello

26/04/2008 4:21:45 PM heather carey mary has to potty brb

26/04/2008 4:32:12 PM heather carey hellllllllo?

26/04/2008 5:12:46 PM carey heather hey, you there?

26/04/2008 5:13:56 PM carey heather jb wanted to wait until tomorrow to come to columbus. sorry.

26/04/2008 5:30:16 PM heather carey u there?

26/04/2008 5:35:58 PM carey heather im back

26/04/2008 5:36:12 PM heather carey gimmie 1 sec

26/04/2008 5:36:16 PM carey heather k

26/04/2008 5:36:40 PM heather carey lemme ask u some thing punk

26/04/2008 5:36:45 PM carey heather huh?

26/04/2008 5:36:47 PM heather carey u aint coming home tonight

26/04/2008 5:36:49 PM heather carey :)

26/04/2008 5:36:53 PM carey heather no, sorry

26/04/2008 5:37:08 PM heather carey but u r coming sunday aren't u?

26/04/2008 5:37:11 PM carey heather im sorry.

26/04/2008 5:37:15 PM carey heather yes

26/04/2008 5:37:20 PM heather carey i aint mad or nothing

26/04/2008 5:37:24 PM carey heather k

26/04/2008 5:37:32 PM heather carey i miss you but this is ur time to relax ok

26/04/2008 5:37:47 PM carey heather jb didnt feel like leaving today.

26/04/2008 5:38:09 PM heather carey i want you to come home today, i will admit i was a little disappoint but i figured it wouldn't be until sunday. will he feel like bringing u home tomorrow though?

26/04/2008 5:38:40 PM heather carey you there?

26/04/2008 5:39:13 PM heather carey hello

26/04/2008 5:39:19 PM heather carey hello

26/04/2008 5:39:24 PM heather carey ...

26/04/2008 5:39:45 PM heather carey hello

26/04/2008 5:41:38 PM carey heather im back, sorry bout that

26/04/2008 5:41:46 PM carey heather lemme do something real fast.

26/04/2008 5:41:52 PM heather carey ok

26/04/2008 5:48:04 PM carey heather im back, sorry about that. had to hook a stereo up

26/04/2008 5:48:15 PM heather carey cool

26/04/2008 5:48:23 PM heather carey you coming home for sure tomorrow?

26/04/2008 5:48:28 PM carey heather yeah

26/04/2008 5:48:33 PM heather carey ok

26/04/2008 5:48:55 PM carey heather ski is having his birthday party tonight or somethin

26/04/2008 5:49:28 PM heather carey yall gonna get drunk?

26/04/2008 5:49:34 PM carey heather not me lol

26/04/2008 5:49:43 PM heather carey jabba doesn't need to drink

26/04/2008 5:49:45 PM heather carey either

26/04/2008 5:50:03 PM carey heather he's not

26/04/2008 5:50:09 PM heather carey rusty... please be careful

26/04/2008 5:50:14 PM carey heather lol

26/04/2008 5:50:22 PM heather carey well you cant blame me worrying

26/04/2008 5:50:38 PM heather carey i guess i shouldnt worry

26/04/2008 5:50:45 PM heather carey ok i will stop

26/04/2008 5:50:47 PM heather carey anyway

26/04/2008 5:50:58 PM heather carey you and jb gonna play world of war

26/04/2008 5:51:12 PM heather carey is jb going to bring you home for sure sunday

26/04/2008 5:51:16 PM heather carey hello

26/04/2008 5:51:37 PM carey heather yeah

26/04/2008 5:51:44 PM carey heather sorry, setting [censored] up

26/04/2008 5:52:02 PM heather carey ok well... when will i get to talk to you again because the kids wanna go play outside?

26/04/2008 5:53:14 PM carey heather ill be on the pc off and on for a while, till i go to bed

26/04/2008 5:53:29 PM heather carey you going to sleep through the birthday party?

26/04/2008 5:53:37 PM carey heather lol, maybe

26/04/2008 5:53:50 PM heather carey if you go to bed will you promise to leave me a message because i worry and it hurts and i get nervous and all that [censored]

26/04/2008 5:53:56 PM heather carey the messages help

26/04/2008 5:54:26 PM heather carey please

26/04/2008 5:54:35 PM carey heather ok, ill try

26/04/2008 5:54:46 PM heather carey no all you gotta do is say love you talk to you tonight

26/04/2008 5:54:51 PM heather carey or in the morning

26/04/2008 5:54:52 PM carey heather k

26/04/2008 5:54:55 PM heather carey what time are yall o

26/04/2008 5:54:57 PM heather carey coming home

26/04/2008 5:55:00 PM heather carey tomorrow

26/04/2008 5:55:31 PM carey heather i dont know

26/04/2008 5:55:34 PM heather carey .............

26/04/2008 5:55:42 PM heather carey morning afternoon evening

26/04/2008 5:55:54 PM heather carey the kids and i would just like to know a time to look forward too

26/04/2008 5:56:06 PM carey heather i dont know, im sorry.

26/04/2008 5:56:17 PM heather carey ok

26/04/2008 5:56:33 PM heather carey well at least you will be home sunday before midnight

26/04/2008 5:56:37 PM heather carey yes?

26/04/2008 5:56:53 PM heather carey ok and you will take care of yourself tonight yes?

26/04/2008 5:57:25 PM heather carey and i wont bother you again today or tonight and you can just call me or message me when you get ready to leave and i will just be waiting and i wont bother you ok.

26/04/2008 5:57:42 PM carey heather ill message you in a bit, sorry.

26/04/2008 5:59:56 PM heather carey ok, just take care of yourself. and you know all the things you should and should not do. and you know we miss you and hope that you are okay. and make sure you eat. and all that. i will leave ya be, you have a good time and a good night and be safe. and all that good stuff.

26/04/2008 6:00:18 PM carey heather i will, love you.

26/04/2008 6:00:26 PM heather carey i love you

26/04/2008 9:01:01 PM heather carey i love you

26/04/2008 9:37:53 PM heather carey huggs be back later

26/04/2008 10:54:43 PM heather carey hope you are resting well or enjoying yourself... i'm gonna go rest for a bit and see if you are on later huggs

26/04/2008 11:01:05 PM carey heather hey, im about to lay down. see you tomorrow. love you.

27/04/2008 5:42:09 AM carey heather u there?

27/04/2008 6:18:56 AM heather carey huggs

27/04/2008 6:20:23 AM heather carey nite

27/04/2008 6:20:26 AM heather carey nap

27/04/2008 6:20:37 AM carey heather im here

27/04/2008 6:22:57 AM carey heather love you. have a good night

27/04/2008 12:19:15 PM heather carey u up?

27/04/2008 3:03:12 PM carey heather im heading home. love you. see you soon.

03/05/2008 7:56:21 AM carey heather f

03/05/2008 7:56:30 AM carey heather uckin ass..

07/05/2008 11:29:47 AM carey heather "The will does not choose between good and evil; it is its choice, rather, that makes it good or evil." Karl Jaspers

07/05/2008 11:36:20 AM heather carey u better save me some goodie or u get a spankin

07/05/2008 11:36:34 AM heather carey 8o|

07/05/2008 11:36:42 AM heather sent the wink "Bow"

09/05/2008 2:40:45 AM heather carey

09/05/2008 2:41:37 AM heather carey

09/05/2008 2:42:19 AM heather carey Expression: 25 / 7 Yours is the path of the mind. Silence and solitude are your doorways into the deep recesses of the mind and the universe. You are the philosopher, the analyst, the seeker and if you'd be willing, the teacher. The time and energy that you spend discovering the microscopic core of things has gifted you with the ability to tap into psychic energy. It is with this energy that you

13/05/2008 1:23:12 AM heather carey u there?

13/05/2008 1:23:17 AM carey heather yup

13/05/2008 1:23:18 AM heather carey Maya Angelou's brother gave her a painting with the instruction to hang it so that it was the last thing she and her husband saw before going to bed at night. So if they were in the middle of an argument, they could look at the painting and say, "Oh, stop. Whatever it was, whatever you said, forget it," and go to bed with a twinkle in their eyes.

13/05/2008 1:23:38 AM carey heather great for them.

13/05/2008 1:23:54 AM carey heather got a cig?

13/05/2008 1:24:00 AM heather carey no

13/05/2008 1:24:06 AM carey heather lol, k

13/05/2008 1:24:30 AM heather carey 10 things to love about u. strength, funny, humility

13/05/2008 1:24:35 AM carey heather

13/05/2008 1:24:38 AM heather carey freedom to swing from ropes

13/05/2008 1:24:51 AM heather carey great physical abilities

13/05/2008 1:24:54 AM carey heather i would like your opinion

13/05/2008 1:25:01 AM heather carey great burger cooker

13/05/2008 1:25:24 AM carey heather dont forget "tha mothafuckin PIMP!"

13/05/2008 1:25:31 AM carey heather :D

13/05/2008 1:25:36 AM carey heather wait...

13/05/2008 1:25:40 AM carey heather (H)

13/05/2008 1:25:43 AM carey heather yeah...

13/05/2008 1:25:56 AM heather carey big feet for great balance and i get to stand on them and it makes me feel little again and kinda of fulfills a dream of being able to dance on my daddy's feet and that can be very rewarding on the inside

13/05/2008 1:26:13 AM carey heather you stink...

13/05/2008 1:26:17 AM carey heather :p

13/05/2008 1:26:24 AM heather carey you give nice licks

13/05/2008 1:26:30 AM carey heather i bet i do lol

13/05/2008 1:26:41 AM heather carey you dirty up the place well

13/05/2008 1:26:56 AM carey heather wut youz expect from a pimp foo?!?!

13/05/2008 1:26:59 AM heather carey good pal to go on adventures of sorts with

13/05/2008 1:27:22 AM heather carey you can drive cars at fast pace real well

13/05/2008 1:27:26 AM carey heather lol

13/05/2008 1:27:35 AM heather carey you look sexy with a fishing pole while fishing

13/05/2008 1:27:50 AM carey heather thats not the look i was going for lol

13/05/2008 1:27:57 AM heather carey you make cool pictures videos

13/05/2008 1:28:12 AM heather carey love watching tv shows / movies with ya

13/05/2008 1:28:39 AM carey heather one things for sure, life aint boring when im around :D

13/05/2008 1:28:43 AM heather carey oh yeah you roll the best blunts, and clay is next in line because i dont know anyone else that can roll better than the two of you but you do it best

13/05/2008 1:28:58 AM heather carey i love that you can read, and you are intelligent

13/05/2008 1:29:14 AM heather carey you pick out cool stuff some times

13/05/2008 1:29:26 AM carey heather reading should be a prerequisite to date you lol

13/05/2008 1:29:50 AM heather carey i am just telling you ten things i love about you before i go to bed

13/05/2008 1:29:57 AM heather carey because i want too

13/05/2008 1:29:57 AM carey heather cool

13/05/2008 1:30:11 AM carey heather i love the way you look when you snore

13/05/2008 1:30:14 AM heather carey i love that you dont care if i have dirty feet

13/05/2008 1:30:20 AM heather carey no u dont

13/05/2008 1:30:34 AM carey heather i love that you have the balls to lick my radioactive armpits

13/05/2008 1:30:56 AM carey heather i love that you can look the toughest sob in the eyes with no fear

13/05/2008 1:31:19 AM heather carey dont distract me from my mission. and my balls are huge, so big that even when the world looks they still dont see them

13/05/2008 1:31:24 AM carey heather i love it when you are a girly girl to me

13/05/2008 1:31:41 AM carey heather i love it when i see you happy. you glow.

13/05/2008 1:31:43 AM heather carey hey be quiet this is mine mission

13/05/2008 1:31:55 AM heather carey let me take a puff of a cigarette

13/05/2008 1:32:00 AM carey heather ive got none

13/05/2008 1:32:07 AM heather carey i like getting high smoking weed with you

13/05/2008 1:32:11 AM carey heather lol

13/05/2008 1:32:16 AM heather carey it is like our favorite past time

13/05/2008 1:32:36 AM carey heather i hate getting high with you lol. the plants start to commit treason...

13/05/2008 1:32:48 AM heather carey and when your eyes gets that i am really high look about them, that is when i know you will be in a good mood for more than 24 hours and i love that

13/05/2008 1:33:00 AM heather carey let me puff ur cig

13/05/2008 1:33:31 AM carey heather thats not high, thats wonderous thoughts, and pot gives me the ability to concentrate on them and imagine.

13/05/2008 1:33:48 AM heather carey you look chinese some times depending on the kind of weed we are smoking

13/05/2008 1:34:08 AM carey heather yeah, thatd be cool if i did.

13/05/2008 1:34:25 AM heather carey you do - chinese with red glassy eyes

13/05/2008 1:34:29 AM carey heather

13/05/2008 1:34:34 AM carey heather if you have the time

13/05/2008 1:35:12 AM heather carey almost a cross between breaking out from an allergic reactions and crying too much over ya boyfriend. meaning looking like chinese with red eyes

13/05/2008 1:35:38 AM carey heather thats thoughts that make my face change, not pot.

13/05/2008 1:36:08 AM heather carey i think i know your pot face better than you

13/05/2008 1:36:15 AM carey heather lol

13/05/2008 1:36:19 AM heather carey :D

13/05/2008 1:36:21 AM carey heather you really dont

13/05/2008 1:36:50 AM carey heather ill tell you what, watch me on a day that i have peace and no pot. you will see the same thing.

13/05/2008 1:37:53 AM heather carey no not changing what i said even on the day you have peace and no pot and be quiet so i can read what you want me too cuz i gotta go to bed so i can get up in morning time

13/05/2008 1:38:07 AM carey heather i know you see things in me that noone does. you have studied me for years. if you say something about me, i really have no choice but to agree. after all, you are the foremost expert of me.

13/05/2008 1:38:43 AM heather carey :)

13/05/2008 1:38:48 AM heather carey finally you agree

13/05/2008 1:38:54 AM carey heather can you get me a pepsi before you go to bed?

13/05/2008 1:39:09 AM carey heather yes, i am defending your beliefs in public. proud?

13/05/2008 1:39:25 AM heather carey this is not public you yoodle

13/05/2008 1:39:36 AM carey heather this isnt. the link i gave you is.

13/05/2008 1:39:50 AM heather carey oh

13/05/2008 1:46:23 AM heather carey So oddly enough (given that this is the time travel institute), what the facts of thermodynamic entropy tells us is that, in order to reach higher levels of perfection, we MUST go BACKWARDS IN TIME to achieve it. We can never achieve a "universal perfection" moving least in this pocket universe, with the laws of physics that are demonstrably true.

13/05/2008 1:46:54 AM heather carey Perfection is like infinity. It is not a number you can quantify. It is merely an ideal you can strive for, but never reach. Sorry ruthless, science is not on your side at all in this argument.

13/05/2008 1:46:55 AM carey heather i disagree. it makes no sense at all to me.

13/05/2008 1:47:09 AM carey heather doesent to me.

13/05/2008 1:47:18 AM heather carey Perfection is like infinity. It is not a number you can quantify. It is merely an ideal you can strive for, but never reach. Sorry ruthless, science is not on your side at all in this argument

13/05/2008 1:47:31 AM heather carey Sorry ruthless, science is not on your side at all in this argument

13/05/2008 1:47:45 AM carey heather yeah, he doesent realize alot of things

13/05/2008 1:47:55 AM carey heather its all in his perception of the word

13/05/2008 1:48:01 AM carey heather wich is incorrect.

13/05/2008 1:48:02 AM heather carey perfection can be achieved through randomness.

13/05/2008 1:48:07 AM carey heather aye

13/05/2008 1:48:40 AM heather carey but i dont think science says any of this stuff yall are talking about but i guess people have to put a lable on some thing they dont know how to explain

13/05/2008 1:49:00 AM carey heather there are alot of theories involving this, read on.

13/05/2008 1:49:45 AM heather carey life and death is perfect

13/05/2008 1:50:51 AM heather carey death is the culmination of imperfection== i believe it is the other way around, that death is the culmincation of perfection because you are released.

13/05/2008 1:51:38 AM heather carey but u know what i will leave the scifi talk to you guys because i like arguing and when yall say tomatoe i am going to say corvette :)

13/05/2008 1:52:07 AM carey heather i believe the action of death is perfect, and so is the human. before and after. a big reason of my change in behavior.

13/05/2008 1:55:48 AM heather carey i wouldnt want them to be that uncomfortable though

13/05/2008 1:56:08 AM carey heather comfort is irrelevant

13/05/2008 1:56:25 AM heather carey because some people that come from that line may not be able to survive the first day out of pure emotion would drive them just so uncomfortable and

13/05/2008 1:56:38 AM carey heather that is the point heather

13/05/2008 1:56:44 AM heather carey i know it is

13/05/2008 1:57:06 AM heather carey but it is sad and i want them to be comfortable they couldnt handle it because i know how i feel

13/05/2008 1:57:25 AM heather carey they couldn't handle it

13/05/2008 1:57:35 AM carey heather i understand. i hope you understand my point of view.

13/05/2008 1:57:54 AM heather carey some of them could but that would be royal honor survivor blood - few of them

13/05/2008 1:58:45 AM heather carey it just made me sad when i envisionsed one of them more well off people homeless, and how i felt when i walked, and how they would feel. it would be way harder for them to survive than it was for you babe

13/05/2008 1:59:29 AM carey heather i am a good debator, im just half-assed doing this. i dont have the time to do it how i would like, but its good enough to do for now.

13/05/2008 2:00:08 AM heather carey dont half ass it more than half. you did great, i enjoyed reading the works yall are scrambling about

13/05/2008 2:00:17 AM heather carey hope some good stuff happens for ya about it

13/05/2008 2:00:18 AM heather carey huggs

13/05/2008 2:00:20 AM carey heather ive got too much going on right now and too many thoughts floating around to be devoted enough to debate two folks trying to bully their views.

13/05/2008 2:00:31 AM heather carey i know

13/05/2008 2:00:42 AM heather carey i'm gonna go to bed come give me a huggs night

13/05/2008 2:00:52 AM carey heather nite. bring me a pepsi pls

13/05/2008 2:01:03 AM carey heather wish ah had a cig

13/05/2008 2:01:39 AM carey heather i'd have to walk all the way to the dutch village to get a black and mild wouldnt i? or is there closer?

13/05/2008 2:02:01 AM heather carey nothing is open but dutch

13/05/2008 2:02:09 AM carey heather k

13/05/2008 10:39:10 PM carey heather

13/05/2008 10:43:20 PM carey heather did you get that link?

13/05/2008 10:43:40 PM heather carey yea i aint looked at it yet

13/05/2008 11:49:15 PM carey heather can you give me a ceraquyl so i can go to sleep?

13/05/2008 11:49:32 PM heather carey i threw them away

13/05/2008 11:49:52 PM carey heather ok, keep em for yourself then you greedy bastard.

13/05/2008 11:52:13 PM heather carey rusty the way you talk to me, demand things of me, and disrespect my feelings, thoughts, dreams, wants, and needs - the way you treat me, is not how i want, or need to be treated.

13/05/2008 11:52:28 PM carey heather ditto

13/05/2008 11:52:34 PM heather carey in other words, just don't say nothing else to me

13/05/2008 11:52:42 PM carey heather keep it to yourself. i dont want to hear it.

13/05/2008 11:57:33 PM carey heather all i wanted was a sleeping pill. all you had to do was say no instead of being a greedy liar. it is cool though. i hope you get further with your new boyfriend your over there typing away to.

14/05/2008 12:05:54 AM heather carey i dont like taking SERIQUIL, i threw what i had left away. because the drug is no good. you are sabotaging, you should know better.

14/05/2008 12:51:22 AM carey heather dont forget to tell your boyfriend goodnight...

14/05/2008 12:51:38 AM heather carey bah hum bug whatever

14/05/2008 12:52:05 AM carey heather that what he said?

14/05/2008 12:52:24 AM heather carey |-)

14/05/2008 12:54:58 AM carey heather seriously, you talk to that mofo alot. i bet yall have tons in common.

14/05/2008 12:55:00 AM heather carey can i have ur short?

14/05/2008 12:55:47 AM carey heather quit acting like the lowest whore on the planet and you can have me instead of a short...

14/05/2008 12:58:06 AM carey heather rude i know, yet quite true. its cool if you dont want me. i dont want you either. i just want what i thought you were.

14/05/2008 1:05:17 AM carey heather can you get me a drink? your moms in the kitchen...

14/05/2008 1:05:51 AM heather carey all that was rude

14/05/2008 1:06:04 AM heather carey harsh, judgemental

14/05/2008 1:06:05 AM carey heather but true.

14/05/2008 1:06:42 AM carey heather [censored] it, whatever. im moving on. you assholes have no weight upon me anymore.

14/05/2008 1:06:53 AM heather carey good for u

14/06/2008 10:41:55 PM carey heather i want to talk to you about some things

14/06/2008 10:42:08 PM heather carey not in voice?

14/06/2008 10:42:23 PM carey heather its up to you. we can go outside if you want

14/06/2008 10:42:42 PM heather carey yeah that would be ok, whatever u prefer

14/06/2008 10:42:50 PM carey heather ok, lets go out

14/06/2008 10:42:54 PM heather carey ok

15/06/2008 11:46:17 PM carey heather wutup?

15/06/2008 11:47:12 PM heather carey i was reading some news, and you know how the police will set up undercover things when they get information about someone hiring or putting a contract out on someone life and the police will go undercover and pretend to be the contract killer?

15/06/2008 11:47:24 PM carey heather yop

15/06/2008 11:47:28 PM carey heather yup

15/06/2008 11:47:30 PM heather carey well the women that got caught doing this, it is scary

15/06/2008 11:47:44 PM carey heather yup

15/06/2008 11:47:54 PM heather carey they look like some people we know and that act like they would not ever do such a thing.

15/06/2008 11:48:00 PM carey heather yup

15/06/2008 11:48:02 PM heather carey wanna see

15/06/2008 11:48:03 PM carey heather funny eh?

15/06/2008 11:48:19 PM carey heather already seen

15/06/2008 11:48:30 PM heather carey yeah, there was this one woman that looked like that woman that you tried to teach a lesson too at the lake

15/06/2008 11:48:37 PM carey heather i know

15/06/2008 11:49:26 PM carey heather some folks get it, some folks dont. the ones that dont get it, its easy to see how stupid they are. rats have more complex thoughts

15/06/2008 11:49:36 PM heather carey and she was a prison gaurd that had fallen in love with a prisoner and he ratted her out which is good. but that was scary because now that i think about it, i see that how that woman that you were dealing with probably wanted to do some things to her own husband.

15/06/2008 11:49:56 PM carey heather yup...

15/06/2008 11:50:35 PM carey heather you waste alot of time. you wouldve seen it that day if you cared and paid attention

15/06/2008 11:50:40 PM heather carey these things are just . i am speechless

15/06/2008 11:51:11 PM heather carey nah i didnt see it and i wouldnt have seen it because these types of things did not ever cross my mind.

15/06/2008 11:51:28 PM carey heather you only have so much time to figure the world out before you leave. you better get on the ball. :)

15/06/2008 11:51:38 PM heather carey the only time i ever thought a woman would hurt a man like that is when Ava started trying to talk to me about it, and i told her no.

15/06/2008 11:52:15 PM carey heather its every woman and every man, including you and me. the difference is, some follow through, some think.

15/06/2008 11:52:53 PM heather carey no, some follow, some think, and some choose to live and let live and that is me live and let live and try my best to get over my retardation

15/06/2008 11:53:06 PM carey heather that goes into the thinking column...

15/06/2008 11:55:11 PM carey heather its like this, i say, "do you know how easy it is for me to kill you?" then you go back and tell other people, "rusty told me it would be easy for him to kill me." the whole time you shouldve thought inside your head, "why is it so easy for him to kill me?" instead of, "rusty thinks he can kill me easily." this is a parable.

15/06/2008 11:56:30 PM carey heather the meaning of the parable is, "see what you cannot see." feel things, therefore you will know. i do not overstep my boundaries because i feel what i can and cannot do. i feel it, nothing more.

15/06/2008 11:57:35 PM carey heather i do not think when i answer, i just answer. people do not wait for me to think, i just answer. why? because i know. i feel. it did not come overnight. i had to train in all 3 areas.

16/06/2008 12:00:00 AM carey heather maybe you will understand once you put some things together. you have everything you need to put it together though. once you do, there are much more exciting things to learn. you just have to get over this block first. read my statements again with no thought, no emotion. do not think, that is your fault. just go around the wall if you cannot make it over it. there is still many walls to climb

16/06/2008 12:00:41 AM carey heather and you need to get past this first wall. its about to fall down anyways and you will never be able to scale it. what will you do once it falls?

16/06/2008 12:08:52 AM heather carey you got mail

16/06/2008 12:08:59 AM carey heather i see

16/06/2008 12:10:49 AM heather carey oh... how romantic, you know i love rain. whether you did that intentionally or not. thanks yous. see i told you that ur romantic

16/06/2008 12:11:10 AM heather carey i really like my card.

16/06/2008 12:11:12 AM heather carey :)

16/06/2008 12:12:00 AM heather carey i deleted windows live messenger lol

16/06/2008 12:13:07 AM carey heather glad you liked it. i thought you would

16/06/2008 12:13:11 AM carey heather you have mail

16/06/2008 12:20:58 AM carey heather u got mail

16/06/2008 12:24:06 AM carey heather you are making yourself look foolish

16/06/2008 12:25:31 AM heather carey i agreed w u silly i understand, and i know what i need to do. :) kisses

16/06/2008 12:25:43 AM carey heather k

16/06/2008 1:10:13 AM carey heather

16/06/2008 2:30:53 AM heather carey i thought this was a cool idea

16/06/2008 2:31:24 AM heather carey Keep a journal together. Take turns each week writing down your experiences and the feelings you want to share. Write letters to each other in the journal or make drawings. This is a creative way to use your imaginations together and create something that will last forever -- like your relationship, hopefully. A perfect activity for couples who are extra busy or travel a lot, journal writing is

16/06/2008 2:31:26 AM heather carey also a way to express yourself to your partner in unusual ways. Select a journal together by shopping at art stores, bookshops, or specialty boutiques

12/07/2008 11:35:03 PM heather carey i am trying to study very hard positive things that will help me fight this negative force that i have created and surrounded myself with, and there are people who say they love me that realize i am growing that do not love me because i am not as dumb as they want me to be. and if they ever knew before that i wasn't dumb they would have not talked with me they way they did

12/07/2008 11:35:38 PM heather carey so i am at a crucial point in my life and you can go along for the ride and support me and understand that i am trying to do good, or you can make it harder for the both of us

12/07/2008 11:36:06 PM heather carey now spiritually you know what is happening. so let it be and let me do what i need to do within myself so i can prepare and protect my mind, heart,body and soul

12/07/2008 11:36:53 PM heather carey i am here, in our room, studying positive light work, listening to positive reinforcement, light and dark work at the same time

12/07/2008 11:37:04 PM heather carey and what happened today was a double whammy

12/07/2008 11:38:15 PM heather carey and it would take a lot to try and explain every aspect of today. but the more you get personal and upset the worse it would be for the both of us. you have to remain calm to, i could have kept it a secret but i wanted you to know what was going on. i invited you to know, so you could understand because i respect you. and i think you are intune to things because i think you felt some thing coming

12/07/2008 11:38:16 PM carey heather have you ever noticed that every curveball in life hasnt affected me in a negative way?

12/07/2008 11:39:16 PM heather carey anyway i need to get back to my studies right now, i am busy rusty. please give me some respect, listening to this audio file is helping me calm down. ok? do you understand if you don't find just please respect that it is helping me calm down and get out of an ill mood.

12/07/2008 11:39:23 PM carey heather i am a good father. i am proud of that. i am also proud that you know i am a good father and that you chose me to be their father

12/07/2008 11:39:32 PM heather carey :)

12/07/2008 11:39:35 PM heather carey i love you

12/07/2008 11:39:39 PM heather carey i knew you understand

12/07/2008 11:39:43 PM heather carey thank you


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12/07/2008 11:39:48 PM heather carey it feels good to be sober

12/07/2008 11:39:51 PM heather carey huggs

12/07/2008 11:40:03 PM heather carey can u give me a kiss on my eye it hurts really bad

12/07/2008 11:40:16 PM carey heather maybe...

12/07/2008 11:41:33 PM carey heather i love you, thats why im still here.

12/07/2008 11:41:56 PM heather carey she was more than tipsy, she was feeling really good, slurring a bit

12/07/2008 11:42:34 PM heather carey she thinks i am retarded

12/07/2008 11:42:43 PM carey heather yeah, i know. the conversation was probably a bit different than our conversation, but its ok if you dont want to talk about it

12/07/2008 11:43:00 PM heather carey she really thinks there is some thing wrong with me, like i am retarded, she thinks this.

12/07/2008 11:43:04 PM carey heather it just upsets me a little bit. i'd like to be able to not worry about it

12/07/2008 11:43:16 PM heather carey i am telling you the whole conversation

12/07/2008 11:43:33 PM carey heather maybe one day i wont have to worry about things like that anymore

12/07/2008 11:44:01 PM heather carey the reason is because i just dont cuss her out, or shower her with love, i try and remain neutral and see what she wants to tell me, and i try to figure why she tells me.

12/07/2008 11:44:18 PM carey heather were you rude to her?

12/07/2008 11:45:16 PM carey heather seems like she was trying to bother you

12/07/2008 11:45:27 PM heather carey she thinks i am lesser, i can tell how she was talking with me, it wasn't what she said it was how she said it there were tones. i could tell how she has grown but one level is much more than the other now. she has been through so much. and i think she has a place for me inside her mind and she wants me there in that place and it is lower than what i truly am.

12/07/2008 11:45:32 PM heather carey it was an attack in ways, a test

12/07/2008 11:45:57 PM carey heather yeah, kinda like, "look what you couldve had" like that appeals to you?

12/07/2008 11:46:05 PM heather carey no

12/07/2008 11:46:17 PM carey heather what it sounds like to me

12/07/2008 11:46:32 PM heather carey like she knows

12/07/2008 11:46:36 PM carey heather she was trying to say how great her life is, and how bad yours is

12/07/2008 11:46:41 PM heather carey no

12/07/2008 11:46:49 PM carey heather what it sounded like to me

12/07/2008 11:46:54 PM heather carey this time it is different

12/07/2008 11:47:05 PM heather carey she knows because she is on a team now

12/07/2008 11:47:13 PM heather carey she is on a team

12/07/2008 11:47:20 PM heather carey this is the best way i know how to explain it

12/07/2008 11:47:31 PM heather carey she knows i am having trouble

12/07/2008 11:47:32 PM carey heather and she wants you on her B-team

12/07/2008 11:47:39 PM heather carey she knows you are too

12/07/2008 11:47:45 PM carey heather second string

12/07/2008 11:47:58 PM heather carey i was a stool for so long

12/07/2008 11:48:13 PM carey heather she dont know anything about me lol. only what shes been told

12/07/2008 11:48:28 PM heather carey and now that i am trying to be more and grow into more so i can be strong and help in a better way it is a whole nother ball game

12/07/2008 11:48:36 PM carey heather yup

12/07/2008 11:48:51 PM carey heather they try to get you to remember things you dont want to

12/07/2008 11:48:58 PM heather carey i do not like talking about it

12/07/2008 11:49:05 PM heather carey my eye is starting to hurt again

12/07/2008 11:49:13 PM carey heather calm it down

12/07/2008 11:49:18 PM heather carey it is all about control

12/07/2008 11:49:22 PM carey heather yup

12/07/2008 11:49:23 PM heather carey every aspect of this thing

12/07/2008 11:49:37 PM carey heather like a dog in a way

12/07/2008 11:49:43 PM heather carey all i am trying to do is grow up to be a better person for me and my family

12/07/2008 11:49:45 PM carey heather or a pet may be a better word

12/07/2008 11:50:14 PM heather carey the way she used Gods name made me want to throw up literally

12/07/2008 11:50:36 PM carey heather you know i want you to lead beside me right?

12/07/2008 11:50:42 PM carey heather not behind me

12/07/2008 11:50:46 PM heather carey they know i love her but it is different now

12/07/2008 11:50:48 PM carey heather or below me

12/07/2008 11:51:04 PM heather carey i did not feel the same inside when i talked to her this time

12/07/2008 11:51:15 PM carey heather something missing?

12/07/2008 11:51:54 PM heather carey dont get me wrong, i care but it is time for me and mine i got to care for me. they dont want me they say things, terrible things about me then they lie when i confront them and i am sick of that

12/07/2008 11:52:41 PM carey heather may i ask why you care about them? besides your history with them

12/07/2008 11:53:18 PM heather carey they would not care they have not been here. and i said some thing to her about that, i said you do not want to talk to me why are you calling she said yes i did but i was at my mothers and my mother doesnt like people around and this and that blah blah blah but i knew better, i was her friend from the beginning before certain other people came into her life and they told me how mckenzie was going

12/07/2008 11:53:20 PM carey heather what have they done for you? were they there for you in times of need? and were they genuine if they were?

12/07/2008 11:53:31 PM heather carey over to lisas mothers every day seeing lisa

12/07/2008 11:53:38 PM heather carey and mckenzie stole from lisa

12/07/2008 11:53:55 PM heather carey and lisa told her sister to hide some picutres of her and mason because i would steal them and that was a lie

12/07/2008 11:54:03 PM carey heather maybe she looked up to mckenzie?

12/07/2008 11:54:14 PM heather carey because one place i did not ever take from was lisas because i considered her sacred

12/07/2008 11:54:34 PM carey heather thats funny to me. :)

12/07/2008 11:54:56 PM carey heather i saw through lisa when i met her in 96

12/07/2008 11:55:12 PM heather carey they called me stupid, they said i can not help the way i act, they said all sorts of things about me, told all sorts of lies about me and when the feds came to town because of me all hell broke loss and now the ball is about to roll because of time

12/07/2008 11:55:58 PM heather carey they tell me that i did not hear what they said

12/07/2008 11:56:05 PM heather carey they try and make me think i am crazy

12/07/2008 11:56:11 PM heather carey i know what was said

12/07/2008 11:56:17 PM heather carey my ears got better

12/07/2008 11:56:25 PM heather carey my will made them better

12/07/2008 11:56:28 PM carey heather you got better

12/07/2008 11:56:43 PM heather carey because i did not want to misunderstand anyone because it would bring shame i could not stand for it

12/07/2008 11:56:53 PM carey heather and its funny to me because you got better when you quit being around them

12/07/2008 11:56:55 PM heather carey it made me sick how they talk of God

12/07/2008 11:56:57 PM heather carey sick

12/07/2008 11:57:06 PM carey heather you read what i wrote?

12/07/2008 11:57:08 PM heather carey father is going to be upset

12/07/2008 11:57:26 PM heather carey i got better because God wants me to be able to make it

12/07/2008 11:57:35 PM carey heather not only him

12/07/2008 11:57:36 PM heather carey and my family loves me

12/07/2008 11:57:54 PM heather carey both sides have seen me naked

12/07/2008 11:57:57 PM carey heather your family loves you more than i think you will ever know

12/07/2008 11:58:10 PM heather carey so i have to work hard for what i want and need now

12/07/2008 11:59:11 PM heather carey i have respect for her, but i can not be around her

12/07/2008 11:59:19 PM heather carey not now

12/07/2008 11:59:24 PM carey heather why do you respect her?

12/07/2008 11:59:27 PM heather carey i need me all of me

12/07/2008 11:59:50 PM heather carey it is a love, a respect for the human race, one brother to another one sister to another but i can not be there with her

12/07/2008 11:59:57 PM heather carey she does not need me for the right reasons

13/07/2008 12:00:12 AM carey heather so its not that you respect her, but that you respect people?

13/07/2008 12:00:22 AM heather carey i do not want to talk about this, it feels like i have been shot

13/07/2008 12:00:34 AM heather carey i have a great love for all people

13/07/2008 12:00:41 AM heather carey it can be used for good and bad

13/07/2008 12:01:01 AM carey heather it is my opinion that you shouldnt fight it. i believe it is the good trying to get through

13/07/2008 12:01:03 AM heather carey both sides have seen my capablitlies and what i can do partially

13/07/2008 12:01:15 AM carey heather i'd like you to read this

13/07/2008 12:01:20 AM carey heather This is a good day for you to stay in and rest, dear Leo. Trying to make sense of things today may only leave you frustrated and upset. This is not a day to try to find analytical reasoning in regards to the way things are done. This is a day to see the big picture and to feel more than think. Strong forces are urging you to see the other side of the picture so that you can create a better sense o

13/07/2008 12:01:34 AM carey heather of balance in your life.

13/07/2008 12:01:53 AM heather carey i need rest

13/07/2008 12:02:04 AM heather carey today was high energy day outside forces

13/07/2008 12:02:11 AM carey heather you need inner strength. rest is for the weary

13/07/2008 12:02:17 AM heather carey i can not talk about this any more it will make me sick for too long of days

13/07/2008 12:02:25 AM heather carey i am going to start crying

13/07/2008 12:02:30 AM carey heather only if you let it

13/07/2008 12:03:16 AM carey heather no defeat, no surrender, death before dishonor.

13/07/2008 12:03:43 AM carey heather courage wisdom and power are the only things you need.

13/07/2008 12:03:58 AM carey heather anything else is unwanted

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13/07/2008 1:21:38 AM carey heather

13/07/2008 1:21:50 AM carey heather ill never stop

13/07/2008 1:22:09 AM carey heather i am forever the way i am. nothing can control me. ever.

13/07/2008 1:22:36 AM carey heather wild animals are uncontrollable. they die before they are controlled.

13/07/2008 1:22:58 AM carey heather 'We, and all others who believe in freedom as deeply as we do, would rather die on our feet than live on our knees' -fdr

13/07/2008 1:23:23 AM carey heather 'Always do what you are afraid to do.' -ralph waldo emerson

13/07/2008 1:23:42 AM carey heather 'I ask you to judge me by the enemies I have made.' -fdr

22/07/2008 1:46:42 AM carey heather can you make me something to eat?

22/07/2008 1:47:10 AM heather carey hey what up, whatcha doing freaky

22/07/2008 1:47:25 AM carey heather chillin

22/07/2008 1:47:37 AM carey heather you have any green left?

22/07/2008 1:47:40 AM heather carey thats good

22/07/2008 1:48:38 AM carey heather "One cool judgment is worth a thousand hasty councils." Woodrow Wilson

22/07/2008 1:49:23 AM heather carey thats cool

22/07/2008 1:49:59 AM carey heather He is absolutely sincere. That is what makes him dangerous. Attributed to Woodrow Wilson (1856 - 1924)

22/07/2008 1:50:52 AM heather carey he is beautiful

22/07/2008 1:51:21 AM carey heather The Declaration of an eminently practical document, meant for the use of practical men; not a thesis for philosophers, but a whip for tyrants; not a theory of government, but a program for action. Woodrow Wilson (1856 - 1924)

22/07/2008 1:52:14 AM carey heather There is a price which is too great to pay for peace, and that price can be put into one word. One cannot pay the price of self-respect. Woodrow Wilson (1856 - 1924)

26/07/2008 3:28:48 AM carey heather

26/07/2008 4:05:28 AM carey heather when ur done,

29/07/2008 6:54:09 PM carey heather :)

29/07/2008 6:56:13 PM carey heather :)

29/07/2008 6:56:34 PM carey heather :D

25/08/2008 11:36:32 PM heather carey can i have one cigarette and i will go get one of mine out of the other room and replace the one i smoke of yours.

25/08/2008 11:36:48 PM carey heather i dont have any on me.

25/08/2008 11:36:59 PM heather carey did u get green?

25/08/2008 11:37:01 PM carey heather nope

25/08/2008 11:37:11 PM heather carey he's not going to give you any

25/08/2008 11:37:17 PM carey heather no clue

25/08/2008 11:37:31 PM carey heather ill call him later

25/08/2008 11:37:56 PM carey heather i watched an exact replica of lisa boghan on trading spouses today.

25/08/2008 11:38:17 PM carey heather then i watched another one and it was an exact replica of banna

25/08/2008 11:38:25 PM heather carey wow

25/08/2008 11:38:35 PM carey heather learned alot about lisa...

25/08/2008 11:38:43 PM heather carey good things i hope

25/08/2008 11:38:52 PM heather carey good things about banna too

25/08/2008 11:39:04 PM heather carey u have a lighter i have butts

25/08/2008 11:39:23 PM carey heather nope. it explained to me why she never took mason back. it also explained to me why her kids grew up to be the people they are.

25/08/2008 11:39:43 PM carey heather her husband looked and acted just like ben too

25/08/2008 11:40:01 PM carey heather her ex husband looked and acted just like mason

25/08/2008 11:40:20 PM carey heather she neglected her kids very much.

25/08/2008 11:40:42 PM carey heather and bitched when the other mom spent the money on the kids college fund.

25/08/2008 11:40:59 PM heather carey what other mom

25/08/2008 11:41:07 PM carey heather the other mom...

25/08/2008 11:41:27 PM carey heather trading spouses...

25/08/2008 11:41:33 PM heather carey oh

25/08/2008 11:41:59 PM carey heather i was going to get you something very special and sentimental for your birthday

25/08/2008 11:42:08 PM carey heather but i changed my mind.

25/08/2008 11:42:30 PM heather carey i asked u for a lighter

25/08/2008 11:42:35 PM carey heather no you didnt

25/08/2008 11:42:42 PM heather carey scroll up

25/08/2008 11:42:57 PM carey heather yeah, you said youve got lighter, ive got butts

25/08/2008 11:43:30 PM heather carey you have a lighter i can light a butt with

25/08/2008 11:43:47 PM carey heather i was going to buy you a wedding ring. it was going to be a very special one too.

25/08/2008 11:45:05 PM carey heather it was going to be magnetic. when our hands would be close, they would pull towards each other. when you would be out and close to metal, it wouldve went towards the metal and you would remember me.

25/08/2008 11:45:13 PM carey heather it was gold

25/08/2008 11:45:15 PM carey heather 24k

25/08/2008 11:46:05 PM carey heather i just wanted you to know.

25/08/2008 11:46:15 PM carey heather ill buy you some pot instead.

25/08/2008 11:47:04 PM carey heather i also want you to know that im fixing to go back to work. im going to save up a few checks and find a place in town.

25/08/2008 11:48:00 PM carey heather if you want to talk to me from now on, email me or ask me to open messenger.

25/08/2008 11:49:35 PM carey heather i give myself and the things i can do to those that deserve it. you dont and you havent for a long time. its time for me to be of service. its time for me to do what i can. time for me to stop waiting on you.

25/08/2008 11:57:48 PM heather carey Hater: One who dislikes the actions and/or beliefs of another.

25/08/2008 11:58:08 PM carey heather hater: one who hates...

25/08/2008 11:58:55 PM carey heather false flagger: one who turns their back on what they belived more than anything at one point.

25/08/2008 11:59:09 PM carey heather fake: not real

25/08/2008 11:59:22 PM carey heather liar: to tell lies

25/08/2008 11:59:40 PM carey heather con: to get something from someone in a shady manner.

26/08/2008 12:02:24 AM heather carey you know i could say i am one or the other even both, then i could say i am not any and the rest of the world could do the same thing. twisted. i asked you for few things, you say you will do what you want and i dont deserve your help. that is your idea of how things should be because of your reasons within your idea or surrounding your idea. my idea is different, i tried to explain you said my

26/08/2008 12:02:28 AM heather carey ideas are stupid.

26/08/2008 12:03:03 AM heather carey so, there aint nothing else to say no matter how you see me, what you want to give me or take from me. i dont have nothing else to say.

26/08/2008 12:03:13 AM carey heather whats done is done. im going to go my own way and live my dreams.

26/08/2008 12:03:23 AM heather carey k

26/08/2008 12:04:40 AM heather carey dreams

26/08/2008 12:04:54 AM carey heather yup...

26/08/2008 12:05:05 AM carey heather lifes what you make it.

11/09/2008 12:57:56 AM heather carey i am not trying to be rude. pretend we are talking through one of those radios. the radio has a lot of static and it is hard for me to communicate to you what i need you to hear.

11/09/2008 12:58:57 AM heather carey what i need you to hear, is woah, mommy needs you to hear her.

11/09/2008 12:59:28 AM carey heather if you understand how much you need that, then you understand how much i also need it.

11/09/2008 1:00:35 AM heather carey i am going through some growing pains, and i have many things on my mind. the kids need me and i need someone there for me.

11/09/2008 1:01:55 AM carey heather i am alive and i do have emotions and a mind. from what i see, this is the only way to fight back: to kill myself with bullshit. i dont like doing the things i have been doing but i have taken a new stance on certain things. i believe that confrontations are the fastest way to avoid things. avoiding them will only postpone the inevidible.

11/09/2008 1:03:48 AM carey heather i want my kids happy. i want you happy. but i cant do a dammed thing about that if i aint happy.

11/09/2008 1:04:25 AM heather carey u need to decide what makes u happy, becuz u wasn't happy today pretending either.

11/09/2008 1:05:07 AM carey heather i would be happy if you and i were drug free, and if you were a mom that stays here with dad.

11/09/2008 1:06:01 AM heather carey ok then we need to focus and work on that. here is a new site you might be interested in, and we could even pick out a project to do together. like the one they are talking about called the spotlight

11/09/2008 1:06:04 AM heather carey

11/09/2008 1:06:38 AM carey heather cool

11/09/2008 1:06:50 AM heather carey Political interference in federal government science is weakening our nation's ability to respond to the complex challenges we face. Because policy makers depend on impartial research to make informed decisions, we are mobilizing scientists and citizens alike to push for reforms that will enable our leaders to fully protect our health, safety, and environment.

11/09/2008 1:09:02 AM carey heather first we need to get drug free, next we need to work on you staying home more. 3rd, we need to get you to realize that you can tell me you need a break. you need to realize i know when you need a break. you need to know all you have to do is say, "dad, i need a break. im going for a ride. ill be home at xxhours." you dont even have to ask me. there doesent have to be lies. i hate having to lie jus

11/09/2008 1:09:09 AM carey heather just to stay in the fight

11/09/2008 1:09:54 AM heather carey ok

11/09/2008 1:10:59 AM carey heather i dont want much, i just want the love of my life back. i just want a happy, peaceful life. i want my kids to be proud of us.

11/09/2008 1:11:31 AM carey heather i want a movie night and a pizza night and a skate night...

11/09/2008 1:13:34 AM carey heather noone knows how bad it hurts me to push my kids away. and i dont think anyone cares either. i am showing you things and you say i have no idea what i am doing, but god is behind me. i do what i do to prove what i must. if i cannot prove it, i have failed my one task god has appointed me with.

11/09/2008 1:14:43 AM carey heather look at it from my eyes? who is going to save me? who is going to catch me when i fall?

11/09/2008 1:15:45 AM carey heather i open my soul an it always falls on deaf ears.

11/09/2008 1:16:27 AM carey heather "lord, why did you make the earth pur blasphemy?"

11/09/2008 1:16:41 AM heather carey ({) i need some time

11/09/2008 1:16:48 AM carey heather me too

11/09/2008 1:17:06 AM carey heather i am hungry. what can i make to eat?

11/09/2008 1:17:18 AM heather carey to be honest i have no clue

11/09/2008 1:17:30 AM carey heather k, ill figure something out

11/09/2008 1:17:38 AM heather carey look i am stressed out and if you could help me it would be great

11/09/2008 1:18:02 AM carey heather what do you need help with?

11/09/2008 1:18:21 AM heather carey let me do some reading, and unwind a bit and i will try and tell you

11/09/2008 1:18:24 AM heather carey again

11/09/2008 1:18:43 AM carey heather oh, you mean that...

11/09/2008 1:18:50 AM heather carey no

11/09/2008 1:19:10 AM heather carey i have some issues i need to work on and it is an emergency

11/09/2008 1:19:59 AM carey heather drifters are the smartest people alive.

11/09/2008 1:20:14 AM heather carey so go get youu something to eat and maybe we will talk abou them maybe we will just be quiet.

11/09/2008 1:22:22 AM carey heather "This day is not likely to be the highlight of your week, dear Leo. "

11/09/2008 1:23:06 AM carey heather "To be a catalyst is the ambition most appropriate for those who see the world as being in constant change, and who, without thinking that they can control it, wish to influence its direction." Theodore Zeldin

11/09/2008 1:23:36 AM carey heather yeah, i know you hate me. :)

11/09/2008 1:24:14 AM heather carey say some thing nice

11/09/2008 1:24:28 AM carey heather hmm...

11/09/2008 1:24:52 AM carey heather you are beautiful.

11/09/2008 1:39:58 AM carey heather i found a plant growing game you might like

11/09/2008 1:41:01 AM heather carey that's cool, there was one i had played once . i haven't been in a real gaming mood for a while now

11/09/2008 1:41:10 AM carey heather k

11/09/2008 1:41:47 AM carey heather what time do you think you will make that sandwich?

11/09/2008 1:41:57 AM heather carey 2 minutes

11/09/2008 1:42:01 AM carey heather k

11/09/2008 1:42:39 AM carey heather what kind of plants would grow well in 80 degree temp. and 100% humidity?

11/09/2008 1:43:10 AM heather carey weed

11/09/2008 1:43:15 AM carey heather lol

11/09/2008 1:43:18 AM heather carey oh

11/09/2008 1:44:08 AM heather carey stuff like beach plants, plants that like sand to be honest i am not sure off the top of my head. i could tell you maybe by looking at them who knows. i am dumb there is nothing i can say thank you.

11/09/2008 1:47:38 AM carey heather im going to try 80F and 100% humidity and see what evolves

11/09/2008 1:48:02 AM heather carey that sounds cool i am going to go fix sandwich

11/09/2008 1:48:07 AM carey heather k, ty
Re: Be Careful2 or not?

"Sound like you are channeling something

deep inside you I think. So be careful OK."
Looks like a script to a new Poltergesit Movie...

Hey Ruthless

See what is on your Heart...

Trust Your feelings...

act accord...
Apr 1, 2008
did anyone even find this interesting?
That was a lot to read. Usually when I want to digest something very long I put it on my text to speech and listen to it. So, I listened to it. On your other post that lookes like a list of inbox email. If that is true you get a lot of it.


New member
Nov 12, 2009
The painter swashes his brush across the canvass and reveals a terrible image. All hope seems lost, until he realizes that he can paint over his mistakes with divine beauty. Only when the picture is complete can we judge the quality of the work. :)


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Jan 18, 2007
I figured i would share my mental breakdown/ call for help with the people here in hopes that it would help someone. The funny thing is, it ends up helping me. Time after time.